Said Cain to his mother, "Am I my brother's keeper?"
Eve kneels in front of him, the boy barely old enough to understand what he is asking. Takes his face in her hand, looks him in the eye.
He must watch out for his younger brother, must keep him safe, must teach him how to be a boy, must make sure he knows how to pray and how to find his way home (though, to Cain, they are one and the same). He smiles at the boy who toddles behind him through the garden, mud up to his knees and elbows, smudged across his nose. This boy has his heart - he would be his brother's keeper even without his mother's word.
The first time Cain finds himself with Abel's blood on his hands, he doesn't know what to do. Abel lies bleeding in the garden - his knee is skinned and the blood is everywhere - it seeps into the soil and stains the stone and it is so sticky and red on Cain's hands as he cries for his mother.
Cain cries as Eve bandages Abel. He is still crying when Abel runs back outside to play in the garden. Cain is his brother's keeper. He should have been keeping a closer eye on his brother, should have told him to be careful, should have run slower, should have --
The rocks in the garden dig into his knees as he prays forgiveness. It feels right. It feels deserved. He stays out there until the ground is cold, the blood long since dried, and long after his mother has called him in for dinner.
Said Cain to his father, "Am I my brother's keeper?"
His father's back is turned but Cain can almost hear Adam roll his eyes.
Abel is a young man now, and almost never home. It is somehow Cain's job to know his brother's whereabouts, Cain's job to make sure his brother is home for dinner, Cain's job to ease his mother's mind when his brother is out after dark or before sunrise. Cain is, after all, his brother's keeper.
Cain has never known what it means to be a boy, to be a man, yet he has taught his brother without fail. He, however, has only ever known what it means to be the older brother. He knows that when his fathers feet ache, it is his job to pull the plow. When Eve tends the hearth until she collapses with fever it is his job to work in her stead. And his job to care for his mother as she rests.
When Abel comes home bloodied, his mother cries and his father scolds. Cain simply sighs, and hangs a pot of water over the fire. Pulls out the scrap cloth and soap. Abel grins as he regales his brother with the day’s adventure. Doesn’t notice that the only response is a smile and a tired nod.
Cain is the last person awake that night - tired body slumped by the dying fire as he washes his brother’s blood from his hands for the hundredth time. Cain is, after all, his brother’s keeper.
The last time Cain has Abel’s blood on his hands, he doesn’t know what to do. Just stands still, sways in the breeze, watches as the blood paints the stones, paints the soil, paints his hands. There is so much blood on his hands. Cain knows he cannot hide from his Lord. There is only so much time until he is pressed for a reason. He should think - he should know what he is to say.
Cain doesn’t know who he is without Abel. He is - he was his brother’s keeper. If not the older brother, who is he anymore?
It is not long before the footsteps approach and a voice sounds from behind. Cain dares not turn to meet the gaze of the speaker.
"And where, Cain, is your brother?"
Said Cain to his Lord, "am I my brother's keeper?" and for the first time -