Folks, I've been thinking about things for a good long while - my declining mental health, my inability to write, my place in the Deltarune community - and I've decided it's time for me to go.

It's just not fun anymore. It hasn't been fun for a while, if I'm being entirely honest, and smashing my head against this wall over and over has done nothing but make me miserable. I've been putting this off for a while, but there comes a point where you have to face reality - and the reality is, the spark just isn't there anymore. I can't force myself to enjoy this - and believe me, I have tried so hard to do so.

To everyone here who has found my thoughts and my stories interesting or inspiring, thank you for making the past four years that bit more bearable. Thank you for indulging me for as long as you have, for interacting with me, offering encouragement and support, even if only in the background. I'll always think back fondly to this point in my life, and I will miss you all.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Deltarune (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Noelle Holiday/Susie, Kris/Ralsei (Deltarune), Kris & Ralsei & Susie (Deltarune) Characters: Kris (Deltarune), Deltarune Player, Ralsei (Deltarune), Susie (Deltarune), Noelle Holiday, Knight (Deltarune) Additional Tags: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Hugs, Almost Kiss, First Kiss, Doomed Relationship, Bad Ending, Angst with No Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Your Choices Don't Matter, Kris Needs a Hug (Deltarune), Ralsei Needs a Hug (Deltarune), Susie Needs a Hug (Deltarune), Everyone Needs A Hug, Ralsei is a Secret Third Thing (Deltarune), AO3 Workskin, CSS Elements, The Word Count Isn't Lying To You, Don't Worry About It, Written Pre-Deltarune Chapter Five Series: Part 18 of Meditations on a Fluffy Prince Summary:

Noun - "a person or thing that is made to bear blame for others."

In the shadow of a Dark Fountain, Kris and Ralsei have a conversation. Elsewhere, Susie does something of potential significance. And the future roars ever onward anyway.

A what-if fic for how Chapter 5 might end.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Deltarune (Video Game) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kris & Ralsei (Deltarune), Deltarune Player & Kris, Deltarune Player & Ralsei Characters: Kris (Deltarune), Ralsei (Deltarune), Kris' Red Soul (Deltarune), Deltarune Player Additional Tags: Nonfiction, Essays, Written Pre-Deltarune Chapter Five, Character Analysis, Speculation, Ralsei is the Knower, Ralsei is Kris's Red Horn Headband (Deltarune), studying their interactions under a microscope, I have given this topic a LOT of thought, We don't talk about them enough and that needs to change Series: Part 1 of Deltarune Essays Summary:

Kris and Ralsei are two of the three main characters in Deltarune, and if you judge their relationship across the first four chapters by their mandatory on-screen interactions, you would consider it to be awkward, one-sided and forced.

But what if that's just what they want you to see, and not what's actually going on? What do they talk about when we go and see how Susie is doing? And do they know more about what's going on with each other than they let on?

I appreciate the sentiment, anon. But please don't joke about this - when I say I am going, I mean it. I would ask that you respect my decision.

I suppose I can use this as an opportunity to clarify some additional things - please do not ask me why I'm leaving, or offer up speculations on the topic. My reasons are entirely my own and I'm entitled not to share them with you. Further asks will not be answered after this one, so please save yourself the time and effort.

I wish you and everyone else no ill will, and that you continue to enjoy yourselves and thrive within this community.

It'd be a hell of a lot easier, and hurt a hell of a lot less, than constantly striving to get better and failing. Plus which, no-one would have to listen to me go on about it anymore. Honestly I don't even know why anyone even bothers to give me the time of day, when all I seem to do is post pretentious nonsense, whinge about feeling sad and then disappear for weeks at a time, only to show up unannounced to do it all over again. God knows I'm sick to death of this spiel after two months of it.

The way he'd discover this? Arguing with Susie and Kris at the exit to Castle Town when they tell him they're going to bring him to the Festival, until he goes "FINE! I'll step out there and SHOW you what happens, shall I?" and then he does and he's like... completely fine. And Susle laughs so hard she starts crying, but what you don't know is she's actually very happy they can actually spend time together in the light world (Kris doesn't emote but they're also very happy for him).