How do you know you're transRAMCOA or what the term is? I really relate to this blog, in more ways than not. It just confuses me a bit, maybe because I see so much of myself and I've never really known who me is, haha ๐
honestly if you relate to this blog, you probably are! as with any identity, if you find yourself wishing you were that identity then you very likely are that identity in some way.
though none of this is required to be transRAMCOA, some questions I would ask are:
what's your relationship with dissociation? are you already a system?
when you imagine yourself being programmed does it feel validating?
what's your relationship with abuse, do you desire more?
do you have a desire to be made to do tasks against your will? do you wanted to be owned or used by someone you view as a superior?
answering yes to these questions would make it very likely you identify with the label.
I'm guessing since you struggle to know who you are, you do experience dissociation. this could very well be a validating path for you, it certainly has for me. if the label benefits you, then you are that label and can seek resources/ways to affirm your identity as that label. knowing you are transRAMCOA could be a label that helps you define your connection with your inner identity(ies)!