So I've been confused about my own self since I was young, I couldn't really tell how's my personality actually is.
Well I know, there's something deep inside of me, something that I hide from most people. It is not a bad thing, but why am i afraid to let people know?
I've been liking psychology related topics, I know about MBTI since a long time ago. But every time I took the test, it gave me different results so I just shrugged it off. What to expect from someone who didn't know her own self?
Until shit happened again in my life.
I had a new friend who I know from a community. My first impression was he's nice and we were kinda close. Over the time my hunch told me there's something not right. I know what it was but I let it happen. I feel like i was taken advantage of, my kindness was taken advantage of but again I let it happen. I always thought that 'oh yeah that's a bad thing to do but I believe he has a reason behind his action'. I hate myself. Long story short I could finally free from him. He's blocked because he's draining my energy so much.
I'm the type to learn about myself more every time shit happened to reflect myself so I can be a better person. I came across MBTI again when I searched about personality. Since it always gave me different results, I decided to do my own research by read and learn about MBTI personalities and their cognitive functions one by one.
Then, I know I'm an INFJ.
And everything, literally everything, that happened in my life makes sense. Why did i do this when this happened, why did i do that when that happened, why am I always like this etc. Everything makes sense. It's because I'm an INFJ.