There are days when I can't feel anything but envy of the other girls. It may be ridiculous to think like that, I FEEL RIDICULOUS THINKING LIKE THAT!!!
But even when this happens, I feel very jealous because they all seem happier and more satisfied. I wish I could be smarter like them, prettier like them, more stable, all this seems to be so out of my reach.
Well, tomorrow I start a liquid diet. I'm going to travel at the end of this month and I want to at least feel good enough to eat one or two things during. I'll keep the diet for as long as possible, eat only if I'm about to faint.
Wish me good luck. :)
