raeannewrites

I've gotten so tired of myself lately, especially with the way i look. I want something new, something to change, i want to look completely different. 

A few months ago i was your everything but now, you don't even have the courtesy to text me back. 

In a year a lot has changed but with every change i just keep thinking of the past, everything i miss and what could have been.

I have been so depressed lately I don't know what to do. Seems as if I'm drowning, fallen down an unable to get back up. I need some sort of happiness.

So I have been invited to my friends party and invited my friend as my plus one but I can’t make it… But my plus one is still going to go?! What.

One thing I absolutely hate is someone who self harms but then shows it off... Then everyone notices them and she gets so much attention and people feeling sorry for her, yet no one notices the quiet one with bracelets all the way up her arm. They never notice how she jumps to move her bracelets back when the slip down so people can see what she's done. Maybe she's the one that needs people's help and sympathy.. not the one that rolls her sleeves up... even if its cold.

Its been six months today since Mitch Lucker sadly passed away, i honestly can't even say much when it comes to this. I miss you Mitch, we miss you. 

I hate knowing that i don't fit in with people... I never have done and if I'm honest it sucks.

This blog is all my inside thoughts and im now worried that people i physically know actually know about this tumblr account. 

see shes scared too! ahaha, love this coincidence. 

So, I've heard many different rumours about why Austin has been arrested but whatever the true reason is he probably had a good reason to why he did what he did. I stand 100% behind him through all of this. Austin isn't a bad person and never has been. When i read the story and saw his 'mug shot' i almost cried. If the story I've been hearing most is true, it only makes me love him more. 

So I've been writing songs recently and I wrote one about one of my darker experiences that I haven't really ever spoke about before. It felt good spilling out all my emotions on to paper, I can't wait until I can actually play it for people. I want my songs to speak to people and for them to take in and understand the lyrics.

I hardly ever write on here so I'm going to start putting almost everything on here. So yeah, this is a pretty pointless post. Anyway not like interesting things happen in my life but I'm off to go see Never Shout Never, We Are The In Crowd and Pierce The Veil live. As well as I am off to slam dunk festival, so ill blog about that? should be interesting? 

So today is suicide awareness day and this is sort of related to my last post… But yeah. I’m just here to tell you that you are not alone, you do NOT have to suffer in silence, if you are upset, self harming or just need someone to talk to please message me. I am here for you and ill help as much as possible, I know you don’t know me and I don’t know you but I don’t care. If you need someone to talk to feel free to message me. Don’t worry, everything will be okay <3

I can’t stand when I see a photo of someone’s cuts, It makes me feel so sad and that i need to help. If anyone and I mean anyone is depressed, self harming or just generally needs help… I am here, just message me and I’ll do the best I can. You do NOT have to suffer in silence, I am here for you..

On the 11th February 2013... i saw ALL TIME LOW live in Nottingham! Honestly it was one of the best experiences i have ever had in my life! The support acts were The Summer Set and Lower Than Atlantis, they were pretty amazing too! I'm definitely going to go to as many concerts as possible this year!