#ed implied

all of my problems would disappear if i were 10cm taller and 10kg lighter actually

Lowk want to skin myself alive

Lowk want to rip this repulsive face clean off

Lowk want to throw up until my stomach ruptures

Lowk want an illegal lobotomy

Lowk waiting to get plastic surgery

Lowk want to try drugs

Lowk want to get used

Lowk want to become so unrecognizable ppl don't even think im the same person

Lowk want to abuse this fuckass body until it gives up or somebody else notices and begs me to stop.

Lowk want to kill myself:)

ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀᴡᴇɪɢʜᴛ ʙᴜᴛ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢ ғᴀᴛ ɪs ʟɪᴛᴇʀᴀʟʟʏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀsᴛ ᴘᴏᴛɪᴏɴ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ʙʏ ᴍɪɴᴇᴄʀᴀғᴛ ᴡɪᴛᴄʜᴇs</33

Coping Mechanisms

eft tapping

journaling

physical activity (not to a harmful extent)

cold shower

box breathing

yoga, meditation, and stretching

cleaning (not in an obsessive way)

laying on the ground

handwritten mirror affirmations

listen to upbeat and happy music

tell someone and talk about it

sleep

draw or do henna on your skin

ask someone to have a meal with you

eat in small sections until you eat the proper amount of a meal

eat safe foods

distract yourself while eating

do something from start to finish to remove a stresser

keep everything harmful in a safe and only use it when supervised

eat sour candy or drink lemon juice

go outside

use fidget toys

hit something soft (do it safely and only when 100% necessary)

get cozy with a weighted blanket, pillow, or stuffed animal

hang out with your pets

distract yourself with anything else that may be comforting to you

(tw body image issues)

The Judgment of Paris is a silly contest. Aphrodite thinks it's mostly teasing, Hera is there to get back at Zeus, and Athena...

Athena doesn't care about looks. Of course not. Why would it matter to her? She's the goddess of war, of wisdom. Of clothes woven with enough skill that they distract from the body they cover. At least when she makes them for herself.

Why would she even look at herself in the mirror? Question whether the goddess of war could ever win a contest like that if no one cheated... Whether she would have just been the least of three, or whether they could have asked Paris to choose out of 100 women and he would have still found her lacking?

...

My parents spent our childhoods wishing they didn't have to feed us or deal with food at all so we were forever sneaking bits of bread and fruit in ways that wouldn't be noticed. There WAS food around, we were not poor, we just weren't allowed to eat anything. I used to eat dry leftover bread that mom would save for breadcrumbs and stuff, because it was the only thing she somehow didn't consider to be overtly unhealthy snacking.

The situation in DR isn't the same obviously, but Kris does go hungry a lot (because of us and because their parents don't notice) and the concept of Asriel sneaking Kris chocolate in his pockets and getting them hot chocolate on the sly, feels like something my brother and I would do. So would eating a whole pie in secret actually.

We have a Christmas tradition now, just the two of us, where we eat tortiere together. Just us and a bigass homemade pie lol.