#apostake

“Inseminary”

or “Lockpick to the Priesthood” or “Come Unto Me” or “Pearl Necklace of Great Price” or “Faith is Like a Little Seed”

Authentic stolen holy text, Near Clear silicone, gold pigment.

I went to the mormon church’s website, looked up their views on homosexuality, noted the scriptures they referenced, ripped them by hand out of the bible and book of mormon I stole from their chapel, and then mixed them into a silicone dildo of my own design like confetti. A dildo which will of course be used for homosexual purposes (with non-lubricated condoms and water based lube, for safety).

I’ve wanted to try dildo making for literally over a decade. I don’t have any fancy equipment like a 3D printer or a vacuum chamber, I made the sculpt by hand, and I fucked up a lot along the way, but all that being said I’m proud of what I was able to accomplish and I learned a lot. I put in more gold than I meant to, but honestly, it was meant to represent scripture’s gilded edges, and as it turned out, it looks really beautiful or quite filthy depending on the lighting, which feels entirely appropriate for scripture.

It was hard to read all of those verses. But as I tore them up I bathed them in the intention to take words that were meant to inflict queer pain wherever they go, and say “Actually, I pull those words out when I want some queer pleasure.” Build joy where they want you to have it the least.

Read about/donate to the Timpanogos tribe, for whom brigham young sent out an “extermination order”

a lot of cults burn really quick and fast, and die out in a few years, or a few decades, but the ones that last for generations screw up whole families and cultures of people in horrific ways.

trickle down abuse. multi level marketing abuse. my parents were not abusive. but they were, because they raised me in a cult. my parents were not abusive. but I was raised in a cult, which is in itself, inherently abusive. my parents chose to raise me said cult. but both of them were generational cult babies just like I was.

do I blame my parents? no... maybe.

It's way more complicated than anything I could ever answer. Can I blame them for how they hurt my siblings but not for how they hurt me? do I even blame them for how they hurt my siblings or am I just angry?

how can I rationalize the amount of trauma and baggage I carry, and will carry for the rest of my stupid fucking life, because of what they perpetuated?

link to send support:

Lady: I didn’t think you’d be okay with that?

Mom: you don’t think I would support my kid?

Lady: well, weren’t you raised mormon? I’m Catholic so…

Mom: well, every persons got a church that brainwashed them

Lady: -

Mom: I don’t believe in organized religion

Why? If they're as true and good as they say they are then what reason do they have to hide those things, except to propagate the false narrative that the violence against Mormonism was one-sided and baseless, and Joseph Smith 'died an innocent man'? Even the portrayals of him in church artwork make him look like a upstanding, good man rather than the conniving, blatantly evil man he really was.

The fact that the Church claims that they do not change the word of God based on the world's standards, but actual research shows that they have been changing the narrative of the creation of, and early days of the Church to fit society's standards to convince more people to join is completely disgusting as well.

Honestly, in my opinion, no one should ever consider being baptised into Mormonism before they know the full story of the Church's establishment. That's probably why the missionaries are taught to get people baptised as fast as possible. Read up about the Mormon Church and learn everything about it, and after that if you still want to join then go ahead.

Trying to convince people to not join the Church is never going to work; instead promoting critical thinking and research and 'asking questions', which the Church itself claims to advocate for, are the only ways to make it known to people exactly what they're getting into before they're trapped with next to no way out.