Mumma B-A🌷

Last Thursday I had my 20 week scan. Eggbert is all healthy and growing well.

I’m currently waiting on my Physiotherapy appointment for my back and hips. I had hip dysplasia when I was born so my hips are quite sore a lot of the time.

I feel like the hospital consulatant brushed me off his case load when I went for my 20 week scan. They are meant to check in on my mental health and how my hips are doing, yet he just said he was signing me off as I had a physio appointment booked and ready.

I don’t know, kinda annoyed me.

Does anyone else feel it’s weird and unacceptable that as soon as you have a baby in your belly or you begin to have a bump, that anyone and everyone thinks it’s okay to come and stroke or touch your stomach?!

I had this conversation with my therapist yesterday. As someone who is completely and utterly conscious about her belly and how it looks, I find it completely out of my control and uncomfortable when someone comes to touch or stroke my belly.

I have decided that as my stomach is the biggest area i’m uncomfortable with and I hate it, I have laid down some rules for those around me in my pregnancy.

It’s not that:

1) I don’t want you having anything to do with my baby bump

OR

2) I’m being difficult and simply just hate people...

but I feel that my body needs to be given some respect, along with my thoughts and feelings about my body.

I HATE my stomach, so when Albert’s family or anyone comes to stroke my stomach, I find it overwhelming and it feeds into my anxiety about my belly.

I have asked that all they do is ask before they stroke or wait to be invited to touch. I don’t think it’s too much to ask, especially as I have a valid reason why and I’m not just doing it to be difficult.

If they ask, I have the option to say “Not today, I feel self conscious”. If I invite them to, then it is also within my control as I have stepped forward and said it’s ok.

I don’t know🤷🏻‍♀️ is it just me being over sensitive or conscious. Either way, this is what I think will make me the happiest and most comfortable in that situation. I wouldn’t want them feeling left out, especially when Eggbert kicks. But I need to feel comfortable in myself, put myself first and do what’s right for me!

- thank you @mama-and-squish for tagging me :)

Relationship status: Engaged

Favourite Colour: Grey or Deep Red

Lipstick or chapstick: Chapstick 100%!!

Three favourite foods: Curry, roast dinner & crisp sandwiches 😂

Last song I listened to: Body Say - Demi Lovato

Last movie I watched: The Autopsy of Jane Doe

Top 3 Shows: Riverdale, The Mentalist & Silent Witness

Three Favourite bands: Panic! At The Disco, Queen & Years & Years

Books I’m reading: none, but I’m reading a lot of paperwork at the moment to sort my car insurance out😂🙄

I tag!!: @newmummyadventures , @mumof2divas , @myown-masterpiece , @mylittleyumyumstolemyheart , @adventureswithartie , @mamaslittlewolfpack , @hopingformyrainbow , @itsoliviahw , @momsgonnawingit , @honeyfrecklesandcurls

So, I forgot to update you all but we know what Eggbert is!! We have told close friends and family but we have decided to keep it secret til Eggbert is born. 

It’s been a while since I posted. Mainly because I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with life in general and most evenings i’m feeling incredibly deflated.

Update 1: the thrush seems to have cleared up, fingers crossed 🤞🏼 just keeping extra clean in the downstairs department!

Update 2: I am struggling more physically at the moment, think i’ll do a post on that soon, but knowing me i’ll forget.

Update 3: Forgetting things reminds me to add that I have terrible baby brain at the moment. I told my mum I had fed the rabbit and then two minutes later, told her again. So it really is awful lol.

I think that’s about it for now. Work is pretty full on and I think I’ve got a cold coming so that’s always fun. For now I am going to hang my washing up and then go to sleep ready for the day ahead tomorrow.

As I updated, I had/have Thrush. I was given a three night course of pessaires (tablets you insert vaginally) and told that my symptoms should clear.

I noticed a decrease in my discharge. However I’m currently 2/3 days after finishing my tablet course and I still have discharge and the horrible smell lingering around🤢. It’s making me more concious, especially after I have had treatment for it.

I know that it must only be thrush, because I had a vaginal swab done, so if there was anything else going on... it would have surely been picked up in the results. However, i’m just struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I thought regarding my previous post I would share some knowledge of Strep B. I am no expert and I really don’t know much. But for those of you who have never heard of it or don’t know much about it, this might help.

(All facts are UK based)

•Strep B is a common bacteria found around the vagina and bottom area. It is a perfectly unharmful bacteria that naturally forms. It is usually passed from your bottom to your vagina, however this isn’t always the case.

•It is NO HARM to YOU or YOUR BABY while you’re pregnant.

• The ONLY HARM for YOUR BABY is when you are IN LABOUR. This is because when you vaginally deliver, your baby can catch Strep B. This can make your baby very unwell (I don’t know exactly what it does to your baby).

• They prescribe antibiotics through an IV drip while you are in labour. These are given every 4 hours.

•You and your baby are monitored throughout the process. Your baby will then be monitored once born. This is incase your baby shows any symptoms. They particularly look for problems with feeding.

•It should not cause ANY discomfort.

• It is NOT routinely screened for. If you have thrush, you are likely to be tested for it for free. However, if you want the test done by the NHS it can cost up to £45.

•Your midwife should add this information to your notes. My notes have a bright yellow sticker on the front alerting anyone who sees my notes that I have Strep B.

- Hope this helps some of you out there. I know I felt very clueless and the internet didn’t actually help me with finding information!

For about a month I have had yellowy/white discharge. As the weeks progressed, it got worse. It wasn’t thick nor thin discharge either. No itchyness or soreness what-so-ever. However as the discharge progressed, a certain unpleasant smell began to appear with it. Not your usual vagina “fishy” smell. Just a not pleasant smell.

It made me feel disgusting, but I just thought it was a normal part of pregnancy. I googled everything, always adding ‘while pregnant’ or ‘in pregnancy’ to my searches to see if I had a pregnancy related infection. Nothing came up, it didn’t appear to be thrush as the only symptom I had that matched those of thrush was ‘discharge’.

I went to the doctors last Tuesday, explained my symptoms to which the nurse requested I have a swab done to test what was going on. A ‘low vaginal swab’ took place and I just had to sit and wait for the results. Along came Friday and I had a phone call from the nurse. She informed me she had the results.

My results were that I had a bacterial infection called Group B Strep (Strep B). It worried me because as soon as she had told me, she said she was informing the GP and midwife and they can talk to me about birth and what needs to be done, ect.

Group B Strep can be dangerous to the baby once the baby is born. The treatment is IV anti-biotics on a drip while you’re in labour, every 4 hours to stop the baby catching the infection. All I knew was that this was the only treatment and that I would have to continue feeling digusting throughout my pregnancy till I gave birth.

Monday morning I had my 16 week midwife appointment. I informed her of the Strep B and she checked the results. This is where I then found out that I also apparently have Thrush. I was not told about this and left feeling disgusting, worried and clueless as to what to do. My midwife advised me to book an appointment with the GP to get some pessiaries for the treatment of the Thrush and that should sort all the discharge and smell problems out.

I was angered that the nurse hadn’t told me and that I was left feeling clueless. I could have been calmer and more relaxed knowing there was a quick treatment for my discharge problem.

I am now on my third night of my three night course of pessary treatment. Noticing a considerable discharge decrease and feeling fresher!

I have had an interesting week. As one chapter of my life regarding family members I don’t want in my life closes, a new chapter opens. That new chapter starts tomorrow. When I find out if i’m having a little girl or little boy! I’m so excited to see my baby again and find out what i’m having. I’m so excited to get on with the new chapter of my life and let the old chapter remain closed and in the past.

I feel closure and it feels good. I’m so excited for the years to come. Things have finally all fallen in to place and I couldn’t be happier.

I will do a more updated post tomorrow as I have kinda neglected you since my day off.

Today was my day off so I had a slow start to the day, getting ready and then just popping fresh PJs on. I had a scroll through Netflix and found a horror film to watch whilst I chilled in bed. I have wanted to have a nap time however I am back to work again tomorrow so I want to make sure i’m fully tired for bedtime. Lol I sound like i’m 10. But I do like to be in bed by half 8 or 9.

Albert has been busy working today. Kinda sad I didn’t get to cuddle him and watch the film together but I’m also very proud of how hard he’s been working lately. I know his motivation is Eggbert, which is super sweet.

This Sunday we are hopefully finding out the gender of our little bubba. I’m honestly so scared. I really want a little boy, so i’m so nervous that if i’m having a little girl, I won’t be happy. In reality, I know i’ll love a girl just as much as a boy. We were thinking of doing a gender reveal photo/post thing but i’m not too sure now.