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I would. Like to speak again. About how Ilya is not actually being submissive. During tuna melt frot. But I will get myself in trouble again. So I can't.
Okay okay okay. The number of times I just watched tuna frot was obscene but I am ready to speak.
So. I would like to start by saying that quite literally everything that Shane does in that scene is submissive. Ilya isn't overly dominant in the scene, true--we've seen him much more assertive. However, it's pretty obvious that, despite Shane initiating, Ilya has the control. And Shane initiating doesn't read as dominant. Shane kisses Ilya's body, beelining for Ilya's crotch, and then buries his face there. This is...somewhat textbook submission.
When Shane swings a leg over, we see the placement of Ilya's hands. We see him subtly correcting Shane's posture, the way he wants him to sit. Shane is physically on top of Ilya but he is not in what's really thought of as a dominant position. Lapsitting is, itself, an element of kink and in certain communities is considered a way to establish possession over a submissive partner; i.e. the submissive sits in the dominant's lap to show who they belong to. They're not in public so it's not really that, but I do really believe it's still meant to be read as shorthand for Shane's submissive tendencies. Which have been spoken about, multiple times, by multiple people involved in making the show, including Hudson Williams.
Now we reach the big moments that tend to be cited by submissive/switch Ilya truthers as indicators of submission:
The 'Seeing God' look that he aims at Shane
"Gonna come for me, Rozanov?" "Fucking make me."
Ilya's vocalizations
So let's address them in order.
Ilya's 'Seeing God' look is, I will admit, heady. But I don't see it as submissive. Ilya, I think, just straight up thinks that Shane is beautiful and it's showing on his face. Connor is a really expressive actor. It shows here. Ilya's thought process is really obvious here, thanks to Connor's skill, and it's pretty clearly something along the lines of: Holy shit. This man continues to be the most beautiful man I have ever seen. And he is taking his dick out. And he's going to rub our dicks together. Lucky me. Also, Ilya in this moment is under the impression that he and Shane have agreed to be--not together maybe, but more. More than what they've been. Ilya thinks that they are consummating the end of their hookup era. He's allowing himself to do some things he maybe hasn't done before. Look a little longer, maybe, or a little nicer. This is still Ilya setting the tone. And, at the end of the day, they're having sex. His expressions are going to be pretty drunken.
Shane's, "Gonna come for me, Rozanov?" has never, and I mean never read as dominant to me. He's practically whining, and tone in human communication holds almost as much weight as the words--sometimes more. If we replaced one single word ('for' with 'on') I genuinely don't think that anyone would think it was anything but submissive. When Ilya says Fucking make me, it's meant to be read as a command, though a soft one. It's actually still a little whiny, lmao, but Connor loses some of his gravely Ilya-tone in this scene, I think maybe because of the repeated takes or because he's matching Hudson's energy--which is shaky and a little frantic. I noticed it again on the line, "Yeah, okay, you forgot team meeting," where he sounds more like Connor than Ilya, though it's subtle. Anyway, this is a bit of a nothingburger for me. It's just a sexy thing to say and Shane probably knows that it will--y'know, make Ilya come.
Ilya's vocalizations--LET THE DOMTOPS MOAN. For God's sake. Some submissives don't like it, I guess, but in my opinion they don't know what they're missing. This was the one scene that I considered skipping when I watched with my sibling because Ilya's vocalizations literally made me feel a way that I didn't want to feel sitting in a room with family. Thankfully I was expecting it the second time and felt a little more sane about it, haha. But yeah again, nothing about this reads as submissive to me. He's just...having a good time?? He's got the guy he likes in his lap kissing him and touching his dick. I think the implication is that they've never frotted before. It's pretty fun and nice to be doing something new. Also, again, Ilya is feeling a bit less inhibited here. He thinks he and Shane have reached an understanding. He's happy. Let dominants enjoy sex...let dominants moan...God fucking dammit...
Anyway. Here are a few ways that Ilya is still dominant in this scene:
The aforementioned ways in which Ilya guides Shane's body.
I do believe that Ilya nudges Shane to get in his lap when he has his face in Ilya's crotch but that's up for interpretation
Ilya gives several approvals throughout the scene. His Mm-hms early in the scene and his Da, like that a bit later. We know already that Shane likes to have Ilya's permission/approval. This is probably a normal part of their sex and not unique to this moment of their relationship, though this is the only time we see it onscreen.
The big one, for me, is Ilya making Shane hold out his hand to be spit in. That's...very dynamic-y, in my mind. That's not really something that I imagine a submissive deciding to do. Even if the argument is that Ilya is a switch--which I think it is, for most people. It just doesn't read as even remotely submissive to me, I'm sorry. I don't really know what a dominant headspace is like but if Shane wanted to be dominant over Ilya in that moment at all, I think that would take him out of it a bit.
In summary:
Shane initiates, is maybe driving a bit, but Ilya is in control. Every escalation Shane makes in the scene is with Ilya's permission. You can see it in the way he helps Shane with their clothing, in the way he places his hands on very proprietary areas of Shane's body--his hips, then his chest. There's even a part I noticed in my multiple replays of the scene for this breakdown where it looks like Shane is nosing in for a kiss that he does not receive until Ilya allows it (It looks like he's busy watching Shane jerk him off, which...we know Ilya likes to watch it go in, so). Shane is servicing Ilya. Ilya is directing the ways Shane's body moves. They're not performing kink, to be clear--like, this isn't a scene. They're just having sex. But they have a very clear dynamic that they don't stray from and that dynamic involves Ilya being dominant. I can't force people to see it this way but I can tell you that that is what it reads as to someone who, at the very lease, knows what submission looks and feels like in the body and knows that that's not what Ilya is doing in that scene.
yeah dude the bubble is gonna burst any minute now and all the bad guys will lose everything and cry and walk into the ocean to pass on to the bowels of hell with guns to their heads and the meek shall inherit the earth as we were promised. and the best part is? we don't even have to do anything it will automatically happen by itself. and its totally going to happen any day now. yes i've been saying this for 6 straight years but i know it's coming and i literally don't have to do anything :)
this is how charli xcx sounds to straight men
I looked the book up. the main character's name is Tookie De La Crème
it’s actually wild how terrified of the general public most usamericans are. like you don’t realize it if you’re someone who mostly walks and takes transit and spends a lot of time in populous public spaces but then you talk to one of the thousands of people that seemingly never set foot in any public space besides a parking garage or a starbucks and you suddenly understand why it’s so easy for fascist rhetoric about the dangerous alien to take root. this country’s median voter pretty much never interacts with strangers who aren’t their coworkers or people they met on dating apps
saw a post on instagram that was literally someone citing statistics saying public transit is one of the safest travel options out there and the comments were literally just “ummmmm op this is so ableist and misogynistic of you :) don’t you know the average public transit user is a dangerous violent criminal who wants to set you on fire :)))”
it must be so terrifying and sad to go through life convinced if you set foot outside your car in public or interact with people outside your nuclear family you’ll instantly be raped and robbed by the Evil Poors no wonder so many of these people are reactionary tar pits
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- people giving their life story to explain why they have a special secret valid trauma reason to be a reactionary tar pit
- white true crime women assuming I don’t know what it’s like to fear rape
- fascists calling me a euroslave
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Did you know that AO3 allows fics with homicide in them? There’s a whole tag for Major Character Death and even more tags so you can find exactly what kind of character death you want to read.
Don’t they know that murder is illegal? You just know there are a bunch of homicidal maniacs out there who love to read those stories. They write them, too, in between killing people.
Anyone can read the stories on AO3! Kids can read them! They’re getting exposed to stabbing, poisoning, even guns! And they’re writing the heroes doing the killing, too! That’s basically telling kids it’s okay to go out and murder their families. It’s promoting violence and encouraging homicide and if we don’t do something about it soon, you’ll be murdered next!
The devil came to my house and tried to burn it down, which is why this post exists in the first place.
I can’t believe that tumblr user ao3commentoftheday is telling KIDS to go out knocking on doors asking for the devil! /s
but only *after* they piss on the poor! /s
shane's implied costco membership
Once ilya and shane are on the same team they are fucking nasty with each other
Not sexually (their teammates would be more okay with that, actually), just straight-up gross:
they would swap mouthguards if they weren't custom fitted
Same water bottle. They don't even pretend they have separate ones. There's no heterosexual squirting the water into their mouths from a distance, they're fellating those gatorade bottles
All of their base layers are communal. So is their deodorant.
full visual inspections of each other's injuries. shouldering in next to the team medic to look into each other's bloody mouths and applying each other's steri-strips to keep cuts closed.
putting on shin guard tape for each other
sharing smelling salts, like literally same stick. at the same time. making intense eye contact while they do it.
im literally always saying this

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Calling Shane's diet "rabbit food" in the same way Ilya calls him "short" (book) or "slow" (show). Shane is eating approximately 5,000 calories every single day, he is maxing the fuck out of his protein intake, it's just all boiled chicken, plain tuna, no salt on eggs, greek yogurt, cottage cheese, and disgusting smoothies. "I will not eat your weird rabbit food," Ilya says and Shane's already picking up his plate of lean ground beef & rice taco bowl to mash it into Ilya's face in a fury.
okay this is an insane poll but for context: as a lot of people know, in fashion and styling, different people have different complimentary palettes. some people look better in cool tones, some people look better in warm tones, some in bright colors, some in pastels, etc etc. however, this also applies to metals, specifically gold vs silver. so,
do you know whether you "should" be wearing either silver or gold
yes, i know which looks best, and i stick with this
yes, i know which looks best, and i don't care
no, i don't know
nuance button
i very much want to clarify before people get mad at me: i am not saying this is a thing that matters genuinely literally at all ever. i just am curious if most people care or are even aware of this.
i want this summer to be my fruit summer. i wanna eat so many fruits. try out new ones. fruit salads with berries. freshhhhh fruits :)
I can recommend fruits I am a Demon for summer fruits. if you're looking for an entry into trying more fruits and lowering refined sugar may I suggest Eton mess?
I'm not sure if it's popular/known outside the UK but it's essentially strawberries, raspberries and blueberries (any berries you want I think, but that's the version I know) with cream and meringue and you smash it all up together and eat it like that. Story goes that Eton (fancy private school for the elite) was hosting some event and someone dropped the desserts and served it anyway and it got really popular. Meringue is obviously refined sugar but if you make it yourself you can choose how much to add. I use shop bought ones, it's great.
BBC good food has this whole recipe page for different versions of it lmao. I recommend that site a lot in general actually, no ads and no bullshittery on the recipes and they range from really simple to fairly complex.
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Personally I do think that sometimes non-hockey fans can end up mischaracterizing Shane and Ilya because they don't know enough about hockey/hockey playstyles
The Ilya we see in Heated rivalry would not be throwing the first punch, he's not an enforcer. Ilya is a star center and a Pest. He wouldn't be doing his job correctly if he was punching players every other game, it would end up with not enough ice time to let him be the playmaker he's paid to be.
But being a pest can be playmaking! Find a player to bait, emotionally push them just enough that they try to fight you, and then get the fuck out of there before the ref gives you both penalties. This gets your team the power play. There is probably someone on Ilya's line dedicated to helping him get out of the fights he starts, and finishing them for him!
I also think this is also something that Shane would respect. Ilya is good at it and it's a good strategy for his team. I don't think Shane would see it as some dirty tactic, because Shane probably thinks everyone with a brain can see it for what it is! He probably thinks everyone should be able to see that being an asshole is a tactic for Ilya, that it's something to ignore and not fall for, that it's a strategy and not personal beef.
I think Shane's more disappointed when a Metro falls for it. Shane sees it as Ilya set up a Looney Toons ass obvious trap and one of his teammates ran into it. Why be mad at Bugs Bunny when you can be mad at your defenceman for falling for a fucking Bugs Bunny trap.
@chieana adding your tags because yesss definitely
like wait, hold on, this is a good point that I never considered. Yuna Hollander being a momager would definitely be something Shane would get chirped for and Shane doesn't go for stupid fighting penalties but also you can't let an insult to your mother slide, no one can. Yuna is both present in the hockey world and also very recognisable. There can't be many Japanese women involved in hockey in the GCU, it would be obvious to even the most concussed player that that's Hollander's Mom. Let's also add a sprinkling of "Shane's mom is hot' because while that's never been explicitly stated in book canon, it's clear in the show, and also, Shane got his genes from somewhere he's got hot parents for sure.
So what do we get? Shane's got a momager. A fair number of other players probably recognise her. She's really hot. Shane never dates. Shane's the best/2nd best in the league and it's really fucking difficult to make him get a penalty. Hockey players are generally misogynistic.
Shane baby I'm so fucking sorry for the horrible shit you've had to hear about your mother
And Ilya wouldn't go for this because 1. the obvious trauma, and 2. he likes Shane and doesn't want to genuinely piss him off.
I also think it would be fun if there's a secret third thing Ilya does where he IS able to get Shane in the bin and get a power play against Montreal but I have no idea what it could be because I don't know hockey. I also think it probably doesn't work all the time otherwise they wouldn't be so evenly matched.

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Personally I do think that sometimes non-hockey fans can end up mischaracterizing Shane and Ilya because they don't know enough about hockey/hockey playstyles
The Ilya we see in Heated rivalry would not be throwing the first punch, he's not an enforcer. Ilya is a star center and a Pest. He wouldn't be doing his job correctly if he was punching players every other game, it would end up with not enough ice time to let him be the playmaker he's paid to be.
But being a pest can be playmaking! Find a player to bait, emotionally push them just enough that they try to fight you, and then get the fuck out of there before the ref gives you both penalties. This gets your team the power play. There is probably someone on Ilya's line dedicated to helping him get out of the fights he starts, and finishing them for him!
I also think this is also something that Shane would respect. Ilya is good at it and it's a good strategy for his team. I don't think Shane would see it as some dirty tactic, because Shane probably thinks everyone with a brain can see it for what it is! He probably thinks everyone should be able to see that being an asshole is a tactic for Ilya, that it's something to ignore and not fall for, that it's a strategy and not personal beef.
I think Shane's more disappointed when a Metro falls for it. Shane sees it as Ilya set up a Looney Toons ass obvious trap and one of his teammates ran into it. Why be mad at Bugs Bunny when you can be mad at your defenceman for falling for a fucking Bugs Bunny trap.
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#they’re both centers and they’re both the beat in the world#ilya does not lose to shane on technical skills#they are perfect equal counterparts#if you can’t get that you’re missing the core of the relationship via @tierthebird
No literally though that's the whole point. They're Equals. They're Equally Matched.
In any world where Shane is working himself to the bone to maintain his performance while Ilya fucks around eating nothing but McDonalds and showing up to games hung over the premise of their whole relationship evaporates. That is not 'they literally decide who is the best and second best player in the World on a game by game basis' anymore, that is not 'their rivalry pushes them to even higher heights' anymore, that is 'Shane is working himself as hard as he can and Still losing half the time to a guy who isn't making an effort' which terminates at the logical point of 'if Ilya were to actually start taking his training seriously then he would become Decisively the better player' which just conclusively destroys any point to them being Rivals and Equals.
The Whole Point is that the thing that initially drew them to each other is that they were both putting in the work and functioning at a skill level that Only Each Other Could Understand.
Ilya cuts himself a little more slack in terms of having the occasional drink and cigarette, but I Promise he is out here eating his nutritionist-approved performance diet 99% of the time and showing up to every practice and putting in the extra work necessary to Be The Best the same way that Shane is.
anyway you should always remember that all those foreigners you see dying on the news are just as real people as you are who have just as much interiority as you do. there is nothing about you that makes you more important and it is by pure chance that you are not in their position. in fact, this holds for all of history. every person, no matter the horror of the fate that befell them, had just as much interiority as you do. i feel like some people haven't fully internalized this.