That Sinking Feeling

I destroy myself to make me feel better but in the end I always feel worse.

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

as usual, i have nothing good to offer

It may be 2026 now but I don't have a future really. If we're honest.

i think avoiding everything is going to save me for real this time