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Today this woman called our information desk and said, “my son’s band is playing tonight. I want to come see him, but he never answers his phone…..I want to be there. Have you heard anything about his band?”

And I felt so bad for this lady but I’m not in the music scene around here so I had to tell her no, sorry.

Five hours later, I’m hiking and run into a group of guys setting up for some outdoor performance, and as I watch them unload the drums it hits me.

“Hey,” I said, “are y’all in a band?”

They said yeah and smiled and I told them “one of your moms called today. She wants to watch you play, but she can’t get a hold of you. Call your mom.”

And they all pulled out their phones and started discussing whose mom it probably was as they presumably dialed their own.

And now, unless we meet again and recognize each other, that’s who I’ll be forever to those guys–some mysterious courier for mom-messages who came out of the woods and told them their mom called.

I didn’t even tell them why their mom called me. Who am I to their mom?? Nobody even asked. They just took my word for it and called their mothers.

yes, everyone is CAPABLE of growth and change. everyone has the RIGHT to growth and change. but no, not everyone will CHOOSE growth and change. some people are not interested in and cannot be made interested in self-improvement or self-reflection. some people will go their entire lives refusing to admit they might be wrong or examine their own behaviors. some people will never, ever accept responsibility for the effects they have on people and the world around them. humans are varied; some are just always gonna be like this.

it is VITAL to understand this if you’re the kind of person who tends to pour energy into helping others, especially if there are already people knowingly hurting you who consistently show absolutely no interest in changing that behavior. you can’t forcibly make them want to change who they are. you aren’t going to find a way to convince them to suddenly care that their behavior is hurting someone.

the motivation to change and grow comes from within. others may inspire us, but WE have to decide we want to be better and work towards that. until they decide that for themselves, nobody else can do it for them. and they might never. people are mortal. we are a finite series of choices. it is entirely possible to make mostly selfish ones.

Mushrooms that alter the DNA of other mushrooms they meet into becoming clones of the parasitic mushroom (they're delicious).

Mushrooms that will kill you by literally destroying your DNA similar to how radiation poisoning works. They look like several edible mushrooms and the flavor is apparently 'Not Bad', but eating even a flake of one will kill you slowly over the course of about 5 days. There is no cure.

Mushrooms that many people report will let you meet God and is extremely effective at treating depression and PTSD. Flavor passable.

Mushrooms that are so biologically similar to human flesh that people who have eaten them have sometimes developed allergies to thier own bodies. According to the few cannibals that have tried them, the flavor and texture is indistinguishable from human flesh as well.

Two identical-looking mushrooms. The european one is a delicious food staple, the American one is lethal within minutes of ingestion. I was put off eating mushrooms as a child after I lost a whole family of neighbors to a misidenitified hungarian stew.

destroying angel (amanita virosa)

magic mushrooms (numerous, compound name psilocybin)

can't find the cannibal cuisine mushroom (source?)

death cap (amanita phalloides) vs immature puffball (calvatia gigantea)?

Apparently, some people can develop long-term, horrific autoimmune problems after becoming allergic to regular culinary mushrooms, particularly shitake and maitake mushrooms, which then accelerates to an allergy to themselves, because apparently MANY types of mushrooms are so chemically similar to human flesh that your own immune system can confuse the two.

As for the cannibal-tested mushroom meat- a vegan food company recently made a splash with Mushroom-based (again, mostly shitake and maitake) vegan burger patties that, according to the people who have tasted both the burger and human flesh (Mostly survivors of stranding accidents), that the two are idenitcal. According to non-cannibal tasters, the burger is quite tasty and with a bit of an intriguing tang.

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M. A. Thompson - I Won’t Write My Poem ‘Till I’m In My Right Mind X

Mary Oliver X

Richard Siken - road music

George Sand (Amantine Lucile Aurore Dupin) in her letter to Gustave Flaubert X

Ada Limón - The Carrying X

Nikki Giovanni - Mirrors X

a sweet fairy tale Mouse for Kona Goodhart! she has a few forms at different levels of anthro so i decided to do a few sketches where she’s a little more Peter Rabbit and one where she’s a little more kemono.

UH WHAT

This might have been the bit that hit me hardest, actually:

it would be easy to misinterpret the following scenario as a standoff between two partners: Imagine that your partner asks you to pay the electric bill, and you say to yourself, “OK, I have time to do that today.” But when you sit down to do it, you keep getting distracted. The ADHD brain needs higher stimulation in order to complete this rote task with minimal payoff. Your ADHD brain says, “That task is way too boring, and I refuse to focus on it. Find something that interests me more, which offers me a bigger dopamine reward, and I’ll work with you.” It doesn’t matter that you know you should pay the bill as promised; if your brain won’t engage, it’s an ugly standoff. Perhaps, after a day of procrastination — when your partner will be home in 20 minutes and the bill is still unpaid — there may be enough of an adrenaline rush from a sense of crisis that your brain will engage and you pay the bill.

The ADHD brain and its owner are at odds with one another. It’s difficult to compel a disengaged brain to engage by force of will. In fact, much of the treatment for ADHD involves learning to psych out the brain, so that it will attend to necessary, low-stimulation tasks.

Appreciating the tug-of-war within that pits intellect against neurobiology increases compassion and acceptance for one’s hidden struggle.

I feel SEEN. OTZ

I do too. But it lives its whole life. So you have to take it seriously eventually, right? And be respectful and shit.