We are dead stars, looking back up at the sky,

the way ppl talk about shane and ilya's sex life on here is unbearable like i don't understand the need to sublimate all of ilya's desires under shane's when that's not even what either of them are attracted to. ilya isn't sitting around waiting for shane to tell him what to do or come up with crazy unbelievable kinks like spanking that somehow shock ilya. i understand that most people in fandom are women or afab and there is no denying that penetration can be a touchy or scary or violent thing for a lot of us like same but at a certain point you really do just need to contend w these hang ups about penetration and domination if you're going to engage this much with anal sex, and you have to be able to separate yourself from these sexual fictions. if you can't, which is fine, then find texts that don't require you to deal with a dominating penetrating man instead of this endless cycle of always erasing any individual or fulfilling sexual desire for canonically staunch tops. it's the same pattern every time where you guys talk about dom tops as if this is a carnal sin they need to atone for by making them little more than sentient dildos or sex robots with no sexual desire that the canonically staunch bottom doesn't encode onto them. it's boring! and it shows up everywhere. the walk him like a dog edit was cute and funny, but almost immediately it got reduced to an excuse to write ilya as if he can't have individual characterization or subjectivity if he "must" top shane. you need to contend with why you think that the penetrating person respecting liking and loving their partner means that they can't possibly enjoy sex for Themselves and must be a service top or submissive or lacking human free will. why does everyyyyyy sexual character and sexual relationship need to be flattened into nothing? ilya's sado-dominance is one of the most straightforward aspects of his characterization and the entire point, the sexual dynamic is the point! there reaches a certain point of self projection onto another creator's original characters where you should just write ur own ocs or an autobiography

and honestly tbh tbsfr to be completely truthful the "shane invents [literally any sexual thing] in his own crazy mind and doesnt have to self awareness or knowledge to know that [spanking? consent play? roleplay?] existed until it came to him in a dream" is getting a lot ableist and a likkle racialized. an autistic person having a hyperfixation doesn't mean that they don't know how to use the internet or have never like existed in society before. even if you ignore that ilya did in fact teach him everything he knows about sex and everything he likes about sex and shane's sexual development is always in conversation with and guided by ilya: EVEN if you ignore that--which most people do anyway--there is still a line between riffing off said sexual exploration and kinkiness versus what is increasingly just infantilization. he is not a child. under or unnegotiated doesn't mean that shane is never aware of what he's asking for or wants and he is not trying to have sex solely for himself or interested in doing something that isnt equally good for Ilya beyond fandom's reduction of their sex life to solely shane's orgasms. that is not the type of sex he's having or wants to have and just because he is learning this for the first time doesn't mean that he doesn't recognize himself as a sexual being. he's not stupid or a child! just because he doesn't have the exact word for it doesn't mean he isn't self aware and must be flabbergasted when ilya gives him what he asks for lol again there's a line between writing him as coy and bratty and writing him as if its his first day on earth when they're 29 and fucking since teens. shane did not sprout his dildos or butt plugs from thin air, he is an adult man with the wherewithal to google how long it's safe to drive with a plug in and how to prepare himself for anal sex. even when he had sex he hated with women, he still tried to at least be good at oral. he can be kinky and come up w crazy roleplay scenarios without this incessant demeaning of autistic people's self awareness and capacity for growth and Knowing More Than One Thing even if they don't care about those other things as much! which. doesn't even count here because being ilya's sub bottom is like. shane's final boss hyperfixation. he was not in fact born yesterday

Praying that $1500 randomly comes to you when you need it the most this year.

New and improved! Sad Wet Dog of a top is thinking about how he wants to hurt you but doesn't want to hurt you and the contradiction is slowly and steadily making him Lose His Whole Fucking Mind.

Saw a comment saying character X can't be a pervert because he's ace. Bro. Bro. Bro. BRO. BRO. BRO. BR

one time i told a group of lesbian and bi women that i have never watched wicked and they were shocked, gagged, gooped, “but you’re queer. you like pussy. how have you not seen wicked?” yeah. well. i like pussy, not musicals?

“are you going to the lucy dacus concert?” no. i listen to gucci mane.

all you new fandom members need to QUIET DOWN oh my god you're going to get us KILLED. we're happy to have you but if you keep talking about BULLSHIT like PUBLISHING fanfic for MONEY, Anne Rice is going to come back from the dead to KILL US. looking at YOU, maurauders fans, heated rivalry fans, byler fans...out here giving out interviews to news channels SHUT UP. we're going to have to start setting off firecrackers to keep the rent down.

People always wonder why we need to risk sending humans out to do this when we can just send a robot. I think this is a good explanation.