#cognitive overload

Tapi, saya sadar bahwa kegiatan konsumsi pengetahuan saya gak sejalan dengan output yang saya hasilkan. Saya pikir dengan semakin banyak saya membaca, mengikuti rasa ingin tahu, mencerna pengetahuan menarik, secara otomatis saya akan memproduksi gagasan, tulisan, eksperimen, atau output lainnya. Tapi ternyata enggak gitu.

Saya jadi ngerasa banyak ilmu yang saya miliki gak bermanfaat. Seolah ilmu yang saya cari cuma sekadar untuk memuaskan intelektualitas saya. Pada taraf tertentu, kayaknya ini sah-sah aja. Tapi kalau kelamaan kayak gini, saya ngerasa ada yang salah.

Saya berefleksi, mungkinkah cara konsumsi pengetahuan saya salah? Mungkin saya sekadar mengeksplorasi namun tak memiliki tujuan, akhirnya menyebabkan cognitive overload.

Makanya saya mau coba tetapkan sebuah objektif belajar. Saya ingin menjadi ..., karena itu saya butuh ilmu bagaimana ... (rahasia).

Terus saya juga mau ngebiasain lagi share refleksi yang saya punya dari proses pembelajaran saya ke internet. Entah Tumblr, Instagram, atau X. Tulisan ini adalah salah satu contohnya.

Saya juga perlu ngurangin noise dari media sosial dengan ngurangin frekuensi pegang HP dan menggantinya dengan sesuatu yang lain, entah buku fisik, kindle, atau sekalian dengan laptop. Kalau pake laptop bawaannya pengen nulis atau ikut course.

Sama ada satu lagi yang saya pikirin. Mungkin udah saatnya saya punya blog serius, misalnya di Medium atau di Subsctack. Isinya structured knowledge dari ilmu yang saya akuisisi. Nanti kalau udah ada tulisannya saya share. Kalau sekarang kosong banget, gak ada value-nya sama sekali.

Look, I’m not looking at you. Not because I’m shy. I’m avoiding eye contact like it’s a goddamn landmine. Why? Because the weekend vanished faster than my last shred of patience. Blink, and it’s gone. And no, I didn’t enjoy it. I was stuck running errands for family like their personal Uber-slave.

So don’t get me started on that unholy greeting. “Happy—Monday!” No. It’s not happy. It’s not Monday. It’s a cosmic prank designed by Satan’s HR department.

And if you think I’m gonna smile and chirp like some Disney reject? Hell no. I don’t even fucking talk to you like that. So don’t make me start.

Monday? More like “Motherf*cker’s Day.” And I’m just here, pretending I didn’t just survive the hellscape of errands and family bullshit.

So save your “Happy Monday.” I’m busy rehearsing my “Get the f*ck out of my way” face.

A small warning: the language here can feel trance-like for certain readers. Read consciously, pause if needed, stay grounded. ✦ ᛉ ᚨ ᚷ ᛟ ✦

Confusion isn’t a mistake. It’s a door.

We are thinking beings — I think, therefore I am, as the saying goes. So, there’s a hypnotic technique that works beautifully: overload.

It’s biological, really. There’s only so much the brain can hold before it starts to overflow. Like an old version of Windows that couldn’t multitask, and if you pushed it too far— you’d get the Blue Screen of Death.

The veterans know what I’m talking about. The newer ones? Let’s just say there was a time when system errors were something to fear.

So, if the goal of hypnosis were not to think — (which it isn’t, but let’s pretend for a moment that it is) — then what better way than to fill the mind until logic has nowhere left to stand?

When things stop making sense, and all that’s left is to listen—

too many words, too many sounds, too many thoughts, too much—

and then, silence.

The cognitive system collapses. The unconscious takes the wheel.

As Erickson might say: Overload is the art of controlled overflow.

Embrace the chaos. Because within it— comes illumination.

Yes, this is a thing.  It’s still a case of having too much to process and being overloaded by that.  “Cognitive overload” is a term used in teaching to mean that a teacher is asking their students to process too many things at once, so you could generalize that to apply to this situation as well.