Shadow's Enchantment

honestly there was such a huge difference between seeing taemin live for ephemeral gaze and seeing shinee live for shinee world 8 and i really think it wasn’t just in my perception of it all. taemin’s concert felt so viscerally lifechanging in a really intensely emotional way, like everyone was walking out of that venue crying, and knowing now that he’d been close to retiring before the tour it makes perfect sense. it really felt like we all knew somehow without knowing. it felt like a rekindling of something, like a rebirth of sorts (with IMMENSE love and gratitude in the air from both his and our side). it was just really so intense, one of the most intense experiences i’ve ever had. and shinee world felt so light and natural in contrast, primarily like a celebration and a show of talent. it felt like they threw the funnest anniversary party whilst also showing off that they’re 18 years into their career and absolutely still got it like that. it was like a catering to the fans, almost like the jukebox of fan favorites ft the entire new mini were meant to show 1) appreciation for the fans and 2) respect and dedication for both the fans and themselves as a group. because they go against the grain in so many ways, and it’d be so easy to just do their solo stuff and give us a little thank-you low effort single every year around may. and honestly we’d eat it up. but shinee are just different, and it goes beyond numbers and awards and tiktok trends and anything else that’s the metric for success in the modern kpop world. they just so clearly love what they’re doing with shinee, and they wouldn’t be caught half assing anything. because they’re THEE shinee and they make absolutely sure you know that. in every single song and every single performance. they’re SO good they make it look easy, and you leave that venue dancing and smiling and thinking man that was one of the best anniversary parties i’ve ever been to. and i hope I’m invited next year too

had a hyperrealistic dream the other night that i still remember with eerily perfect clarity. i went to a department store to buy the new releases of lestat's music. but they were only selling them in the hour window before store closing time (because he's a vampire) (the music only came out at night). and this store closed at 9pm so i was there sharply at 8pm. and then when i went to the music section, it turned out that there were 5 total songs. and they were all released on separate discs. so you had to a) locate b) pick up and c) individually purchase 5 separate CDs, each containing one (1) song. and hope that all 5 CDs were actually in stock (i had an understanding that they just sent a random amount of each song to each store and hoped for the best. not sure if that directive was from lestat himself but i could see him doing it). i DID get all 5 (happy pride month) because i'm a winner. but i woke up before i could check out. or hear any of the new music.

I kind of miss the impulsivity that certain spaces used to allow. oh you want a hair cut today? hairdresser in the corner can fit you in before her 2 o’clock. tattoo of a cobra… sure leg or arm? even concerts, back when you could go to the box office thirty mins before any show. not saying these things don’t exist at all, but everything feels booked five months in advance and 10x more expensive

i support women's wrongs

sometimes people experiencing psychosis and/or mania will come up to you on the street and talk in confusing or upsetting ways. your job is to either have a regular human-to-human conversation with that person or politely leave. your job is not to call 911. do not call 911. you might kill that person if you call 911.

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inside your body is PITCH BLACK your cells do all of that in the DARK

self care is swallowing lit matches every 5 minutes so that ur cells can see whatever the fuck they’re doing in there

favorite thing about tumblr is having a fandom in law. no i haven't watched this show and i'm not planning to. but my moot is having fun!! look how much they love it!!! i'm supportive from the sidelines!

I am so tired of short-attention-span, trim-the-fat culture. All writing advice these days is for how to write like Chuck Palahniuk. "Cut 'think', cut 'feel', cut 'wonder' - only action, only pushing forward, show and move and move and move." What if I could emulate this style, and still don't want to? What if I want to write like Henry James, with three paragraphs of introspective musings between each dialogue line? The music advice is, "make it shortform, make it Tik-Tok compatible, make it punchy, hit the refrain as soon as possible." What if I want that 10-minute prog rock piece? What if I want that symphony? What if I want it slow and luxurious and lazy? Movies. Series. Poetry. Bodies. Everything is "trimmed trimmed trimmed trimmed, stripped bare, you have three seconds to win me over, make it airport chic." I don't want to win you over, then, I guess. I want the fat left it. I want the pleasure and the indolence and the indulgence. Fuck this art-advice that's always "your art needs Ozempic."

If you’re pining you need to stop and pick a different tree. You know, spruce it up a little

I’m still proud of this post. It’s evergreen

AN HOUR???????

I love how everyone is still asking hey so my symptoms are actually symptoms? Even if I feel only x amount of pain after x amount of time? BUDDY THE NORM IS FEELING MILD DISCOMFORT AT MOST AFTER STANDING FOR AN HOUR AND THEY RECOVER WITHIN A FEW HOURS TO A DAY

…. Also yes, I AM serious that you should be able to be in the kitchen for about an hour, on your feet and doing Cooking Things, without pain and without needing Recovery Time, in order to make yourself dinner and if you CAN’T - if that long results in Pain or Dramatic Fatigue or extended recovery - that is a Symptom. A big symptom.

I've reached the point where cynicism is a major turn-off for me. You're not smarter than idealists, and you're not helping.

Funny that the stereotypical cynic is an idealist who aged out of it. In my experience, the reverse is true. I was an extreme cynic as a teenager and then I noticed how profoundly limiting it was, and also that "cynics are cool and smart" was a message that was being constantly reinforced by corporate media for some reason.

I also think that the present era has proven that authoritarian leaders don't actually want a population of wide-eyed idealists, they want a population of jaded assholes who are convinced that everyone is lying, any resistance is either a scam or doomed to failure, and nothing can ever get better.

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