#ed implied

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Lowk want to skin myself alive

Lowk want to rip this repulsive face clean off

Lowk want to throw up until my stomach ruptures

Lowk want an illegal lobotomy

Lowk waiting to get plastic surgery

Lowk want to try drugs

Lowk want to get used

Lowk want to become so unrecognizable ppl don't even think im the same person

Lowk want to abuse this fuckass body until it gives up or somebody else notices and begs me to stop.

Lowk want to kill myself:)

back to the grind ( ate one meal for the day with no snacks )

Coping Mechanisms

eft tapping

journaling

physical activity (not to a harmful extent)

cold shower

box breathing

yoga, meditation, and stretching

cleaning (not in an obsessive way)

laying on the ground

handwritten mirror affirmations

listen to upbeat and happy music

tell someone and talk about it

sleep

draw or do henna on your skin

ask someone to have a meal with you

eat in small sections until you eat the proper amount of a meal

eat safe foods

distract yourself while eating

do something from start to finish to remove a stresser

keep everything harmful in a safe and only use it when supervised

eat sour candy or drink lemon juice

go outside

use fidget toys

hit something soft (do it safely and only when 100% necessary)

get cozy with a weighted blanket, pillow, or stuffed animal

hang out with your pets

distract yourself with anything else that may be comforting to you

My thoughts feel like that one relative who keeps talking about your insecurities. like when I see people eat my mind goes like "damn, thats atleast x calories and they already ate x before. If I ate that I would feel guilty af..."

I LITERALLY CANT CONTROL IT. Even when I see people prepare or make food my first thought is how much calories does that actually have?? This is probably cuz I have a really bad relationship with food or whatever I literally don't say anything ever because Im not that big of an asshole. Idrc about other peoples bodies and how much they should or shouldnt eat its just none of my business so WHY DO I ALWAYS THINK THAT!!!

"Damn I could never eat that, thats like SO many calories!! " CAN MY MIND STFU??! SRSLY

Lowk is it wierd to say now that I watch mugbanks just so I get these thoughts on purpose when Im hungry? I feel like such an asshole rn omfg

i keep eating i hate this i feel so fat and ugly nobody will want me if im a fat chud