good morning. had the strangest dream last night. i was in my dad’s unfinished basement. i was using a repurposed corpse as a computer like device even though i was a bit terrified of it, but i didn’t question it. it was so uncanny. it was some kind of technological access to something like a VR video game. i didn’t feel like i had a choice not to use it, like it was part of some mission. a corpse functioning as hardware to access a simulated world? plugging into a new reality from the dead. mediation of the future through the past. what if all media are dead bodies? much to think about…

my head is in such a weird place today idk why i’m so scared of everything

the common perception right now is so weird… trying to do anything makes you a try hard so people try really hard to pretend not to care while simultaneously obviously caring about public perception above all things and i don’t understand it, what happened to relentless passion

i don’t want to make video essays