#transramcoa

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TRANSRAMCOA & PROGRAMMED TIPS

Emotional & cognitive cues

Loss of agency / conflict: frequently says things like “I don’t know if that was me” or “I felt like I had to.”

Confusion & memory gaps: vague about stretches of time, struggles to place events.

Hypervigilance: easily startled, scans rooms, unsettled by sudden noises or certain words.

Dissociation: moments of blankness, zoning out, or describing a feeling of watching themselves. Describe non-graphically: “It’s like I’m behind glass.”

Internal conflict: shame about actions they can’t explain; guilt and fear mixed with relief when instructions stop.

Attachment fragility: swings from clinging to withdrawal — tests whether others will stay.

Behavioral cues

Automatic responses: brief, seemingly out-of-context phrases or gestures that surprise them afterward, example: a sudden head tilt, a whispered word, or a tiny physical action you can’t recall initiating.

Reassurance seeking: asks for confirmation often (“Did I do that? Are you still here?”).

Avoidance of triggers: certain locations, smells, or words cause visible discomfort. You may ask to leave.

Ritualized coping: repetitive, non-harmful actions to feel grounded (counting breaths, rubbing a bracelet, repeating a chosen grounding phrase).

How to make it believable without graphic detail

Use sensory, emotional language rather than technical descriptions: “When I hear that sound, my chest goes tight and everything becomes foggy.”

Keep references to “programming” vague and subjective: “I was made to obey... that’s how it felt.” Don’t explain mechanisms.

Micro-commands: you mayr suddenly say a short command the group once used, harmless and non-actionable, example: “Stay.” — then look startled and apologetic.

Trigger phrase reaction: hearing a word causes you to freeze for a second, blink a lot, or step back. (Show discomfort; ask to stop if it’s used.)

Automatic smile or nod: a brief, out-of-context expression that you notice and hate when it happens.

Counting/grounding: to self-soothe they quietly count 4–3–2–1 under breath, or touch a token on your person.

Fragmented memory: “I remember a hallway… then nothing. I wake up with bruises in my head, but not on my skin.” (Metaphorical, non-graphic.)

i got bored and decided to make flags for my programs. i gave all of these very little thought and i will never do this again. all are under the cut.