Happy new year! Iâve decided to return to this account. Iâll be posting about what that means for the future of this particular blog sometime soon. (And also, Iâll explain what Iâve been up to. In short; mental illness. Thought I needed a new tumblr account, but in reality, I just needed a fucking break from tumblr. But Iâm good now!)
Thank you all for being here. Genuinely. This blog has made my year, and it has made me discover so many new things about myself. Even though a lot has changed, this is where it all started, and I wonât forget that.
Another year passes, and once again it is time for me to wish you all a happy new year! :]
As you might have noticed, I did not pick this blog back up like I intended to last year. This is mostly because I had a lot of shit going on. (I graduated high school! I'm in college now! Wow!) I simply did not have the time and energy to pick up where I left off. Which is a shame, because...
A lot about me has continued to change! I'm a solid two-almost-three years older than when I started this blog, and my identity (all of it, my nonhumanity, systemhood, etc,) has shifted a lot. I'm not really a canine anymore! So coming back to this blog felt weird, because it felt almost 'tainted' with past versions of myself that I had left behind while doing a lot of personal introspection.
So, my intent last year was to start a new therianthropy sideblog. Still connected to this account, but more focused on who I am now.
Unfortunately I have a strange flavor of autism that doesn't allow me to start new things. A lot of my aforementioned personal introspection was done... well, personally, and I don't have any of it written down. And the concept of starting a new, blank blog, calling myself a 'writer on therianthropy' while having nothing to show for it... It felt really strange! The logical conclusion is to, of course, write some damn things down, but I am not a logical person. And I did not write a damn thing down.
So, where does that leave me? I don't know.
I know who I am now-- or, at least, I know who I am in this moment. But do I want to sweep up the dust on this old blog and begin where I left off? I don't know. Do I create a new place to write honestly, truly, genuinely about myself? I don't know. And, as of right now, I'm not sure how important that is to me.
This blog will always stay up, lest tumblr strike me down. It is an archive of who I was, and what I became. And if/when I work up the courage to start over, to push past that paralyzing fear of a blank page... I promise, you will all be the first to hear about it. (Otherwise, you can find me @mawchine.)
All that being said... I love you all forever. The nonhuman community of tumblr might be a chaotic place, but it will always be my first and last home.
May you find sure footing wherever you end up, be it the sea, the sky, or the lands between. See you around!

















