Shadow and All

I don't wanna fucking talk to people. FUCK PEOPLE!!!!!!!!! FUCK HUMANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU HOES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm traumatized. Saying it aloud wouldn't do the situation justice.

Damn, I wanna kill myself.

I like how 70% of the depression went away when I stopped talking to my mother.

You ruined my life, then wanted to come back because I'm "so important" to you? You're a wicked one.

Isolation sucks most when you give the vampires permission back into your world.

There is a price to a crown.

The way everyone just stares, yet says nothing...

At the end of the day, it wasn't what you already did that sent me over the edge -- it was you thinking you were entitled to another chance, and I'm sorry that I ever felt too afraid to not give it to you.

Working out is nice, until I realize it's just another escape, and I have to go back home to a quiet house.

I'm not leaving because I can't survive. I'm leaving because I deserve better.

Constantly buzzing with energy has its pros and cons. I'm constantly contemplating whether I want to force myself to chill, or be active non-stop. Regardless, I don't feel at peace in this fucking world.

Struggling with the trauma from using social media excessively during my adolescence, as a way of coping with the neglect from my bitch ass mother and father. I still do it today, because I was programmed to. I hate this shit.

I fucking hate what the military did to me. I fucking hate it.

I dislike that my brain tells me I shouldn’t have to learn how to meditate because it should be innate. Contrarily, I discovered it, so I should be grateful that I did.

Doing my best to use food as medicine.

Tummy ache :(