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Didn't watch the show. Don't plan to.

The writing is easy to read and the pace is not too slow. However, since the advent of contemporary thrillers, i didn't get mindblown with this one. Everything is predictable and nothing is original. But i guess, it had felt original back when it was published.

I don't necessarly recommend it, unless you have nothing to read.

C-PTSD is not a very well-known illness, and it's not the standard PTSD that we all know of.

PTSD is a punctual stress disorder that manifests at a point in time due to a certain trigger, recognized by your brain as a potential threat based on past trauma. Complex PTSD, however, is an ongoing state of sneaky hypervigilance that manifests as anxiety, depression, anger, and dread. This constant and persistent malfunctioning seeps into your personhood, work, and relationships. It usually results from chronic long-term abuse, particularly in childhood.

PTSD can be treated and alleviated with medication and therapy, particularly with CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy), unlike C-PTSD for which there is no consensus yet on what it takes to control it, besides the medication for the resulting symptoms above-mentioned.

Stephanie tells the story of how she managed to reconfigure the way she lives with C-PTSD, before her diagnosis, and after. She shows how small self-care habits and routines, relieved some of the pain, but not the underlying base of suffering. With trial and error, she exerted tremendous effort to look for the most effective solution.

It was therapy, that made a huge impact, but it took the right therapist for it to happen.

You can keep me engaged in anything if your writing is worth it. Stephanie is a journalist and a great writer. She's smart, witty, and pretty self-aware. She can bridge the gap between her and her reader (me) by explaining her state of mind and her pain in a clear, though not very detailed way. I could better imagine what she was going through, without getting overwhelmed.

She talks about how race, class, and politics contributed to her abuse, and how Asians are good at preserving the generational trauma. She also spent some pages talking about how lackluster the healthcare system is, how minorities' pain is usually dismissed, and how healthcare providers are so undertrained in managing mental health problems, especially when they're associated with physical ones.

Even if I don't think I have C-PTSD (I have some other issues, though), there are aspects of Stephanie's story I could relate to: Her broken relationship with her father, and her attempts to repair and maintain relationships, which only works with practice.

My favorite part of the book was her sessions with her therapist in the last few chapters. It baffles me how the most subtle behaviors, gestures, and mimics can show how strong and deep-rooted trauma can be. It takes a good, observant, and empathetic therapist to bring it to the surface.

I would honestly owe my love for reading to Maxime Chattam. I knew what binge-reading felt like after l'Ame Du Mal made me get almost all his thriller books. I would bring them with me to school and read them sneakily underneath the textbooks in class. No worries, i was still a straight-A student, so i didn't really get into trouble for it.

As i grew, i extended my reading horizon to other genres, still in French, but Chattam kept being a staple. Until i went to college where i switched to English books, and with time, Chattam and all other French literature were long forgotten for more than a decade.

But, as i was decluttering my bookshelves this past week, i came across my Maxime Chattam books at the very back and a wave of nostalgia came over me while noticing that i forgot to read a couple. "La Patience Du Diable" was one of them but it was only the second novel of a trilogy. So, i decided to re-read the first one, "La Conjuration Primitive".

The Paris police chief, Alexis, drives far into the mountains to seek the help of Mikelis, a retired detective, known for honing in on the inner psyche of killers and really understanding the hows and whys of the human violence. There are two different crimes in two different locations, both leaving no trace but a bloody sign on the victims, the same sign that a teenager paints on the subway walls before pushing a couple of people into the tracks. Is this some sort of cult? an Ideology that twisted people are starting to adopt for themselves?

Alexis and his colleagues, Ludivine and Segnon, along with Mikelis, will try to decipher what the sign means and what relations it has to the crimes. The usual thriller trope.

The book is divided into three parts. In the first one, the lens are focused on Alexis, being the coordinator and the boss, while suffering from loneliness and fear of getting consumed by the horrors he's witnessing. The last two parts are all from the point of view of Ludivine. She spends the rest of the book dealing with grief while trying to solve these murders. I didn't know until i found "La patience du diable" in my book inventory that the series are all about Ludivine, in the first place.

I got attached to Alexis the most. I think it has to do with how much better Maxime painted his part, compared to the other characters. I related to him the most, even though his trope was short-lived. Mikelis was next. Nothing much about Segnon but he was a comfort of a character, i felt i could rely on him for safety.

The book was unnecessarily stretched in some bits. Maxime sometimes used the deducted logic behind the murders as filler for pause or lack of dialogues. He reformulated the thought process and inserted it in some place that got me like: "I already knew that, why do you keep reminding me that this is the way for the criminals to express themselves and show themselves out into the world? and that they're planning to recruit more unstable people for this to happen?"

However, this doesn't hinder the power of the storytelling. There were quite a few cliffhangers and unexpected plot twists. The gore, which is a forte of Maxime Chattam, was not lacking. The action scenes were also sufficiently immersive, i could feel the last hope the characters felt in near-death situations. Also, the featuring of Josh Brolin, the iconic infamous character from "L'ame du Mal", made quite an impact.

One thing about me is that even if i was in a reading rut, i still find joy in browsing bookshops and buying books, knowing full well that I'm probably not going to read them. They just sit there pretty looking waiting for me to pick them up. One of them was this one. It was short and easy to read but it took a while to go through. 238 pages in 4 months.

Mona is the second of my tbr Arab Muslim writers, after Nawal Saadawi, and i'm on the look out for more.

Women's rights is a serious issue in the MENA countries. Patriarchal values are heavily implemented and internalised in both genders, and religious zeal does not help at all.

I feel like this kind of books is a great discussion starter. A safer way than social media where outrage is usually the first reaction to any idea about social issues.

Mona speaks a lot about discussion and speech in this book, which is evident since change comes from discussions and debates. In MENA social context, however, it's extremely hard to strike up a conversation about feminism and patriarchy. Islam and patriarchy are intertwined, the latter uses the former in its favor for anchoring its values in people's psyche.

And so, if a banal patriarchal idea gets criticized, it would be considered blasphemy. I remember expressing a slight reticence to a friend's perception of menstrual blood as filth. She replied with an aggressive tone: "In religion, there is no such thing as cool or uncool". I don't think she's ever verified where she gets her religious beliefs from. Holy scripts have been interpreted in a lot of ways since their conception and this complexity of interpretation gives people confidence in their religious views without actually reconsidering their actual value and meaning.

This zeal also comes from fear. My friend here thinks that questioning rules means questioning faith, which is not true. We don't mean questioning God, his Prophet (saws), or the Quran here, but questioning men.

How did i get here? I haven't intended to talk about religion. It's a complex subject and a personal one. But it is an integral part of how MENA societies deal with women and women's rights and how it is extremely hard to discuss them with zealous people who think that defending women leads to defying God.

In this book, Mona doesn't talk about her faith. She rather describes her relationship with the hijab, feminism, sexuality, the men around her, the women around her, and how society uses religion against her and against Arab women, in general.

She gives some statistics about SA, child marriages, FGM (female genital mutilation), and domestic violence. She talks about the double standards, the brutality, and the discrimination women face in the Arab world. All in the name of religion.

Some reviewers say it's 'shocking'. It wasn't to me. it's probably because I'm more familiar with the matter, but nothing she related was news to me. I feel like all women have experienced some kind of discrimination, in various forms, either at home or outside.

It is 'brave', for sure. Not a lot of women talk freely about their issues, in fear of ostracization from society and fear for their lives. That's why i rejoice whenever women's rights issues are brought up in any shape or form. As long as it's talked about.

This is Yeonjun, Soobin, Beomgyu, Taehyun and HueningKai. Five boys in a k-pop group called TOMORROW X TOGETHER or TXT. They're a different kind of K-Pop group with a different kind of pop music. They are also one of the very few groups who base their artistry on storytelling, which is what they excel at.

Their career has been based on concepts with different visuals, choreos, style of music and arcs of a single story that we're still uncovering with them since their debut 4 years ago.

This video is a trailer of their upcoming concept (of their upcoming album, The Name Chapter). And it's also a taste of how strong they are as artists inside the mainstream market of K-pop culture.

It's quite a surrealist beautiful storytelling with hints on previous arcs. So if you like what you see, go check out TXT discography and music videos since their second album The Dream Chapter: Magic, so you'll get some hints of the TXT world.

- it's like a transcript of a documentary.

- Her chapters are quite long, but they're made in distinct paragraphs, so it's easy to get back into it without losing the thread.

- It started sounding like it's a reproductive issue, then it becames a sexuality issue and what it means in society, which i always find is absurd. But sexuality runs almost all aspect of society, because it's fueled by desire. And desire is a strong component of decision making.

- She tries to be witty with puns like she did in "Stiff" but her jokes lie flat. Only her interactions with the experts, the patients and the study participants seemed funny to me.

- I thought she was going to go a bit deeper into the socio-psychological part of gender and sexuality but i reminded myself she only does the practical stuff, which holds the appeal of her work amongst other non-fictions.

- Most of the book talked about male's sexuality experiments and how throughout history, penile fonction was the subject of scientific talk in manoeuvring sexual problems in couples. The female aspect was pretty omitted back then, and after reading Mary's book, i think it was mostly of the obvious proeminence of the male parts and the ease of their manipulation compared to the female parts (besides the patriarchy, of course).

The contraptions they came up with to cure ED were so horrifying, i got scared for own body parts.

- Obviously, i got more interested in the female aspect of sexual experiments, and i honestly, was shook and more confused, it got me want to look into it even more. Especially with the difference between male and female reaction to nudity and sexuality where Mary talks about the physiological explanation of the arousal variation,

but she forgot/omitted to mention the psycholgical part of it, so it left an interrogation point for me to look into. It was very interesting.

Overall, it was a fun read and i'm curious about her other works. Unique concepts and good writing.

The first aid kit differs from person to person, and i haven't completed my ideal kit yet, since i haven't started tending to myself until recently when i became more and more in tune with my mental state.

In this book, Katherine May calls that gloomy state "wintering" and i kind of relate to that, especially that i feel the worst in the cold months.

She tells us her ways of helping herself embrace her "wintering" and slowly getting able to come out of it.

I don't seem to mind her frivolous ways to heal, since i feel like she's not actually prescribing us the same lifestyle solutions she used,

but more like she's showing us how overall certain things can change how we feel.

One of the things i liked was her relationship with nature, especially with the antarctic. That's something i got dreamy about. I love water and ice and i love cool toned colouring. I love isolation and aloneness, and being alone in the arctic seems interesting.

But then, i got bored out of too much coziness. What else can she teach me about self care? I was more interested when she talked about nature and animals and less when she talked about herself, which lessened my joy of reading it, so i simply stopped.

good writing though.

When it comes to the human body, though, i'm the most curious, since i live in one. So when i came across the concept of biais in Medicine, i had to read this one.

Short chapters are my fravorite format, which contibuted heavily on my review of this book.

A rundown of the choronology of the different scientific experiments and their consequences, while mentioning the different conflicts of interest, then giving the conclusion or the lesson behind the exposition of the studies and how they impact the biases of the physicians.

It can sometimes get boring, but obviously, this is not a novel.

Simple writing. Quick read and interesting take on the medical field and its biases on its very well trusted algorithms.

The most intriguing ones for me were the unnecessary duration of some antibiotics, the futility of thryoid papillary carcinoma and the fals security of sunblock.

Side note: i wish more expositions and scientific works can be done by novelists.

They're insane. My favorite kind of graphic art is 3D-ish cartoon with some realism.

Anyhow, the story is obviously about the journey of Dr. Harleen Quinzel to becoming Harley Quinn. How her work of psychoanalysing Gotham's criminals and search of their empathy in order to help the city, put her right into Joker's hands.

We obviously all know her story, but these comic books are so artistically good that you don't mind re-immersing yourself into it.

Simple pretty drawing. Starts lighthearted, becomes more serious as you go along. Heartwarming, cosy, sad.

It's your usual coming of age story. Boy meets boy, boy falls in love with boy (it's mutual), boy thought was straight, gets confused. Boy has had a hard time being gay, struggles with mental health.

The show is pretty good, too.

Oh, and my favorite character is Charlie's little brother.

Evelyn Hugo's story is a tragedy. Sad, sad life and sad ending. A bittersweet discovery for the journalist who will write her biography.

Not much of a fan of the Hollywood and show business scene but nice writing and fast read.

As an introduction to this topic, it's not so bad. But to me, it's long and redundant. Her points can be made into few pages without repeating them over and over to prove something.

There's a lot of info in there. Anecdotal and scientific. Both are good, but sometimes, i get lost in her arguments. Either i'm stupid or distracted, or she puts clauses just for the sake of stating them with no relation between them and i'm like: okay, where are you going with this?.

Overall, she's a good writer but i don't think her essay game is simple enough to keep reading. So i didn't finish her book.

This is not the case. This writer is a comedian talking about something that is not comedy, even though sex, power and money are pretty ridiculous. She's not bad but i couldn't finish her book. She didn't really bring anything new to the already saturated subject. Perhaps some wit, but nothing special.