W O R D S

For Mark, the man who captured my heart

I love looking through the window of your soul It's like I’m falling endlessly in a black hole I am robbed of my ability to avert your every gaze Unable to break free, I fall weak on my knees As I press my lips against yours, time vanished and ceased to exist Greedy, I dive deeper into the depths of you, slowly, I lose myself I can not deny that I am high on your love At times like this, I can never stop I rest in your embrace and quiver with your touch Feeling like I'm dreaming, my mind’s in a daze My worries and fears suddenly disappear All at peace for you are near This blissful feeling is what I need You’re my fix, my safe haven from the storm within

This one’s for you

Mark~

The more that I learn about the world, the deeper I dig my own grave.

I've met different kinds of people in my life, broken, lost, focused, carefree, satisfied, faithful, loyal, loving, caring, generous, careless, selfish, egotistical and greedy people, you name it. It's tiring, to see how twisted and dirty this world is. People lie, we all do. They have their own reasons, some seem to do it out of embarrassment but for the most part, it's bad intentions. Why would someone lie?

White lies, people do this to hide their shame because they fear rejection. If you think about it, it makes perfect sense because there's such thing as "cool" and "lame". In order to be accepted in this hypocritical and twisted society, one is encouraged or even forced to lie just to be accepted. Now isn't that sad? Why? Because it's true. Others lie out of spite or just purely to benefit something from their target, yes selifshness.

Truth, nobody wants it. One will barely accept it or listen becuase the truth hurts and it's a deep and dark hole to fall into and nobody wants that, we all want to live a happy and carefree life so what do we do? We lie and deny, we shrug it all off and continue on walking this invisible path. The few of us who accepts the truth, is either mentally ill or depressed, but that's what the society says, again denying the truth, denying us. Nobody wants the truth, once you speak it, everyone is suddenly againts you.

Rejection, people fear this because they don't want to be alone, but in reality, you actually change yourself just to be wanted, you LIE just to be accepted. No it's not real, most of your friends isn't. As soon as you talk about the truth, what do you hear from them? "Can we change the topic? This is getting really dark". Nobody wants to hear it. Even when you think you’re accepted, you're actually alone. If you choose to lie, you feel lonely because nobody gets you, nobody listens, nobody understands, everyone is either in denial or lying. Even if you choose to live an honest life, you're still alone. Why? Because nobody wants the truth. They're intimidated by your beaming sincerity and they all just want to crush you until you break and turn into one of them. Sad isn't it?

If you think about it, we are all just living in lies. We live our lives by ignoring the bad, but is that really the only solution or does that just delay it all? Their reason? To cope, thats how they cope in this bittersweet life. Is that all there is? We live to build lies in our heads and convince ourselves that everything's okay even when it clearly isn't. We do it just to make us feel better dont we? Now isn't that all just pretend? The world that we live and die in, is nothing but an illusion. Do you live in a lie too?

I stand here empty handed and dry I gave my all, but was denied I lift my hands and praise Your name For I know You feel my pain

Water me with Your unfailing love Help me get through this tonight I pray for strength to the heavens above May the warmth of Your light guide my path

Your promises for me I won't forget For I know all of them You've kept Even when worry takes control I will put my trust in You alone

My original song composition

It's not that I don't want you It's not that I don't need you But I know you're not for me

It's not that I don't notice It's not that I don't want this I just know I'll hurt your feelings

And maybe it's just time for me to go home But I'm sure someday you'll let it all go

And baby, all I know is you're, not doing this right I aint lying, oh I'm not joking but baby please just listen

It's not that you're annoying It's not that you're twisted But I know that you ain't ready

It's not cause you're complaining It's not cause you're clueless I just know that you're uncertain

My original song composition Requested by my beautiful sister

Love so tender, love so pure Love so sweet like cherry, I want some more

It's so simple, tell me I am yours Trap me in your love now, I need to know

This heart just can't, wait any longer They say oh hey, baby tell me what's your name?

As I walked out the door, I watched the rain falling from the sky I looked up at the gloomy clouds and whispered thanksgiving Standing on this porch made me ponder about the future ahead I wonder what’s next?

I felt the faint raindrops on my sweater It’s as if it’s watering me from the drought of my uncertainty Good was all I could think of, good that it noticed my presence That something I barely think of was subconsciously consoling me

In this gloomy day, I feel the cold raindrops bite my skin As it crawled through my shirt I'm reminded of your stone heart

My mind starts to wander as I walk along this path I can't forget the day you said you've had enough

I bathe under the wrath of the storm Your explanation, will I ever know?

Looking at my reflection at the nearby store I stare into my soul As if I'm looking at an unfamiliar creature

I tug the tips of my hair and trace my fingers over my arms I bury my face in my hands and mumble, "Why is it so hard?"

Frigid and lost in a haze, I walked a little more I hear splashes of water as I move my soaked feet

Am I the only one to blame? I ask myself while I go insane I wonder if I'll ever be okay?

The loud crack of thunder snaps me out of the pain I look upon the skies and saw the sun peeking through the clouds

I averted my gaze as the rays hit my eyes Then looked on the floor and cursed myself as I whisper.. "I wish you were here"

I bite my lip at the sound of your voice My body twitch as I ache for your call I start to tremble when I hear you say hello You're like a quick fix that I can't ignore

Is temptation the cause of this addiction? Or was it a long lost emotion buried by complication?

I feel your hands running against my skin Touching me, holding me, your hands wrapped around me Intoxicated by the kindness that you show I haven't felt alive for as long as I can remember

Lost and broken in a war that I'm losing You mend this heart that was badly forsaken

I never thought I'd be alright, having you here by my side You bring me peace when mind starts to fall How can I leave when you keep me stable? It won't be long till these feelings become a bother

I long for phone to ring once more Until tomorrow comes, I'll keep my composure

My original song composition

Take my hand Never let go I will take you to a place You’ve never been before

Close your eyes And drift away When you wake, you’ll never Want to go back home

Darling, let me help Forget about today

Lay your precious head on me I’m here to stay

As another day goes by, I cross this filthy Crumbling path that they call life As if the glimmering road waiting for me on the other side Is nothing but smoke and mirrors

I watch men and women fall to edges of this narrow path Dazed as they saw sparkling objects Floating above the bottomless pit of death Distracted, they ignore the danger And tried to snatch it off the ravine Thinking a mere item is enough To save them from their suffering I hear them screaming as they vanish down the black vortex I closed my eyes and ran as fast as I can to the other side I would stumble, trip and stop for I fear I wouldn't make it

I raised my head and saw walls giants would go through Before I could even knock, the doors swung wide open And I felt a sudden ease on my chest

My original song composition Khai, this one’s for you

Aura Kingdom [Aeria Games] contest entry

Chapter 1- The Trio

In the barren lands of Ollo, the divine bard Lucius secretly had a lover called Sharppony. Sharppony was one of the kindest, selfless and most generous in the land, but Lucius was greedy. He wanted more than love, he wanted to form an army to conquer Auroria. The continent just north of Nuia. He then made an army and called the people, Peace and Love. Sharppony was supportive of his decision but didn’t want anything to do with it. Sharppony felt it was unnatural to only have Peace and Love. She believed in balance.

Centuries passed, Peace and Love ruled and reigned the land. There was no trace of evil. But their leader, Djennai was charmed by the seductress Medusa who is in love with Lucius. Medusa was burning with hate and wanted Sharppony dead, but in order to do this, she needed to use Djennai to end the Peace and Love and frame Sharppony for its fall.

Eventually, Lucius noticed the drastic change in Peace and Love. Conflicts after conflict arouse, and darkness started to take over Nuia. The Nuian’s started to rebel against the Peace and Love. Shortly, people grew to hate everyone and Djennai was the reason behind it all. One day, Djennai was lurking around the village. He saw Sharppony acting a bit peculiar. He followed her and wondered what she was up to. To his surprise, he saw her helping out a group of pirates who previously humiliated him in front of the villagers.

Djennai grew mad, bolted away and reported to Medusa. Medusa then planned an evil scheme against Sharppony which could possibly cause the death of her and of Peace and Love. Learning this, Sharppony fled and joined the pirates she helped, only to be abandoned on Castaway Strait.

Facing her fate, Sharppony decided to sail to Auroria and took all the supplies she can carry. She sailed for 3 days and rested on Freedich island. It was the coldest night for Sharppony, she was left alone with her thoughts and questions. Suddenly, a ship crashed on the island. Startled, Sharppony rushed to the shore, and there appeared the Vampire Queen Marcelline along with her pet Chaika.

Oddly enough, Sharppony seemed to be quite smitten by Marcelline’s dark charms and beauty. Marcelline smiled at Sharppony and introduced herself. Ever since that day, the three were inseparable. Eventually Sharppony declared her love to Marcelline. Her love was returned, but Chaika wasn’t pleased, she’s secretly in love with Marcelline.

The trio then decided to set sail to Auroria. A few weeks passed, they finally arrived. “This place is beautiful”, said Sharppony. “Incredible”, uttered Chaika and Marcelline only let out a brief chuckle. They all fell in love with Auroria and started their new lives there.

Not long after, Chaika developed an obsession towards Sharppony and wanted to bear her child. Driven by confusion, jealousy, and obsession, Chaika planned to secretly take advantage of Sharppony while she sleeps. That same night, Chaika crawled on to Sharppony’s bed and gazed at her beauty. As she leaned to kiss her lips, Sharppony groaned; “Ma..Marcelline”. Tears rolled down Chaika’s cheek as she grips her aching chest. She pulled away, sat on the edge of the bed, clenched her fist and quietly wept.

Marcelline appeared shortly and snatched Chaika away; “What were you plotting my pet?”, “Mistress forgive me, I’ve betrayed you. I was driven by my obsession with Sharppony. But she belongs to you! I don’t deserve your forgiveness, I must be punished”, Chaika replied. Marcelline’s wrath unleashed as her eyes turned crimson red and tightly gripped Chaika’s neck. Marcelline shoved Chaika roughly on the wall and gently loosens her grip, she slowly leaned and whispered; “You belong to me as well my sweet”, Marcelline pulled back and looked at Chaika dead in the eye with a smirk on her face. In complete shock, Chaika grabbed the torch and swings it on Marcelline’s head. Marcelline fell on the floor unconscious.

Chaika burried her face in her hand as it turns red and mumbled; “S..sorry Mistress, b..but you caught me off…g..guard”. She slowly lifts her face and turned her teary eyes at Marcelline’s lifeless body. She wiped her tears then pulled and carried Marcelline’s body carefully to her bed, tended her bloody temple and ran her hands through her hair then down to her chin. “You’re always so rough, that’s why I adore you”, Chaika whispered and smiled. She looked at Marcelline with loving eyes and pressed her lips against hers.

The next day, Chaika was nowhere to be found and later conceived a child she especially loves, Metoshi.

Sitting atop this desolate hill I close my eyes and feel the cool chill of the wind on my skin I run my fingers through the grass and gaze upon the clouds Hoping this sweet serenity would last, But it won’t be long till they appear.

Lonesome in this cold night, Bitterness wraps me as I cry my heart out. Surrounded by the darkness of my unstable mind, I look around and try to pull myself up. “Friends” that never picked up my calls, Makes me clench my fist and break these walls. I throw myself in a bed that’s falling apart, Pulled the sheets and held it close to my heart.