I had an idea... And @chimckenns said do it, so I shall... of Milo Father's Day solstice angst
Ask ye shall receive
The solstice alone made everything feel off, but the fact it landed on Father's Day felt like a cruel joke.
The minute Milo woke up, everything hurt. Every single thing. He didn't even want to move. It took all effort to turn over to bury against Sweetheart's neck, sighing out a long groan.
His eyes refused to stay open, but he could catch glimpses of his mate's visibility fading in and out. The joys of both being Moonbound… at least the two of them could be miserable together.
"We're gonna have to get up eventually," He heard his mate mumble, he huffed a breath in response.
"I don't see how it's necessary," he propped his head on their shoulder, "no one says we have to."
"As much as I'd love to stay in bed," they started getting up but he held on as tight as his body would allow, "we'll both feel better if we get up."
He hated it, he hated how it had some truth to it. When he got the nerve to move, his body screamed at him to quit it and lay down again. Not listening to it, he got to the edge of the bed, dragging his palms down his face.
"You'd think," he let his head droop to the side so he could look over and watch his mate get up, "with how many years that dumbass department has been in business, they'd have at least something to make this shit any easier."
Sweetheart rounded the bed to take his hands to pull him up, "That would mean they'd have to put in effort," they responded with a gentle tug of his hands so he was actually standing.
Yeah… wasn't wrong.
The two of them didn't really bother getting dressed, neither of them felt up to it. And trying to make breakfast… there was a reason for frozen meals to heat up.
Right inside the kitchen, Milo looked over to see the calendar. The words "First Day of Summer" right under "Father's Day." All he could do was glare at the damn thing.
"You okay?"
He heard the voice before he even saw their face. Right... Their magic basically made them a "ghost" of sorts, fading in and out of view.
He shrugged as he sighed, "Yeah… for the most part."
They hugged around his waist from behind, their chin propped against his shoulder, "Do… you want me to make something?"
They couldn't be feeling much better than him, he wasn't about to make them do a damn thing, "Nah… don't bother, could just get something delivered. I'm sure some places deliver this early… right?" He knew of a couple of places around Dahlia that were run by empowered people… pretty sure he heard how the places would have Sunbound people run the shifts on the solstice to lighten the load and help out.
"That part I can handle," they pressed a kiss to his cheek, "you can go lay down again."
"I can get it, sweetheart, you don't-"
He was promptly silenced with a kiss on the neck this time. And as awful as he felt, that seemed to make him forget that it was the solstice. He took that as a "Shut the fuck up and do as your told" in their own little way.
Lucky for them, he ended up wanting to flop face down onto the couch. One arm off the couch, dangling to the floor, a leg partially off. He looked — and felt — like a ragdoll that got tossed to the side.
He could hear his mate tending to Aggro, the cat being the only one bright eyed and bushy tailed. Aggro was so used to one of his cat parents being able to cloak so the cat hardly even reacted to not being able to see them while they gave him his breakfast.
Milo's head felt fuzzy, everything felt like he had a bad stomach bug, and all he wanted to do was sleep the day away. Maybe laying face down would suffocate him to make him pass out… maybe he shouldn't do that.
He lifted his head hearing them coming back into the room, adjusting enough so they could lay down with him.
"Got us something, should be about twenty minutes," they told him, getting comfortable as he held around their waist.
He only hummed a low sound in response, the effort so speak completely gone at the moment. He's dealt with Sunbound solstices all his life but they never get any easier. Every year, a full day of feeling like death warmed over.
"Out of all the days for this to land on," his words muffled against his mate's shoulder, he spoke up after a while, "it just had to be this one…"
They started to sit up, making him pout and hold onto them tighter, mumbling halfhearted complaints. "I'm sitting up so you can lay on me instead, calm down, you big puppy."
"Not a damn puppy," he huffed, still letting them move him so he was face down on their chest instead. This… was so much better, honestly.
"If you say so," they mused, lightly scratching their nails over his back, "do you wanna talk about it though?"
"…'bout what?" His brain wasn't exactly working on all cylinders.
"About today."
"Oh." Took him a second, but he connected the dots, shrugging with a sigh. "It's just… I dunno. The whole thing of Father's Day just… pisses me off. 'Cause some do not deserve to be celebrated or whatever…"
His mate didn't say anything, only lightly scratched over his back as he vented everything out.
"I've always been a little… jealous? Envious…? I don't know what the word is, but seeing both David and Ash have such good relationships with their dads just… stung- I know I shouldn't feel like that, but the thought always lingered, y'know? Like…" He sighed, "How'd I get such bad luck in that sense, I guess… it never felt fair. Seeing the two of them hanging out with their dads, laughin', all that shit, and I just had to be there while mine just…"
He rolled his eyes, hugging around his mate's waist to hide against them. "I know it's stupid. I know it is. They got the luck of having a couple of good dads meanwhile mine was the shitty one that decided gambling was the way to go in life. Ma was always on his fucking case, trying to convince him in some way to stop but he'd figure out ways to go behind her back. Thinking he could hide the fact that the rent couldn't be paid was such- like how could anyone not see that?? And I know, I know, addictions and all that- but there's gotta be line between that and just… just fuckin'…" He couldn't fight what he was even saying. "I dunno…"
"I can understand it," he looked up when they said something, "it's… human to see and feel that. There's nothing wrong with feeling that way, but… not doing anything to help that feeling dissipate is the problem. There's going to be people that have it and better relationships with their dads, but don't hold that against them. Especially with ones that you're so close to. David and Ash had better relationships with their fathers, yeah, and I know that yours…" Milo could hear the cringe in their voice as they trailed off for a moment, "but… they're still your friends. Keep remembering that part. That despite that feeling, at the end of the day, they'll still be there for you. And I know you'll always be there for them in the same way."
He lifted his head, looking up at him, then huffed a lazy laugh, "Sometimes I hate when you're right, y'know that?"
"Oh I know."
"Smartass…"
He got a light smack to his shoulder for that one, "Get up real quick."
"Whyyyyy…"
"Because I got something delivered and it got here, quit your whining or I'll call you a puppy again."
Being the grown ass man that he is, he stuck his tongue out at them, but sat up anyway. Though after doing so, he laid on his side the second they got up.
He was nearly dozed off, a kiss getting him to force himself to blink and open his eyes. "Up."
"What if I don't wanna."
"Be a good boy," oh they're testing their luck, "and get up."
"…Fine, but not because of what you said."
"You're still a good boy anyway."
"Damn straight."















