#tw ed trigger

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Uh spaming is definitely allowed , liking rbs comments etc idrc what you do

Suggestions for what to do are appreciated

Dont feel like you have to do this, its my first notes game i js really need motivation rn

Use hy/he/him 4 me :>

uh red means reached , green means in progress,blue means completed, ill update this as i go

5 notes : Brush teeth once a day

10 notes: Do laundry AND fold them once a week

15 notes: Put laundry away after its done

20 notes: Take a shower once a day

25 notes: Brush teeth twice a day

30 notes: Do school work if i can

35 notes: Study for school

40 notes: Start going on walks once a week

45 notes: Try to regulate sleep schedule

50 notes: Try eating less takeout

55 notes: Start saving up money for the future

60 notes: Draw more

65 notes: Try making more online friends

70 notes: Go on walks twice a week

75 notes: Go on walks everyday

80 notes: Start talking more in therapy

85 notes: Eat healthier

90 notes: Make a healthy diet. For myself

95 notes: Take a weeks break from sh

100 notes: Stop weighing myself

105 notes:try to make IRL friends

110 notes: Practice guitar bc i gave up

115 notes: Try to clean up more

120 notes: Go on 2 walks every day

125 notes: Try calling myself my prefered name more often (if safe)

130 note: Try to wear and buy more clothes i like

135 notes: Try photography for college refs

140 notes: Try cooking my own food

145 notes: Talk to my doctor about my chronic pain

150 notes: Ask my therapist abt getting a autism diagnosis

155 notes: Learn more Italian

160 notes: Stop sh for a month

165 notes: Tell my therapist abt my mom

170 notes:be more open abt age regression

175: Leak my freak blog

180: Talk to my partners about issues and hard stuff even if im scared

185 notes: Stop sh for 3 months

190 months: Start working out

195 notes:try to find a job

200 notes: Leak by other blog

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i hate how the phrase "struggling with food" is immediately thought of as starving oneself because it's not just that! it's so much more, it's eating till you feel like your stomach is gonna rip apart, it's tracking calorie after calorie because it feels like your life depends on it, it's not being able to eat unless you excercise or purge the food away after, but most importantly it's different for every. single. person.

However. Professional athletes burn obscene amounts of calories and think of eating right very differently than the average person. My competitive swimming career was not that serious, like I never even went to Olympic trials, and I would get so sick of eating that I would literally cry while I was shoving food into my mouth lol. With a professional athlete we’re talking about minimum 4k just to not lose muscle mass, up to 8k as maintenance per day. If you have never eaten that way for an extended period of time it’s hard to express how deeply unfun this is.

Hockey players specifically bulk during the off season because they literally can’t keep the weight on when they’re competing often. Eating even fun food often becomes a chore, and if you don’t eat “dirty” aka unhealthy high calorie stuff like processed and fast foods it’s even worse.

A good point of reference for a “clean” pro sports diet is Tom Brady, who infamously is very restrictive although he’s still on the very conservative end at 3-4k per day. You can also talk to any gym bro in your life who will go on to tell you insane shit about how it’s actually so simple they just eat a pound of plain chicken breasts and a dozen eggs every day as a base.

Being strict, mechanical, unkind to himself and putting his performance over his own happiness is going to look like ungodly amounts of lean protein and shakes and sweet potatoes. Not rice cakes and cucumbers.

Not like I’m an expert here and also it’s fiction so follow your heart and dreams but I’ve seen so many stories where Shane is feeling guilty about eating too many calories or skipping meals and it would realistically be the opposite.

Y'all. I have worked with pro athletes at an elite level (not hockey; cycling) and those dudes have crazy, intense, super weird diets and relationships with food. And also, like, very concrete, data driven relationships with their bodies and the kind of performance they can achieve with very specific inputs. That shit is very real, and I guess you can call it an eating disorder, because yeah, it's intense, and if a person who wasn't trying to hone their performance did it, it would be unhinged, and yes, it's definitely about control and etc., and has psychological extensions, but... It also works for them?

I feel like ramping up a pro athlete's performance diet into something pathological or an ED as we usually think of it is not quite right, honestly. Some things become fandom catechism, like, a "Shane has an ED," and we all take it as given, but I beg to differ.

And pro athletes, in my experience, do just say "fuck it, I'm eating chicken parm and a litre of ice cream" sometimes. They aren't SICK, they are just intensely focused on working to control and regulate their bodies, and they CAN just choose to relax that.

i should be allowed to have as many sweets i want without the consequences of weight