along the highway, where unlucky stray dogs bleed

they did not move the official campsite even after the irrigation fiasco so tonight we (the crew) are sleeping illegally in a park on the other side of town. except we have to sleep on the concrete not the grass because surprise, the park also has fucking sprinklers.

this is maybe the worst fire camp ever set up. they made us sleep in an active agricultural field last night and we got woke up an hour early because the irrigation system was on and moving fast enough that it was about to soak us and or run us over. it's been 2 days and the chow trailer's still not set up. no confirmed source of clean water. there's one pallet of bottled water 30 minutes away. what the fuck man

now that I have sort of aged out of being a twink I think the twink industrial complex is incredibly sinister. like Im sure Im not saying anything new or groundbreaking here but the number of old men who were very up front in telling me that they were attracted to me specifically because I was young and small and didnt have much body hair and because I looked even younger than I was. fucked up

"well, we got called fags, but [the captain] says we can play volleyball today, boys!" -- squad boss this morning

yesterday I ran for an hour and a half and came back home sunburned and immediately cracked a miller lite and got early afternoon drunk. couple of the bunkhouse boyz got rowdy later in the night and took some shrooms and molly at the firepit but I didn't feel like it, so I didn't. made salmon and mashed potatoes for dinner and read my book on the couch while guys occasionally traipsed into the living room and told me they loved me and grabbed a beer and went back outside. today woke up early and did laundry and drank my coffee and read for five hours and then cleaned the bathroom and walked up to the compound's gym and rode the bike for an hour and did my vanity exercises (shoulders arms and abs, baby). pasta and beer for dinner

I think during their situationship era ilya texts shane a video of him in the gym doing hip thrusts with shane's bodyweight, no caption. shane ignores it for 3 days and then sends back a video of him doing hip thrusts but lifting 50 lbs more than ilya was. ilya's like what, it took you 3 days to do better than me? shane says no asshole, I only have hip thrusts programmed twice a week and I'm not going to fuck up my training split for you. ilya thinks this is adorable