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I was tired of being perceived as a woman. My goal was to be visibly trans.

My identity is still something that I don’t have a perfect definition for. When asked, I often tell people I’m transmasculine and nonbinary. I know I’m okay with they/them and he/him pronouns, but I’ve never fully connected with any specific label. The one label that feels right is “trans.” So, that’s how I want to be perceived.

This realization brought some complications with it. I imagined how different going out in public might be once I was visibly trans. I worried about my safety. I asked myself, Is it worth trading my cis-appearing privileges to feel comfortable in my body? After some thought, I decided the answer was “yes.”

Throughout the six years I spent thinking about medical transition, I often felt like I was standing still. 

It was frustrating to keep going back and forth about whether to start testosterone. Really, I was making slow progress towards finding my goal.

Since so many official resources seemed tailored for binary people, I turned to my trans support group, online forums, and friends. It turns out, a lot of nonbinary people have the same concerns. Many nonbinary people who pursue testosterone have a fear of losing their hair or changing too drastically. A lot of people worry about being visibly transgender in public. Everyone seems to have a different way of dealing with these concerns.

No two trans people have the exact same journey. So, every transition has to have a personal definition, which I felt like I needed to open up a conversation about medical transition with a doctor.

Even with a clear definition, I wasn’t one hundred percent sure. Without that complete certainty, I feared being turned away by doctors. To attempt to reach one hundred percent, I made a very detailed chart. Everyone understands gender and hormones differently. No one chart, questionnaire, or other method can help all trans people discover their approach. Some people might click with journaling, while others might want a Venn diagram."

If you ask the average uninitiated suburban voter, they'll express a level of fear when it comes to motorcycles. Oh no, they claim, those things will kill you instantly thirty million ways and they'll never find all of your body. That's not particularly relevant to me, mostly because I routinely drive cars with even less safety equipment than your average motorcycle. What is a concern? The lack of a trunk.

Friends, the trunk is one of the greatest inventions of all of humankind. To be able to put your shit in a box, lock it, and bring that shit with you across your travels? Delightful. Although many "touring" motorcycles have little boxes in which you can place your underwear, sidearms, and next-of-kin identification, space is still quite limited. You can't do what I do, which is leave a bunch of crap in the trunk that you're too lazy to bring into your house. Look back there. Yeah, that's a Commodore 128. It's the deluxe model. Won't even fit on a Goldwing.

To my surprise, when I brought this up to my biker-gang friends, I was rebuffed. Not only do larger touring bags exist, but certain ridiculous individuals have even developed a little trailer that you can tow behind your motorcycle. It's teeny-weeny, sure, but certainly bigger than the trunk in, say, a Fiat 500. And that's before we even get to sidecars.

Turtle Quilt by Laurraine Yuyama

this is the top post of all time on r/stunfisk (the competitive pokemon subreddit) and is has been a running joke for so long. sometimes i reference it and forget and have to explain it.

oh and one of the absolute ogs.

gonna put a few of my fav stinkposts on here too also.

1) Figured this out.