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a sea turtle hatching and fighting its way to the sea but its brothers in arms are falling all around him under the threat of the gulls flying around them so he prays. little three year old percy playing in the waves stiffens up as if struck by lightning and marches his little wobbly legs over to where the birds are hunting and he shoos them off and helps protect the turtles as they reach the water. he only gets into a physical fight with one (1) of the birds and bears a scar on his cheek from its beak
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If you EVER think Anthony Head is anything less than an angel then you’d best remember that I have always been a huge fan of his and we’ve always had a little contact over the years and he heard I’d come out as Trans and was having a hard time and that I was kind of sad that the photos I had from conventions with him were of me with long hair and no binder and they were all signed to “Sarah” and so he invited me to spend the day with him at his farm and he picked me up from the station and we just hung out and had lunch and he insisted on paying and took loads of photos and had them printed on photo paper the same day so he could sign them to Jay, along with other photos of him as Giles and Uther and he literally spent five hours chatting with me and got all of the pronoun stuff right every time and then he dropped me off at the station, gave me a final massive hug, waved me through the ticket barrier and insisted I message him when I got home so he knew I got back safe. (More HERE)
Rabindranath Tagore (1861-1941), poem 85 from “The Gardener”, 1914
Translated by the author from the original Bengali. New York: The Macmillan Company.
so. percy's arc in boo (learning to step back, allowing leo to sacrifice himself despite his loyalty/fatal flaw) sucks. for many reasons.
for one, percy yielding is such an integral part of pjo. all of pjo. but even if u somehow missed it in the first four books, tlo explicitly spells it out. "sometimes the hardest power to master is the power of yielding" hestia says to percy. "i yield when necessary. can you do this?" and then this is the climax of the story. "you are not the hero...it will affect what you do." percy has spent the last five books being told that he's the super powerful chosen one able to save or destroy the world, and he still chooses to yield to someone that has done nothing but betray him. "the line from the great prophecy echoed in my head...my whole world tipped upside down, and i gave the knife to luke." hoo acting like this is a lesson percy needs to learn is an affront to reading comprehension. percy lives bc he yields. and then he does it (yielding) again when he surrenders godhood, and power, to choose other demigods instead. this is not subtle writing.
for two, percy has rejected power, and his title, for the entirety of his story. percy doesn't even fully recognize how powerful he is until the volcano in botl. and he had to be told directly that it wasn't a fluke. then in son, percy immediately rejects the power and status offered to him. repeatedly. reyna offers him praetorship, he turns it down. frank is abt to let percy climb the wall first in the war games, percy says it was frank's claim. percy doesn't even want to go on the son quest but relents bc frank asked him. in moa, percy never demands that he lead. instead, he includes frank where he probably wasn't necessary, supports hazel, encourages annabeth, follows leo and piper's lead, and strategizes w jason. he isn't acting as a leader, but rather as part of a team. percy didn't need to "step back," the writing for the other characters needed to step up.
for three, percy had to be kidnapped and manipulated to be on this entire quest. he's not there bc he has a hero complex. acting like he has to learn to step back when he was quite literally shoved into place is wild.
for four, an integral part of percy's character is freedom, autonomy, and he extends this to the ppl he's loyal to. this is pretty explicitly established in tlt: "you're enough like me to understand," sally says. "if my life is going to mean anything, i have to live it myself." percy respects ppl's decisions. this is one of the first lessons he learns when he becomes a hero and an integral part of pjo: percy has to let sally save herself. percy has to let tyson go to the boiler. percy has to let bianca defeat talos. percy has to let nico walk away. percy has to let annabeth fight. if he loves them, he's going to let their lives mean something. even in hoo, percy still lets annabeth go on her quest alone, despite hating it, despite disagreeing w it, bc it's not his place to tell her what she can and can't do. this is her life. she has to live it. so this plotline doesn't even work it we ignore all of pjo and focus solely on hoo.
this theme of autonomy is especially important bc pjo is abt disability. one of the first things ppl try to take away from u when ur disabled is ur autonomy. the fact that percy vehemently defends it not just for himself but for others is essential to the narrative. percy advocates for other demigods, other disabled kids, and tyson, and he does so while maintaining their autonomy. it's why he's the leader, it's why he's the protagonist, it's why there is a callback to it in every pjo book. trying to act like he wouldn't respect someone's autonomy is a bastardization of this entire theme. which is actually fitting for hoo considering it bastardizes the rest of pjo anyway.
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every time i have to relearn that being disabled means not being able to do all of the stuff other people can i get so pissed. you mean its just like this forever? i want to do stuff...
percy visiting olympus but not to visit the gods. literally just to get inside the throne room and play with bessie. pulling water from his tank to make floating water pools for bessie to jump through. zeus coming to the throne room like hours later and he happens to glance in the corner and see bessie and percy curled up together in the tank, sleeping peacefully against one another
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I've always loved the idea of Percy being more present in TOA and Percy slowly falling in love with Apollo after seeing how mature and kind he is now. Just two silly babies learning together and loving each other a lot
Apollo has a crush on Percy after the events of The Last Olympian (because who wouldn't?) the thing is that, the crush is not that serious. Apollo just wants to go on a couple of dates, kiss here, kiss there if you know what I mean. Apollo just wants to brag about how he got the hero of Olympus first. And Percy knows it. Percy doesn't even like Apollo, he doesn't like any god. Yes, they said they'll try to change but that doesn't mean they stopped being so vain or that Percy is obligated to like them now. So he just rejects Apollo every time. Apollo's a little offended, but whatever, he can have anyone he wants, it's Percy's loss.
Whomp whomp, TOA happens, Apollo's now in the pathetic body of Lester Papadopoulos and is there knocking on Percy Jackson's door. Sure Percy rejected him before but that doesn't mean he wouldn't help him. Perhaps he could use his charms (or what's remaining) and convince him. (It doesn't work)
Percy just agreed to take them to Camp because he wanted to help Meg, he couldn't care less about Apollo. Meg reminds Percy of himself, of how lost and alone he felt when he was her age. He didn't want to go to another suicidal quest but he would help here and there and visit camp to see everything is okay, but if, and only if the situation gets tough he would personally help the god and Meg. Besides, Percy won't admit it, but he cannot stand the thought of spending time with Apollo, the guy is so arrogant it's painful. Percy still remembers Apollo's awful haikus, and how all of them were just words like "me", "bright" and "amazing". Sure he was hot, but every time he opens his mouth the magic fades away completely. But gods are just like that, arrogant, vain and self-centered...
Every day that passes just leaves very clear how wrong Apollo was about everything. He always thought he was happy, but now it seems he wasn't actually feeling anything at all. He was just chasing after any quick emotion, like cheap drugs, and he thought that was enough. Maybe he was so scared of what happens when you open your heart and let yourself feel. He never liked the consequences of caring about someone. Perhaps that's why he tried to convince himself he didn't care that Percy said to his face that he would never date him. It's just my ego, he thought. That's why it hurts. Sure. Yeah. Or maybe... he really liked Percy, but he wasn't ready for that type of commitment. He wanted it simple back then, but now he's sure about it, he really really likes Percy Jackson. It's a shame that the demigod won't even give him a second look. Apollo knew he didn't deserve him, but gods, he would do anything for just a simple date or a small conversation. Anything that proves to Percy that Apollo's a new god now. He kept thinking more about Percy rather than focusing on his deadly quests, or that's what Meg says, plus of how pathetic he looked whenever he thinks of the son of Poseidon.
As promised, Percy visits camp Half-blood all the time, he wanted to make sure the mission was going well and that Meg wasn't hurt. And... Percy is very surprised, but he's still not sure if it's in a bad way, a good way or in a flee-right-now-and-save-your-heart way. Apollo is very different now, and not just physically, there's something new. There's a new look in his eyes, his smile is less fake and less abnormally bright, now there's a warmness so sweet you can feel it. His voice is more soft and the tone is less smug, it's almost endearing. Percy doesn't like how quickly he noticed that change or how, deeply in his heart, he was anxiously waiting for Apollo to come back from the quests.
Time passes and he ended up feeling more and more comfortable when he was with Apollo, he realized he liked talking to him a lot when the god wasn't talking about himself all the time. Apollo was incredibly smart, Percy forgot he was actually the god of knowledge and basically a doctor.
Percy liked Apollo's voice, he didn't pay much attention before, he was too busy trying to stop his ears from bleeding after every "MEEE!!!" that came out of Apollo's mouth. He was signing a ballad now, his cabin was sitting around him in a circle, Percy couldn't remember the original singer's name but it didn't matter, Apollo sings it better anyway.
He didn't care what Apollo said, his new body was cute, it was strong and powerful in its own way, sometimes muscles are just for show (even though Percy liked muscles a lot). Apollo looked pretty when he cried, maybe it wasn't the crying but how big his heart was, how sensitive and caring he was now, Percy almost wiped the single tear that fell from his right eye. It was endearing how Apollo's cheeks flushed at everything all the time, his many freckles were cute, Percy wanted to trace them with his finger. 17, he had 17 freckles, 5 on his left cheek, 6 on his right cheek, 4 on his nose and two clear ones making a line on his forehead... Perhaps he had more on his chest or back.
Percy ran to his cabin before he made a horrible mistake.
Percy was acting weird, Apollo thought. He knew Lester was pathetic but he hoped Percy would still remember him as his godly, beautiful, bright physic and ignore his small, weak and trembling body and his ugly, full of acne face. If Percy didn't want him before he sure was gonna spit in his face if Apollo tried to ask him out again looking like that.
It wasn't until one of his last days as Lester that Percy blew his mind. Apollo was ready to fight Python, then Percy stopped him taking his hand. "Before you go, you'll need good luck" he said, and without giving Apollo a second to process the words, Percy grabbed him by the neck of his shirt and pulled him in for a kiss. Apollo swears he could've gotten his divinity back right there, at least that's how it felt. He felt dizzy, it was almost like he was struck by lightning, his whole body tingled and his hands were sweaty and shaking. Just before Apollo could decide where to put his hands the kiss was over, Percy pulled away suddenly and Apollo couldn't stop himself from leaning towards him for more.
Without wanting to ruin the moment Apollo opened his eyes, slowly, carefully looking at Percy. The demigod wasn't any better, his eyes were wide open, his breathing was ragged and his cheeks were as red as a rose. "Please be careful, come back to me" Percy whispered, he looked terrified, it was hard for Apollo to believe Percy Jackson was actually so worried about him. It was so surreal, Apollo might be dreaming. "I promise" Apollo said, he gave Percy a soft kiss on his forehead and left.
His days as Lester weren't funny or great at all, but he wouldn't change anything that led him to that fate, Apollo will be externally thankful to whoever put Percy in his path. The thought of Percy falling in love with his most pathetic yet truest version of himself, the version that he'd never shown to anyone will always be unbelievable for him. Percy wanted him, all of him.
He would've cursed anyone who told him that, in the future, he would be living in a small department in a city full of demigods, that he'd love waking up in a simple bed with simple sheets and do nothing for the rest of the day, just be there enjoying simple moments with his favorite person, and following that same routine every day. Apollo won't allow himself to disappear from his children's lives again, he won't let his mind forget what's important and won't let his heart go numb and cold anymore. Looking at Percy right now, the idea of never feeling like that again seemed terrifying, if only the demigod was always there to guide him... Perhaps Apollo should ask him, one day.
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'minion' -too closely associated with those yellow things
'goon' -linguistic drift gave her a new meaning. i hope her new life is good for her. i miss her.
'henchman' -too gendered. can be shortened to 'hench' in a pinch, but lacks punch.
'servant' -too domestic to apply to all those who serve evil.
'underling, subordinate' -this one only works if they get off on being beneath you and/or you don't properly pay your workers.
'associate' -this one's good for grizzled mercenaries or lone agents but doesn't work good for broad swathes of an organization.
'slave' -same as underling but more intense. really fun for some of the group. unsavory for others in a way that limits the scope of the thing.
'thrall' -only really applies if you're brainwashing them and that's not something i've learned how to do en masse yet
'flunky, toady, stooge, lackey' -these are just insulting, and that isn't conducive to a healthy work environment. imagine going to work and your job title is 'stooge'.
'acolyte' -works for those that worship you, but again. lacks the scope.
'supporter, follower' -unspecific and vague
'assistant, helper, aide' -not sinister at all. just means you're doing things for me. swagless in this manner. could be good if used to describe someone who's so clearly more that as a way to emphasize their obedience via understatement, but that's only useful for a few members of the organization. and even then, 'associate' works better.
'cohort' -untested in the field. suggests an equal footing in the affair, ideal for post-structuralist evil organizations with a bottom-up power structure that's held in the hands of the evil workers themselves. perhaps we'll explore it together?
may I suggest: 'grunt' – time-tested by crime bosses with a variety of goals and organizational mandates. implies a subservient position with none of the innate baggage of lackey et al.
i have written custody plans for labrador retrievers more complex than i have for children. i went to four years of undergrad, three years of law school, and sat for the bar exam to write up custody exchange provisions for dogs with hyphonated last names
my clients are paying $295 an hour for me to go to court and litigate who makes veterinary decisions for Chuckles the Goldfish and theres literally nothing i can do to stop them
