jadzia telling kira she's agreeing to a fully klingon wedding bc she "already had several" and she's bored of them is very interesting in her overall arc that isn't an arc. aka the way jadzia and dax get hurt by the trill symbiosis culture and sexism and medical abuse and the reassociation stigma repeatedly. but a big break never happens. she just slowly stops being interested in practicing trill culture. which is not a very big change as she never had many trill friends or visited her home planet much or talked to her family at all
and i don't think that she's lying here or forcing herself to not have the wedding the trill way. i think it's an authenthic disinterest and discomfort at it and whatever it entails. just how she tells julian she's scared of doctors, always was. just a quirk or a flaw of hers she needs to get over. probably nothing to do with the repressed memories of what happened to joran or going through the extensive program of having her body and mind evaluated at with the sole intention of judging her to be good enough or not. or the fact that in the culture she grew up in her own body will be always secondary to the symbiont and will be disposed of if it no longer suits it. trill weddings are just honestly pretty boring. last time she got trill married it was to kahn
