#celegrom

It was another beautiful morning, another morning meaning another heap of muffled yelling from downstairs. You groaned and rubbed your eyes to clear away the last bits of peaceful sleep.

At this point you were starting to give up on the idea of ever getting to sleep in for a day. It simply was not possible with the Fëanorians around. Much less, specifically, with Celegorm. Who coincidentally is also the reason for your rude awakening.

“Hey y/n! Wake up. It’s morn already, we’re hungry.” He quite literally yelled at you. Unfortunately he had abandoned his prior position at the door in favor of standing by your bed. This meant you now had a god awful ringing in your right ear for the past 5 minutes. You glared at him and told him to get out, which he did.

You slowly got up from your bed, getting dressed was not your priority right now. You were overheating from both the summer weather and the idiot that had woken you. So you decided to change later, right now you needed something cold.

Slipping on some light shoes you walked down the hallway to the living room. It made you happy to see they had learned from the previous days not to do any cookery in the fire place, and to patiently wait for you to wake up. Patiently is subjective here. It seems it always is with these guys around.

Beauty is subjective as well. Perhaps it’s the most subjective thing out there. There are beauty standards, but many don’t adhere to them. It’s simply not natural. If only people could see one another through the lens of love and compassion, maybe there would have been fewer hurts. You thought sadly. You arrived in the hallway and was greeted as usual. Happy smiles and welcoming gestures.

Breakfast was tasty and light. It seemed that everyone shared your thought of needing something cold. So breakfast consisted of many fruits and cold drinks. Somehow Caranthir still managed to drink his many cups of coffee for breakfast. How he was keeping himself cool and fresh was a mystery to you.

After breakfast everyone went about their day in varying scales of loudness. You decided to sit out on the sofa for a little bit. Not wanting to go out in the heat just yet. You started to doze off a little. However as soon as you got comfortable the doorbell scared you out of your wits.

You weren’t expecting anyone, right…? Your thoughts were a jumbled mess and you attempted to untangle them on your way to the door. You opened the door and before you stood a delivery guy. With two big boxes signed by a few clothing companies.

Then it clicked. You ordered clothes for the 7 elves in your household. You quickly took the packages and signed the delivery paper. Wishing the delivery guy a good day as you closed the door.

Walking back to the living room you practically yelled for everyone to come to the living room to try out their new clothes. Soon everyone was seated and visibly excited, if not a little anxious to try out their new items.

The Ambarussa’s outfits were a great success. They looked great in the varying shades of green and brown they chose for their first outfit change. Celegorm had something that looked ridiculously similar to an elvish archer outfit. Though perhaps a little more casual. Nonetheless it looked great.

Maglor immediately threw himself on the biggest, puffiest minstrel sleeved shirt he had bought. It was a pure white and had a lovely embroidered neckline. He was head over heels with it and spent the rest of the day in it.

Curufin pulled out some exceedingly fancy items from his package. He still looked ridiculously regal in the fine fabrics, but compared to his elvish robe you could get away with calling his new outfit “Casual”.  His current favorite was a deep maroon shirt with a snug fit around the body. It had some golden detailing on it to make the soft fabric stand out. He had let you touch it prior to wearing, since he did agree that it was very good quality.

Caranthir was pretty straight forward with his clothing as well. A textured black jacket with silver thread embroidery seemed to be his current favorite. He seemed to enjoy the deeper shades on the color spectrum. He wore a highly pigmented, deep Bordeaux red top under his jacket.

Maedhros was quite excited about his items, until he tried on a particular top. It was a gorgeous peacock green with long sleeves, but the neckline had been a deeper cut than what he anticipated. Exposing many of his scars as a result. His face fell and he instinctively reached to cover the exposed skin with his left hand.

It was obvious that he was uncomfortable, so you quickly gave him a different shirt with a higher neckline for him to change in to.  He thanked you and changed into it quickly.

Though his shirt now changed and didn’t expose as much scars, his face remained sullen.

For the most part of the day, everyone seemed to enjoy their items, both the clothing and the decor. Maedhros however wasn’t so chipper anymore. Caranthir seemed to notice this as well.

Something you had noticed about both Maedhros and Caranthir was that their clothing interests , modesty wise, were extremely similar.  Both preferred clothes with high necklines, long sleeves and hemlines that also draped down as low as possible. Their clothes seemed to cover almost every bit of skin they had. Modesty is never a bad thing of course, and you knew that. Though something inside you remained warry of Maedhros’ and Caranthir’s reactions to some clothing styles.

Take for example the lovely phthalo blue shirt you pointed out to Caranthir when you were online shopping, it would surely look good on him. He had glanced over the item no more than even half a second before paling and brushing you off. “Absolutely not, do you wish for me to look like a beaten corpse?” he sounded somewhat hostile and avoided eye contact with you for a good 5 minutes after.

Maedhros made it quite clear at the beginning of the shopping spree that he would take his time looking for proper clothing. He wanted modest lines. As such he also paled visibly each time one of his brothers suggested him clothes with daring lines. He however wasn’t responding to them in a hostile way, he wasn’t responding at all.

Every time something specifically different to their tasted passed by, their reactions would seem as if they had been nailed to the ground in fear, like a startled deer caught in the glaring headlights of a passing car. Unsure how to act.

Maedhros had been hiding away in his room for the remainder of the day. Each time you came to visit he somehow scrunched deeper away into himself at his desk. Assuring you that all was fine with a smile that looked just a tiny bit forced.   He had refused to come to dinner this evening, you were starting to worry about him.

It was 01:48 am when you finally decided to come ask him what happened. The majority of the Fëanorians had retired to their rooms, so that gave you some guarantee that there would be little interruption.

You walked upstairs quietly. Cicada’s and birds were singing their songs loudly out in the garden, contrasting heavily with the silence in the house. Their song always seemed so much louder at night.

You gently knocked on the door, hoping not to wake Maglor in case he was sleeping. A barely audible “come in” came from behind the door, and you stepped inside. Maglor was indeed already asleep, his back turned towards you. Maedhros was still awake and sitting at the desk with a lone candle lighting up the space.

He turned away from the desk slightly, but not enough to show his face to you. “Is everything alright y/n ? Why are you not asleep?” he asked in a hushed tone. You walked a bit closer to him so you wouldn’t have to speak so loud. “I’m fine, but we missed you during dinner as well as during the rest of the day. Is anything bothering you Maedhros?” you whispered. His body tensed for a moment when you said that. He let out a sigh. “No, I am fine, it is nothing you need to worry about.”

You stood there for a moment, quietly pondering what to do or say next.  You remembered that somewhere in the Silmarillion it was described that Maedhros had an extremely low self esteem regarding his appearance post Angband.

You glanced over his hunched form. Taking in the many scars upon his skin. Lingering on his missing hand for a few seconds. You knew very well what horrors he’d been through. You felt a wave of sadness rush over you. It pained you that he had suffered so much, and to see that even now, far from the horrors of Angband he was still suffering.  You wanted to help him somehow, perhaps offer him some words to console him. Unfortunately words were failing you at this moment.  So all you could do was stand there by his side, pondering and mulling over things quietly.

You were startled from your meditative haze by a short knock on the door. The door opened to reveal a cranky looking Caranthir. He looked dishevelled and had darker than normal circles under his eyes. He stepped further into the room, eyeing both you and Maedhros with questioning eyes. “What is going on here? Are you two done having your tea party yet?” he hissed.

Maedhros sighed and turned towards his brother. “Y/n only came to ask if everything was okay. No tea parties here dear brother.” He said.  You stepped to the side so you could face both Fëanorians at the same time.  You thought it over and decided it might be good to get information from both of them over tea. Perhaps Caranthir’s tea party joke wasn’t too far off.

In a soft voice you asked them to come downstairs for some herbal tea. Chamomile, lavender, Valerian, you had all three. Something for each person’s needs.

As such it turned out that all three of you were now sitting at the kitchen table drinking tea. Maedhros got the strongest herb; Valerian. Most commonly used for destressing an individual to the point of near knockout. This of course depends on the dosage. You used loose leaf teas, so you made sure to be careful.  Caranthir had chamomile and you drank lavender. Caranthir had complained before that he felt stressed and couldn’t sleep well. Chamomile helps with relaxation, unfortunately Caranthir didn’t fancy the flavor much. You had gotten a streak of insomnia from the sudden changes in your life, this combined with poor digestive health led to you now drinking lavender tea.

You stayed still for a while, observing the scene. Both Caranthir and Maedhros were starting to visibly relax and unwind from your herbal tea. The night air was starting to chill a little.  The silence between the three of you was comfortable.

Maedhros set down his cup on the table, he sighed and reeled back into the chair. He rubbed his face with his hand, contemplating what to say or do.  He broke the silence not too long after that.  

“I felt exposed this afternoon. Too much for my comfort.”

This startled both you and Caranthir. Caranthir knew from the many years he’d spent with his brother that speaking of his appearance was challenging to say the least. Maedhros always covered his scars as much as possible, especially post Angband. After his torture in the hands of Morgoth, he became cold and discarded a lot of things he used to care about appearance wise.  He had cut his hair as short as that of the human men, and refused to wear the clothes he once wore. They drew too much attention to his “unsightly parts” as he would say. Even his copper circlet, made by his father, had been banished to the back of one of his drawers to collect dust and grime.

Losing his right hand on top of the scarring, was almost the last drop for the bucket to overflow. Through his time in Mandos he has recovered slightly, but far from enough.

“I understand how you feel somewhat. Though my worries are perhaps not as great as yours, I still feel insecure about my appearance as well.” Caranthir suddenly said.

Caranthir has always been made fun of due to his red facedness. His birthmarks span not only over his face but on his neck and arms too. Elvish beauty standards are not always inclusive. Especially in the elder days when there simply were no other known races yet. There was no appreciation for differences back then. It sounds rather black and white, perhaps it is, maybe not. Unfortunately in the times when he was younger he simply didn’t have anyone else who looked the same. So the constant taunting and poking only further fuelled his doubts and insecurities. At some point he truly felt like his birthmarks were a curse.

You felt grieved to hear their stories. From the book you can only get so much, yet now you got to see them face to face. It’s so incredibly different. Nowadays we also have many beauty standards. Mostly they are Eurocentric. Luckily lately this has started to change, even if only a little. A little often goes a long way. Acceptance is slowly becoming the new normal.

You looked at the two elves, taking in their appearance.

Maedhros’ hair has become much longer again, with beautiful red waves and curls. He had freckles all over his skin. Scattered around in clusters of golden stars and milky ways. His scars were deep and colored in silver like lightning. A lone dimple could be spotted on his right side when he smiled in a certain way. He somehow looked incredibly beautiful yet intimidating. Despite his scars. His blue eyes seemed warm, not cold as described in the book. Though maybe it’s the sleepiness catching up to him.

Caranthir’s hair was a dark brown, nearly black. It was smooth as silk in appearance with a slight bend at the ends. His eyes were just as piercing as his brother’s, though his are silver, not blue. On his skin what people call unsightly birthmarks, to you looked like hundreds of lively red carnations. Blooming freely and undisturbed across his skin. It was a stark contrast on his pale skin. A strong contrast that was inviting.  He looked beautiful to you as well.

It made you wonder just how beautiful Lúthien must’ve been, if she was considered even more beautiful than all others. And what of the Valar & Maiar? It made your head spin just trying to think about it.

Now though it was your turn to feel embarrassed. You had been in a trance describing their features. Unknowingly you had spoken all of it aloud. Both elves were too stunned to speak. They could only stare at you in disbelief.

You felt your blood boil in embarrassment. The lavender tea seemingly did it’s work a little too well. You wanted to sink through the ground right now. Unfortunately that wasn’t an option, the only option you had was to sit still and listen to their newly formed thoughts.  

“Thank you….I guess. But I’m quite certain my red face does not remind anyone other than you of carnation flowers.” Caranthir huffed. His face was even redder than normal, it even reached his ears. He got up and walked off “To bed.” He had muttered. He looked back at you and Maedhros, still sitting at the table. Caranthir huffed again like a child and stormed off as quiet as he could.

“That was very kind of you to speak so highly of our appearances. I am not certain if I myself could see it the way you do any time soon. But I will try to keep your opinion in mind more often. It surely does sound far more gentle than my own thoughts.” Maedhros said quietly.

“Have a good night y/n. We’ll speak more tomorrow.”

He stood up and walked away to his shared room. Undoubtedly later questioned by Maglor.

Feanor - Physical Touch, Gift Giving and Words of Affirmation.

Feanor has no idea how to keep his hands to himself once the two of you are together. He is always holding your hand or has a hand on your waist, keeping you pulled close to him. Always breaking propriety and planting kisses to your lips in a clear display of affection even in public. 

Any affection that you want to give in return will be happily and well received. Feanor will rarely ever turn down any of your affections, he loves to know that you feel love to the same intensity and degree that he does. 

He also loves to shower you in gifts, even if it’s not your love language. Feanor loves nothing more than seeing you in any of his creations that he crafted specifically for you. He never expects any gifts in return, and this is where words of affirmation do come into play for him receiving. He loves to hear that you enjoy the gift he has given you, and feels prideful to hear you sing such high praises of his work.

preAngband!Maedhros - Physical Touch, Quality Time

Maedhros loves and savors everything there is to love about sharing in physical touch with you. From how soft your skin is, to how small your hand is in his. While he keeps the affection minimal in public, in private he loves that you want to give as much as he wants. 

Quality time with you is also a great way to help Maedhros feel loved. And a way that Maedhros wants to make you feel loved. This easily ties into physical touch. You could spend all day in bed together it will be considered time well spent in Maedhros’ book. Especially when it’s a much needed break that you two have anticipated on. Any time that you want to spend with Maedhros, be it in leisure or work, he’s happy to take the time with you. 

postAngband!Maedhros - Acts of Service, Quality Time, Words of Affirmation

After his time in Angband, Maedhros’ love languages are going to have changed considerably. Physical Touch no longer being one of his main love languages, this doesn’t mean he won’t indulge you if that’s your love language. It just means he’s going to show his love for you differently.

Which he feels he does best by Acts of Service, Maedhros prefers doing for you and you for him. If there’s anything you need at all of him, basic tasks such as picking up a few things, or taking something to the seamstress, or writing a letter for you he will do so without complaint. He’s also the person to not even really need you to tell him, if there’s something he knows you’re too busy to get done, Maedhros is happy to do it for you. If you offer and do the same in return for him, while he won’t show it very well, it is immensely appreciated and adored. It makes him feel as though you care just as much as he does about you.

Another way that Maedhros likes to show his love for you is still Quality Time. Physical Touch be on the fence, but literally any time spent with you that can be spent, Maedhros loves and enjoys every minute of it. He also does what he can to make sure that there is Quality Time for you both that is not just done on a work related level. Maedhros wants to make sure that you continue to feel loved and as though you are important to him, and he understands that all of the time spent at work isn’t going to make you feel that way. 

A sure fire way to make Maedhros feel undeniably loved, in a way that he certainly won’t indulge you in often outside of an I love you or a thank you is Words of Affirmation. While it’s not that Maedhros doesn’t think you don’t deserve to hear those things, because he certainly does, it just has more to do with his trauma. So putting those emotions into words beyond simple I love you’s or gratitude is hard for him. But hearing you say such sweet things, and fawning over him, while he will act a little uncomfortable or uncertain of what you said. It leaves Maedhros feeling reassured where he needs it, and loved as well. 

Maglor - Words of Affirmation, Gift Giving, Physical Touch

Maglor’s a great and masterful musician, who certainly knows how to use his words in the greatest ways possible and that is to bring people joy and strong emotions. You are certainly the target for all of the sweet nothings, and high praises that he wants to sing. Wanting to show you just how much you mean to him. Maglor is not one to get upset if you don’t necessarily return the affections verbally, as he knows that it can be a bit much.

Another way Maglor likes to show his affections for you is by gift giving. While it can be extravagant things to show you his affections, you are far more likely to receive simple and meaningful things. Be it because he saw some flowers that he though you’d enjoy, or a song and poem he wrote for you. This is also a good way to help make him feel loved as well, even if its something that feels so menial to you that you give him. It means the world to him because you thought of him in that moment, and he loves to know he’s on your mind as much as you are on his.

Physical Touch is the ultimate way to make Maglor feel loved, especially in response to any of Words of Affirmation or Gift Giving. He loves all of your hugs and kisses, and accepts them without question at every opportunity. Again, he loves to know that he’s on your mind all the time. Your fingers and palm against and entwined with his, with your thumb stroking his hand absentmindedly fills him with adoration. 

Celegorm - Physical Touch, Quality Time, Acts of Service

One of Celegorms biggest and most prominent love languages is going to be Physical Touch. While Celegorm knows he can be good with his words, he’s not a very mushy and romantic person like Maglor. So he does this by sharing in Physical Affection. Celegorm is very handsy and loves to always find ways to touch you even in public. Though in private he certainly gets far more inappropriate and seductive, even if he’s seduction is unsuccessful he loves to just make you feel wanted and desired.

Another way that Celegorm loves to show his love for you is Quality Time in his own way. He’s always trying to find something for the two of you to do that incorporates something that you both love. If you love hunting he will continuously offer to bring you along with him. If it’s not your favorite instead he’ll invite to sit outside to read or draw or garden while he shoots at targets. Just something that has the two of you together, even if you’re not physically touching.

Acts of Service are a good way to make Celegorm feel loved and cared for, aside from Physical Touch- which both could tie into each other. He likes knowing that you had him in mind when you did something for him, especially if its unprompted. Celegorm isn’t one for big acts of service gestures. The simple and uncomplicated things are what he enjoys, such as if you thought to get his clothes out for the next day. Or help him pack for a hunt, or you made him his favorite food without him asking or telling. 

Caranthir - Physical Touch, Gift Giving, Quality Time

Caranthir, while confident and sure of himself, knows he’s not the greatest with his words. So Physical Touch is a great way for him to show you just what you mean to him. As well as a great way to show him what you mean to him as Caranthir loves to be on the receiving end of Physical Touch as well. Your soft skin or lips against him, is just purely intoxicating and makes him feel loved and cared for. While Caranthir prefers to keep affection minimal in public, he won’t deny you if you initiate, the display always makes him feel prideful and content.

Caranthir is a Gift Giver, and he loves to make sure that your ever need, want and desire is taken care of. Most of his gifts are practical and things that you have expressed that you have needed or wanted. Though there are definitely times he has surprised you with something you haven’t asked for, such as beautiful jewelry or new robes he has hand beaded or embroidered.  It makes Caranthir feel good to know that you are well taken care and don’t have to stress over the things you need.

Caranthir is a relatively grumpy looking ellon, and knows his tongue can deliver sharp bites when necessary, and works hard to keep a cool exterior. He knows that he isn’t always favorable company, so a good way to help make Caranthir loved is the fact that you want to spend Quality Time with him. He loves knowing that you want to be in his company, and it feels good to know that someone does. Especially coming from you as he values you immensely. So when he’s embroidering things, or working on paperwork and you just want to go and sit in with him while he’s busy, it makes his day immensely better.

Curufin - Acts of Service, Words of Affirmation, Quality Time

Curufin prefers indulging in Acts of Service as his way to show you how much he loves you and what you mean to him. Curufin is very much a hard ass, and always needs to show and prove just how tough he is, that’s just his personality. So he’s not very soft, but ways to show you he loves you is by doing things for you. Especially if it’s something that has been incredibly strenuous and stressful on your shoulders, Curufin will swoop in to do what he can to save the day for you. 

While Curufin isn’t very soft, he certainly knows how to put that clever tongue of his to good use. Curufin won’t monologue and droll on and on about why he loves you, but he certainly knows what to say to you to instill confidence, or how to make you feel wanted and needed. While Curufin won’t really say it, he loves when indulge him with Words of Affirmation. He loves your high praises and sweet words, though he prefers if it’s mostly kept in privates. I love you’s being the exception.

But most of all, the best way Curufin feels loved is if you want to spend any Quality Time with him. Even if that means that you are doing your own thing but in the same room as him. Curufin just really enjoys your presence, and it’s soothing to have you nearby and with him. It’s so satisfying when you two are lounging around, and you’re reading a book while he is writing a few things down, sharing in conversation together. He loves knowing that you want to be with him even if you two aren’t heavily interacting with one another.

Amrod - Quality Time, Acts of Service, Physical Touch

Quality Time is incredibly important to Amrod, and it’s one of the best ways to show you he loves you. Amrod has times where he isn’t very verbal, so speaking out Words of Affirmation might not happen very often. So he’d rather show you how loves you by spending time with you. It could be together hunting, both of you gardening, taking care of domestic things, or doing so in leisure. All Amrod wants to do is spend as much of his time with you as he can.

Again because Amrod has bouts of being mute, Amrod just wants to make sure the point gets across that you mean the world to him. So he does this by doing Acts of Service for you. Amrod loves doing the things that you can’t do for you, or helping you with things he knows you can manage. Amrod just wants you to know he appreciates and loves you. Though his favorite is helping you because that means that the two of you get to spend time together.

While Amrod isn’t very big on being the one to hang all over you like his twin, Amrod will still give you the Physical Touch that you need. Though his affections is far more tamed and not nearly as overwhelming. BUT Amrod is completely content and full of love if you want to hang all over him and shower him with your affections. He loves the way your lips feel against his, or how you embrace him in either gratitude for his help or just for the sole fact that you want to be with him. It makes him feel so incredibly loved and adored.

Amras - Physical Touch, Words of Affirmation

Amras’ favorite way to show you just how much he loves you is through Physical Touch. He is huge on wanting to touch you as often as he can to show you just what you mean to him. There are constant kisses on the head or forehead, him just gently touching your back or holding your hand. Gentle embraces and soft kisses on the lips. Just anything to show you how much he loves you. Returning the affections is a good way as well to make Amras feel loved and appreciated as he wants to know that you love him as much as he loves you.

Amras, unlike Amrod, is excellent with his words and is quite talkative. He’s a bit of a mushy romantic and is happy to shower you with praise and love and affection in the form of words. Just as much and often as he will with Physical Touch. Amras is also more than happy to be on the receiving end of Words of Affirmation and LOVES to know that you too feel the same way he does. It instills some serious confidence in him, as well as just fills him with adoration and love for you. 

Amras is pretty simple in making him feel loved, just by indulging him in his own love languages is enough for him. 

Celebrimbor - Gift Giving, Physical Touch, Acts of Service

It comes as no surprise as one of the greatest smiths, that Celebrimbor’s biggest love language would be gift giving. With his obsession to craft as much as he does, there will absolutely be an abundance of jewelry in your jewelry box. Though he does try to do this in increments so to you the gifts don’t feel overwhelming or as if they’re meaningless. 

Which brings us to our next love language, being Physical Touch. He adores any and all physical affection you want to give him. Happily with Celebrimbor give it in return. He loves all of your embraces and how soft and small your body is against his, or just how soft your lips feel against his own or against his cheek. It’s a very good way to make him feel loved, and to make you feel loved in return. 

The thing that Celebrimbor appreciates just as much as your touch is the Acts of Service you may off him. Even if it’s not very often or all the time. Anything that you do to help make his day that much easier or better is the greatest feeling. It could be something as simple as bringing him his lunch, or something to drink. Or running papers to the appropriate person or offering to help him with other things. It also assists in making him feel loved and cared for.

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