(call me skog | they/them)
30s - queer - art department amateur - artist - disaster nerd - gay cowboy enthusiast - corvid tendencies
hey! don't forget: make bad art / assume ignorance, not malice / the world is good and we belong here / no one is free until everyone is free / everything is connected
(a playlist raccoon, hoarding songs like trash & always taking playlist requests)
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hey look it's a pinned post! general info: please feel absolutely free to dm/yap at me about any of my tags/spec/writing/posts/your thoughts/whatever. bouncing around ideas is my love language and it helps me write (& like evan "buck" buckley I crave validation)
[my writing tag] [Ao3 link]
main 9-1-1 wip/story tags:
[tommy begins]
[dead probie saga]
[antarct-fic]
[8:39 pm]
[pothos | pathos]
[sweetmeats au / what can ail thee, knight-at-arms?]
[keep the streets empty]
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I also love making playlists and am happy to take requests
[need a smile?]
chronological list of snippets below (severely outdated) ↓
tommy begins snippets/drabbles [tag]
these snippets all belong to the same world/timeline to form a backstory for tommy. the categories nearly all overlap to some degree (e.g. both abby and victor appear in the dead probie saga)
27: Swim [army]
meeting Abby [tag]
shortly after Tommy returns to LA from the army, he witnesses an accident and calls 911. this is how he meets dispatcher abby clark
2: Family
Snippet 1
Snippet 4
Snippet 2
Snippet 3
[story with abby continues into dead probie saga & beyond - see links marked a]
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bad habits aka the dead probie saga [tag]
"you don't name a puppy until you know it's gonna pull through." meet Brian Emmerson, probie to the 118, and puppy who didn't pull through.
post-break up and staring down the barrel of spending the holidays alone, tommy does the one thing any normal, reasonable person would do in his situation: he signs up to fly helicopters in antarctica
41: Hostage
Tommy & Lucy talk Abby
10: Pole
12: Disguise
11: Viral
Bubbling Buck pt 1
Bubbling Buck pt 2
43: Station
13: Volunteer
14: Begin
44: Triage
16: Treasure
33: Faith
Buck & Madney galley crew snippet
Buck & Madney & The Thing Tease Tidbit
Talk with Eddie snippet
17: Approach
-- tommy arrives in antarctica
24: Bizarre
29: Christmas
31: Imposter
34: Complex
Complex cont. snippet
48: Expose
23: Fantasy
-- buck arrives in antarctica
37: Bewilder
49: Moon
45: Wish
42: Lasagna
50: Recuperate
35: Proposal
Lunch order snippet
53: Strike
51: Floor
52: Panic
Drinks with Katie
Larry
46: Instinct
26: Enlist
54: Alarm
55: Mayday
57: Avoid
56: Captain
58: Sink
59: Flight
61: Stuck
39: Worst
38: School
40: Confess
The universe wants us to talk snippet
Buck yelling wip snippet
60: Karma
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8:39 fic
turns out, the string of fate that connects buck and tommy passes through a specific moment in time: 8:39 PM. when a truck swerves off the road and a helicopter crashes at the exact same time, the string crumples and all those instances of 8:39 PM collide. oh, and they're both dying.
a chronological timeline for this one is... complicated. so just check out the tag. :]
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OUR LOVE WILL NEVER DWINDLE, BEING NEVER by Willard R. Espy
Our love will never dwindle, being never;
It could not be so dear if it could be.
The babe we never bore is ours forever;
There is no need to set the wild deer free.
I know a land that has no dawn nor setting:
No summer there, or winter; spring, or fall;
No memories are there, and no forgetting;
The lovers there breathe barely, if at all.
What if, instead of the loft, Ali and Buck found him a nice house in Tommy's neighborhood?
Thank you 🥹
1. Tommy comes back from his vacation in Yosemite, the one he was supposed to take with Chuck until Chuck decided they were "not heading somewhere real." He sees that the tenant at the house on the corner is finally moved in. There had been some kind of delay, and he'd been expecting to wander over and greet them--a couple, he's pretty sure, he saw a few coming through to see the house--before he left. The house had stayed empty, but now there's a Jeep in the driveway. He puts his stuff away, shoves everything else in the washing machine, and starts making a welcome baked ziti. When he walks it over later, there's a delay on the door getting answered, and it's because the guy who opens it is on crutches. "Hey, I'm your neighbor down at the purple-ish house," Tommy says, smiling. "You're...Evan, right?" He'd heard the guy's girlfriend call for him after the viewing. "Uh, y-yeah," he replies, smiling. "Nice to meet you, uh--" "Tommy," he says, holding up the tray of food. "I hope you like pasta and cheese." "Love it," Evan says. Tommy offers to bring it in, because he's not about to make him juggle the tray on crutches. The house is pretty sparse, even though it seems to be unpacked, and there's no sign of the girlfriend. Tommy scribbles down reheating instructions on a grocery list pad and sets it on the tray before putting it in the fridge with other covered dishes. "Meal train," Evan explains. "I got hurt at work."
2. It's a few days later when Tommy realizes he never sees the girlfriend, so maybe she didn't move in? But he's outside and checking his mail when he hears a familiar voice shout something. He looks up and sees Howie, of all people. Tommy drops his mail back in the box and crosses the street. Evan's balancing on his crutches, and Howie and a shorter woman are out front. "Who the hell let you in my neighborhood?" Tommy asks, and they both whip around, and Evan looks alarmed for a moment. But then Howie grins and laughs and all but tackles him in a hug, which still sends a little thrill through Tommy even if he'd squashed that crush years ago. "What the fuck, man?" Howie says, laughing. "How do you guys know each other?" Evan asks. "Tommy used to be one of ours, then he left us for the wild blue yonder," Howie explains. "You actually replaced him." And that's how Tommy finds out Evan is a firefighter. Within a couple of minutes, it's how he also connects the dots that Evan is the firefighter who was nearly killed by a bomb in a ladder truck.
3. Tommy sees a revolving door of people he used to work with, and it's surreal. They'd been so removed from his life for the last few years, and then they're suddenly just there. There's a day when Evan can't get to physical therapy because Bobby got called in, so Tommy takes him. And then takes him again. He also goes on quick walks with him, gets on Evan for trying to run too soon. "I just want to get back to work," Evan says, looking like he's about to cry. "You will," Tommy reassures him. "But you can't hurt yourself and set yourself back." And he fucks up for a second and squeezes the back of Evan's neck, but Evan doesn't freeze or flinch, he just nods and sniffs and they get back on their feet from the bench they'd stopped at. When Evan is trying to catch his breath and says his chest feels tight, Tommy asks if his leg is hurting more than it was a couple days before. "It's just sore," Evan argues, but Tommy hauls him into his truck and drives him to the ER. The pulmonary embolism isn't a huge clot, but it's there. Tommy squeezes his hand and calls Maddie, and they bring Evan back to run a catheter through his lung to get a clot busting drug straight into it.
4. Evan is staring up at the ceiling in the hospital and not speaking. He's awake, he can speak, but he's been quiet. Tommy's on his third logic puzzle in the book he'd bought in the gift shop. "You don't have to be here," Evan says finally. "I don't have to be most places," Tommy says, putting a dot in one of the boxes. "It's a matter of choice, and I'm choosing to be here. Unless you don't want me here." There's no response, and Tommy stays until Bobby shows up. Then he goes into the waiting room, and then Bobby drops into the chair next to him an hour later. "How bad was it?" Bobby asks. "Could've been worse," Tommy says. "You saved his life," Bobby points out. "I don't know what I'd do if this killed him." "It didn't, though," Tommy says. "He's going to be fine, he can even get back on the job soon if he wants." Bobby's mouth twists unhappily. "He'll want to. If you won't take him, I'll tell Sal to pick him up." "God, anything but that," Bobby says with a harsh laugh. "Kid's been through enough as it is." Tommy smiles and flips the page to a crossword. "Yeah, well, don't put him through more," he says, and Bobby hums.
5. The day of the tsunami, Tommy's checking in on the radio as much as he can. He's trying to use his phone, too, but the lines are down or jammed. All he can think of is Evan telling him he was going to take Chris to the pier, because he's still a little ways out from being duty ready again. Tommy flies over, sees that it's basically fucking gone, and he radios Bobby. No word, nothing. He's flying all day and into the evening, and there's a radio call for him and Evan's at an emergency triage center. Tommy finds the nearest clear spot to touch down at, and Evan's on a cot. Hen and Howie are nearby with patients, Bobby is talking to another firefighter, but Tommy runs straight to Evan. "Chris?" he asks. "He's okay, Eddie's taking him home," Evan says, shoving himself up to sit. "I th-thought--he was gone, I thought he was--" And Tommy hugs him and feels the way Evan clutches at his flight suit. "I thought you were gone," he admits around the lump in his throat. "I flew over the pier, and--god, I thought I lost you." When he pulls back, he presses a hand to Evan's cheek and they look between each other's eyes, and there's a long moment when Tommy isn't sure and then they're both leaning in. He kisses Evan, feeling the desperation from both of them. He's thought about kissing Evan a lot these last few months, but he'd imagined tenderness or hunger, not clinging to damp clothing and grimy skin after a natural disaster. It's still everything he wanted, Evan's still everything he's wanted. When the kiss breaks, he presses his forehead to Evan's. "Yeah?" he asks softly, and Evan nods. "Yeah," Evan confirms.
I was tagged by @ambernotember today and... possibly some other people previously, I have not kept track, sorry.
No pressure tagging @corporatebanana, @geddyqueer, @sad-girl-hours23, @setmeatopthepyre, @trombonechurchill, @wee-fuckin-woo and anyone else that would like to hop on!
Sad Dag Hours under the cut.
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They do wind up crammed next to each other in the van. Tommy by one window, Dag in the middle, and Lars on the other side. Between the gear and everyone else’s luggage, only Tommy’s suitcase can fit shoved into the back, so Tommy just puts a his backpack in his lap. It’s a worn purple, the color varied and partially sun bleached, with a few patches sewn to the front. One is a Phorid fly patch that’s old enough Tommy had to have gotten it from one of their first times playing in North America. Dag tries not to stare at it. It feels impossible, that Tommy was at a Phorid show so long ago, and Dag didn’t notice him then.
“Smack me if I drool on you,” Tommy says.
Dag nods in response, so he doesn’t do something stupid and admit that he wants to know what Tommy’s spit tastes like.
“Fucked up the flight was delayed,” Jan says, climbing into the driver’s seat and peering back at them.
“Yeah,” Tommy’s eyes are already barely open. “Airport’s not the worst place to sleep though.”
“What’s worse?” Jan asks curiously.
“Under a bridge,” Tommy says dryly, with a smile thin enough that Dag can’t tell if he’s joking or not.
The van lurches into life and Dag’s stomach lurches with it. This is physically the closest to Tommy that Dag’s ever been. He’s got eyes, he knows Tommy’s a big guy, tall and muscular. But it’s one thing to see it, and another altogether to feel the bulk of Tommy right next to him. Dag can see the flex of Tommy’s bicep in his peripheral vision, as Tommy pulls a rumpled hoodie out of his backpack and balls it up into a makeshift pillow.
It’s not like Dag is small or anything. He’s shorter than Tommy sure, and he doesn’t lift or whatever else it is that Tommy must do at the gym, but Dag’s still a grown man. Tommy’s just—just big. Thick. Dag’s mouth feels dry. He focuses at looking through the front windshield, instead of the way that Tommy’s in shorts, the fabric stretched across the breadth of his thighs as he sits.
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just a quick little thing inspired by this post from @vastya36
He should have been paying attention to the fireworks. Buck cursed himself as he woke up in a smoke filled room, alarm blaring. The kids in the neighbourhood had been setting them off all week to celebrate the end of school, and it seemed like one of them had finally found it’s way into his house.
He grabbed the fire extinguisher he kept in his room and pulled his sleep shirt up over his mouth and nose, crawling to the door and carefully feeling the doorknob. Still cool to the touch. He couldn’t see any flames yet, just a lot of smoke.
He’d gone over a fire plan with Theo more than once, teaching him different ways out of the house. Hopefully he’d woken up faster than Buck — Buck cursed the long shift that had knocked him out so completely, it was literally his job to wake up at an alarm — but Buck couldn’t wait to find out, and crawled down the hall to Theo’s room, pausing to close the open door of the bathroom and guest room after clearing them and making sure Theo wasn’t hiding in either of them.
The smoke was stinging his eyes and he was coughing. He still hadn’t come across any flames, which meant the fire was probably at the front of the house. Theo’s room was at the back, and he didn’t know if that was good or bad yet.
He’d just opened Theo’s door when he heard footsteps and yelling. He hadn’t even thought to call 911. Thank god someone else had.
He was looking under Theo’s bed when a gloved hand wrapped around his ankle, pulling him backwards. Buck managed not to kick out, it wasn’t the firefighter’s fault, but he did try to struggle forward.
“I have to find Theo!” he yelled behind him.
“He’s outside, let’s go!” The firefighter yelled back, hauling Buck upright and over his shoulders, running for the patio door.
Buck caught a glimpse of other firefighters in his living room, where the fire seemed to have contained. He slumped in relief, both that Theo was okay and that the damage seemed contained — all of his photos were scanned with multiple backups, and Theo’s room had seemed fine, so a good wash would probably fix everything. The poor kid had been through enough without losing favourite outfits and his baby blanket as well.
They were around the front of the house now, and Buck could see Theo on a stretcher with one of the paramedics entertaining him, not a scratch or smudge on him. He even had his slippers on to protect his feet. At least one of them was good in an emergency, Buck thought.
He was deposited on the stretcher next to Theo and treated to a twin reaction of “Mr Poop!” and “Evan?”
Buck looked up at the number on the ambulance, wincing before he turned to face his ex-boyfriend. “Uh, hi?”
“Stop talking,” the paramedic demanded, fitting him with an oxygen mask while Theo buried himself under Buck’s arm. “You taught your kid to get out but not yourself?” she shook her head.
“Hey, don’t be mean to Mr. Poop,” Theo piped up.
Buck managed to refrain from smacking himself in the forehead or dying of embarrassment.
Tommy was watching him closely, helmet off now as he brushed a hand through his sweaty hair. Buck wondered if maybe a sinkhole would open up and swallow him, save him from the inevitable conversation with Tommy about what he was doing in a new house with a toddler.
The paramedic made him keep the mask on for a few more minutes before she deemed him okay to take it off. Tommy was still hovering at the edges, but waited until Buck was given the all clear to talk before sidling closer.
Tommy’s captain — Melton, Buck reminded himself — came over to make sure they were okay and to let them know the fire had been put out, and it had indeed been contained to the front room of the house. He recommended spending the night somewhere else, but they’d been find to go back in the morning as long as they aired the place out.
“I bet you have a lot of questions,” Buck said when it was just him, Tommy, and Theo.
“A couple,” Tommy admitted. “They can wait. Do you have somewhere to stay tonight?”
“I can call Maddie,” Buck said.
Tommy pulled something out of his pocket and handed it to Buck. Buck looked down in confusion at the key ring.
“I’m on shift all night, take him to my place,” Tommy said. “I can bring breakfast in the morning.”
Theo’s ears caught the word breakfast and he perked up. “Pancakes?” He asked eagerly.
“Hmm,” Tommy said thoughtfully. “I think I’d have to make those at home. The restaurant ones are never as fluffy.”
“Let’s stay with pancake man!” Theo said, tugging at Buck’s arm.
Buck looked at Tommy. “He’ll call you that forever,” Buck warned.
“Well, maybe until I make something he likes better,” Tommy said, with a hint of a smile.
“Thanks, Tommy,” Buck said, fingers closing around the keys. “Um, can you watch him for a second while I go grab my car keys?”
“Of course,” Tommy said. “It’s Theo, right?” He waited until Theo nodded. “Do you want to come get some stickers?”
“I already have fire engine stickers,” Theo informed him, taking his hand.
Tommy nodded. “I would imagine you do. What about helicopters?”
Theo made a noise of excitement, and Tommy looked back over his shoulder at Buck. Buck smiled at them and headed for the house, hoping to be in and out before Theo noticed and wanted to get back in too.
By the time Buck was back out, Theo had helicopter stickers on both cheeks and a handful of them.
“See you in the morning, pancake man!” Theo called as Buck carried him to the car.
I've known a number of non binary people in my life and I think single biggest conclusion I can draw from that is that non binary people are not the same. Like if Men fit in box A and women fit in box B, people really, really want nonbinary people to fit in a theoretical box C, and it just doesn't work like that. They are outside the boxes. They defy any simple categorization because they are not a third way of being, but every other possible way of being.
Being supportive of binary people is relatively simple, they have decided to sort themselves into one of the boxes that we have lots of experience interacting with. Being supportive of nonbinary people can be comparatively tricky, because you have to resist the urge to create box C and drop them all there. That's how we end up with various prejudices like "woman lite". Humans really, really like to categorize things. It helps us think. Unfortunately, sometimes it helps us think wrong.
If you have a non binary person in your life, I think it is important to take the extra effort to learn about them specifically.
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i thinkit would be cool if there was an omegaverse but for salmon instead of wolves. Like when the time comes certain members of society get really juicy musclewise and get yiffy fangs and are suddenly compelled to return to the neighborhood they grew up in and 96 hours later show up barefoot in full starvation mode and ravaged by walking through interstate traffic to fuck whoevwr smells the best in the local burger king. Then afterwards they die and disintegrate to be eaten by seagulls in the parking lot
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