#ex lds

i am genuinely glad that so many exmos have been able to accept their sexuality or gender after leaving the church, and have managed to unlearn the sexism and homophobia the church teaches. but have you unlearned the racism? have you taken steps to unlearn the racism?

it’s interesting that when you look up what the interior of a Mormon church looks like you only get like, one picture of an average church. The rest are of temples (only from the open houses) and historical buildings. The pictures you can find are fancy compared to churches I’ve been to (and they’re all of chapels, not of the rest of the building). I think it’s indicative of the church only really shows off the best looking parts of the religion. You don’t see the places an average Mormon person will spend a lot of their time because they’re not that pretty. You don’t learn about Joseph Smith’s wives because it’s too hard to explain. They don’t tell you about the temple or Mormon heaven because it’d make them look bad. They give you what looks enticing to pull you in.

the exmo horror of being baptized at 8 years old because all the adults and kids around you were really excited and kept saying it would make God happy but then growing up and realizing how awful everything is about your religion but now you *can't* leave because once you're baptized you're forever spiritually Mormon and apostates are cast into an eternal void 'out of range of God's love' and the existential dread hurts more than just obeying

i hate the church i hate the church i hate the church