Marianne

we need to discuss how in tampa shane hollander went to the pool just to lay on his deck chair and ogle ilya. this is shane hollander we're talking about. in february of a season. he's not even conceivably swimming laps or something he's literally just there to ogle. hedonist

every time Shane bends over there’s a Non Zero percent chance Ilya will creep up behind him, grab his hips and start fake thrusting and groaning. which should be funny except he’s too good at the noises and Oh Shane is hard now. great. Looks like he’s loading the laundry After they fuck on the counter

the way shane says "that's french, ilya" in the stairwell is so buzzy.....like you can tell he's testing out saying ilya's name.....i'm so....

and then ilya says back ”i know, shane” CAN U BELIEVE

HAVE THAT CHARACTER GAIN WEIGHT AS A SIGN OF HEALING: NOW

at some point after shane joins the centaurs, ilya overhears shane refer to him as 'roz' in the locker room and his head JERKS up but he doesn't even have time to be confused because he can already tell by the look on shane's face that he was trying something out and it will NOT happen again

something so many people in this fandom seem to forget is that depression isn't cured by love. ilya will go through his life with a supportive team, an adoring husband, wonderful friends and in-laws, and he's still going to have days where he doesn't want to get up. he's still going to be angry at himself for not being better despite everything. he's still going to flinch when he sees pill bottles and knives and wonder if he laughs like his mother. through therapy and being honest and maybe medication, those days are going to be less frequent until maybe they barely happen at all. but they're still going to happen, because ilya is still depressed, and you can't love the depression out of someone

blowjob? more like nojob! #unemployed

blowjob? more like job blows! #employed

i want so badly to be inside ilya’s head for the "don’t marry svetlana" scene, because he’s so calm, but like if shane hollander looked at me like that with tears in his eyes i’m not sure i’d be able to handle it anywhere near as calmly as ilya. like idk what id do but id end up on the news fs

honestly yall just gotta be comfortable reading books that make you feel stupid

read books that you don't understand. read books where you have to pay attention. read books that make you reread a page eight times to figure it out. read books that you need to take notes on. read books with words you have to google. read books that don't make sense without research on the setting. read books that make you feel stupid because otherwise you'll just be stupid.