Safe as life

hi once again thinking about jeremy 'i'm difficult to put up with & not worth the long term investment' knox being wooed and courted by jean 'love is a choice that i make every single day because no matter the pain we are both worth that love' moreau

"jean had a crush on kevin i guess" umm why are some of you minimising the fact that we canonically know that kevin day is not only jean's first love but also the only person jean was truly in love with. why are you ignoring the fact that he said he only loved once and he can't talk about it bc it's THAT big and painful. why are you ignoring that jean was going through literal hell because he was so in love with kevin that despite his training and trying to hide it everyone still knew just by the way he looked at him. why are you ignoring the fact that jean was ready to live for kevin as well as he was ready to die for him. why are you ignoring the fact that jean would rather kill kevin before letting him leave him. why are you ignoring the fact that jean was crushing on renee and jeremy but the moment kevin showed up in the room he would instantly forget everything as a reminder that he never stopped loving kevin. why are you ignoring the fact that jean hates kevin with such passion because he loves him with such passion. like holy shit did some of you even read the books or you're just afraid that despite other ships and who they end up with kevin will always haunt jean's narrative.

There's something so icky about Kevin Day being punished into passivity in the nest, only to continue to be punished for his passivity outside of the nest. Like, sometimes I can be normal and know and understand that, in reality, he hasn't lost Andrew and Jean but. Then there are other times. Maybe I'm just dramatic, but after a life in the nest where the partner system, alliances, and using people as lifelines meant everything, getting choked the fuck out over Neil would've sent me spiraling. Seeing up close and personal how much better Jean is doing in LA, and how deeply he and Jeremy do not play about each other, would've sent me careening off the deep end. It triggers the deep-seated fear that the 12-year-old girl I once was had, of being at the bottom of the friendship pyramid. I need to be let into his brain and every thought.

imagine you work at a luxury car dealership. two college kids show up in a shitty rental car one day. one is has facial tattoos and the haughty attitude of a famous person. the other is a dead-faced goth the size of an elf. tattoo boy says they’re here to buy so you humor them and show some cars. elf man doesn’t say a word the whole time but clearly is calling the shots. he points at a Maserati and says he’ll be paying for the whole thing, no financing necessary. then he goes back over to the rental car, where evidently there has been a whole person asleep in the backseat the entire time. this man is about the same height as the goth pixie and dressed like a homeless person. he listens to the goth say something, pulls out several wads of cash, hands them over and goes back to sleep. your boss spends the next hour walking these freaks through the paperwork while you count through what turns out to be nearly 100k in cold hard cash. no one explains a goddamn thing and they leave with the nicest car on the lot

Imo the coldest girl in coldtown is way better than the cruel prince, and it kills me that it doesn’t get the recognition it deserves