the sun won't ask the world if it can rise

a mosque in scotland had to be put into lockdown. they are going door-to-door with hit lists and addresses in northern ireland, setting houses alight. they firebombed an imam's house in manchester. people of colour are being targeted and attacked by racist mobs in the street in broad daylight.

deathly curious how good the average tumblr user is at distinguishing dinosaur skulls from non dinosaur skulls

Aquena with her hair down! <3

Image 1: response by Doll Face (@ Smoke_nd_pearlz) "In 2012 i was diagnosed with a deadly blood disorder known as TTP. I was in the hospital for a month. A white nurse almost killed me because she thought i was drug seeking. I kept telling her my central line in my groin was hurting& she wouldn't give me any morphine just Tylenol.

I went septic later on that night because of the central line. I went into SVT and had to go to cardiac ICU for a week. I was 18. My TTP flared up again in 2016 and i went to the ER. I told the (white) doctor that i had TTP and that i needed to be admitted. He had my records right in front of him. I was just there 4 years earlier, the same hospital diagnosed me.

He told me that i didn't have TTP...i had ITP. He sent me home with steroids and pain meds. I cried and cried and sat at home all weekend until i could get to my hematologist. I called them and they had me come in immediately. Got labs drawn...my hemoglobin and platelets were VERY low. They did a direct admit: I had to get 14 bags of platelets and 3 bags of blood. My hematologist and his NP told me if i would've waited any longer i would've died.

More recently in 2022 i went to a freestanding ED because i thought i had the flu. I was in pain, my blood pressure was elevated, i had a fever. I told the black NP that i have TTP and asked them to do a cbc and ADAMTS13 level if they could. I got pain meds, waited for the (white) doc to come and see me. He told me ny labs were "fine" and that i just had a stomach virus. I didn't believe that so i asked him what my platelet count was. He told me 30k (normal platelet count in non chemo patients are 150k-400k) i almost lost my shit on him.

He went back and further with me for 10 minutes about how i wasn't having a TTP flare up and i told him to call the fucking hospital that I'm usually treated at and find me a bed. He begrudgingly did it. He came back not even 10 minutes later and said that the hospital i usually go to was full (it was around Christmas time) but after the on call hematologist at the level 1 trauma center downtown saw my blood work they wanted me to come in IMMEDIATELY. Hematologist told me if i would've waited any longer i would've been dead before Christmas.

Every time that I've almost died it was either at the hands of a white nurse or doctor. They don't take our pain or complaints seriously! They think we are drug addicts. I literally became a nurse because of this. We need black doctors. That lawsuit is just a bunch of fucking racists who are mad. Fuck them."

Image 2: response by Emmanuel Felton (@ emmanuelfelton), "A peer-reviewed study found Black patients matched with Black doctors were 27% less likely to die in the hospital. A separate study found Black residents live longer in counties with more Black primary care physicians. "Find A Black Doctor" exists because the disparities are real"

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Can't watch the video yet because i'm at work, but i'll pass it along- mostly, though, i rblogged to thank you :o). I'm happy to report my recovery is going very well!!!! I'm ten months clean and i don't ever wanna look back. The urge to relapse is gone, and i'm actually currently participating in a research study about the relationship between addiction and chronic pain, as well as the potential benefits of treating chronic pain with buprenorphine, the main drug used for Opioid Use Disorder recovery, since it is also a painkiller! My addiction was very painful and destructive to my life, but i'm incredibly grateful that at least my experiences can help other people who end up in this situation for the same reason as me- self-treating chronic pain. The relationship between chronic pain and addiction is severely under-studied and i'm really hopeful that this will help a lot of people, especially because, after having been on it for ten months, i can firmly say Buprenorphine is a life saving drug that deserves more recognition and usage.