"You lost me at normal"

Our fingers traced in circles round its history, 

He lives his life in a very existential and helpless way. Nothing matters. Everyone dies. The high fades hours later. The time will pass anyway! You know, everyone goes on and on about hitting this supposed "rock bottom" just to find the rockier, shittier, bottomier bottom. Whatever, that's life. Tony's done it before, he'll do it again, he can handle it. If this is just how the boring, tired, old story goes, then Tony will play his part just to get to intermission. Experience the highs and the lows. You'd think that's the goal. That's what everyone wants, that's called living life, he should be happy. But he isn't. Because he doesn't deserve the highs yet he keeps grabbing for more. And the lows can only hurt so much until everything goes numb, it'll never be a proper punishment for a man like him.