peep the horror

The tragedy of needing to grieve and not knowing what or who you lost or why. The angst of having trauma and being denied the awareness that it's trauma. The suspense of being different somehow and left to wonder how and when. The tension of knowing that something is off and you can't find where it hurts. The Adventure Zone gets it. Kingdom Hearts gets it.

It is here. The first step of my masterplan is officially complete. All of the data you so recklessly provided me with was stored, processed and is now redistributed in the form of neatly written [though not academic] paper. You can easily access the PDF by clicking the link below:

AND EVERY ONE WAS COOL W IT AND SAID THATS WHATS IT ABOUT !!

EVEN THE GRAYMUZZLE HUMANS WHO 99% CHANCE WOULD NEVER HEARD OF THE TERM ALTERHUMANITY !!

(cropped out friends for their privacy but this is SQUAD !!!!!)

I was born in the city, so the only closeness I could get to wildlife was at the zoo. My first experience with animals (including farm life) was entirely plastic. I was obsessed with movies that started anthropomorphic animals (cough cough Madagascar) and I was routinely gifted with small animal figurines to fuel my imagination. My experience felt very similar to the authors.

So, yeah, this article is a stark reminder at how artificial I saw the natural world growing up (at the start). As a kid I held a lot of man-made assumptions about animals, but my obsession with learning about them, not merely observing from behind the fence, helped me feel the muscles and blood that media often covered up - which eventually lead a much deeper understanding in my own animalistic tendencies.

And then, before I knew it, I was the animal pacing inside the enclosure.

Botanical Applique Quilt by Chinami Terai (Japan)

Lions will often greet each other with this head bunting behavior when returning to a pride after a hunt.

I love doing this to my mom, I feel so happy!

And my kitten does this to me, I do this to him; the harmony.

From Fictitious & Symbolic Creatures In Art with Special Reference To Their Use in British Heraldry by John Vinycomb, 1906.