Believe in yourself.

so yeah

and I stand by that

thanks for reading

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24.03 // I'm getting a bad grade in Being A Patient, which is very possible to achieve if your beloved flatmates just want you to take it slow to heal after wisdom tooth extraction surgery while you throw all caution in the wind and continue with business as usual ca. 24h after your surgery.... After being knocked out by a migraine as punishment for overdoing it I'm healing well though!

There have been. Developments. I'm not writing a paper this semester break after all because I mixed up some regulations. I also had to cancel last minute on an internship that could've been really cool. Unfortunately(?), having a stable job kind of gets higher priority than a 3 month unpaid internship, and I got offered just that yesterday. Yay! (Side benefit of it all: I can go on vacation with @ben-learns-smth and see @dutch-polyglot!!! Extremely needed after the stress of the past months!)

Next semester I'll take my two last classes, write two papers and then I'll be ready to write my masters thesis???? That means, this time next year I'll be finishing up my thesis and getting ready to graduate??? And then what??? Somehow it snuck up on me so fast....

But for now I still have a Korean class to attend, a pottery meet up to organize, uni classes to sign up for and unread messages to reply to!

to do this week:

get stitches pulled

conflict resolution meeting 1 & 2

korean class

laundry

clean litterboxes

pack

pick up package

mail internship :(

vacuum

reply to texts!!!

pottery quarterly clean

tidy room

I also happen to specialise in gambling addiction (although I'm not practicing in that area right now), and all I could fucking think about was how these fucking apps were conditioning me in the same fucking way gambling apps do. To be constantly plugged in, consuming. To not even think about just picking it up and having a look. To feel bored when I wasn't watching them, to think about watching them when I wasn't watching them....

That shit is fucking evil.

I deleted it. I'm not exposing myself to that.

That shit will fry your dopamine/reward system so fucking bad you will never read a book or watching a movie again without it.

Love yourself and your potential enough to put that fucking shit away. Watch longer form things that require focus and engagement. Listen to podcasts and audiobooks. Read books. DO ANYTHING BUT CONSUME SHORT FORM CONTENT IN AN UNSTRUCTURED WAY.

If you MUST consume it (I'm sure people will be like 'but my classmates' or 'but my own channel'.... etc), do it in a siloed and structured way. 30 minutes between x time and x time on x day. Focus on it. Don't eat and do it. Watch each short form video to completion. Engage critically with the content. ANd never watch them first thing in the morning or last thing at night.

Barely got anything done cuz the state of the world is making me want to jump out of a window. I went to the library at least. Goals for tomorrow:

• Finish the unit on sexual crimes.

• Finish the first two chapters of civil procedure law.

• Go to the gym.

• Finish reading my book so I can return it to the library.

Perhaps the most impactful of the horses featured in this collection of famous mustangs is a very pale wild stallion, Cloud. Born in 1995, Cloud was an ambassador for mustangs nationwide (even Congress agreed, declaring him so in 2011).

“Cloud is a pale palomino wild stallion who lived in the Pryor Mountains on the Montana/Wyoming border, a range the Crow Indians called the Arrowheads. Cloud was been documented from the day of his birth until his presumed death by Emmy-winning filmmaker & TCF’s Executive Director Ginger Kathrens. Her films about Cloud, “Cloud: Wild Stallions of the Rockies,” “Cloud’s Legacy: The Wild Stallion Returns,” and the latest film “Cloud: Challenge of the Stallions” aired on PBS’ Nature series and represent the only continuous documentation of a wild animal from birth in the Northern Hemisphere. Ginger’s chronicles of Cloud have been compared to Jane Goodall’s work with chimpanzees in Africa. She has also written three books about Cloud. Cloud disappeared in late 2016 and his body has never been found; appropriate for a legend.”

The pale, flashy mustang was the son of the elegant black stallion, Raven, and the bright palomino mare, Phoenix. Cloud represented a rare color in his Pryor home, which is why he was always released, despite being rounded up numerous times.

Ginger Katherines went on to found The Cloud Foundation, a Colorado 503c nonprofit, that advocates for wild horse populations in the West. (I met her at an event, once upon a time.)