I loved her so much it hurt. I loved her so much there are not enough words to describe it. Me and her, first met as star dust. Our souls formed next to one another many moons ago. It was only when I was 13, we finally met. On a website called vampire freaks, it was so random, or it really wasn’t. Unfortunately she lived in Tennessee and I in Arizona. Fate is funny like that I suppose, money hindered my ability to visit. Then when I did have it, covid took that away from us. I was not going to risk her health, I couldn’t. She had been through so much, I’d never forgive myself if I got her sick. She returned to the stars at 6:15 in the morning(Tennessee time). I knew as I opened my eyes an immense emptiness filled my chest. Bloomed like a blood stain on a white shirt, it was suffocating and heavy. She was my other half, my heart and soul. When I last spoke to her she reminded me that she loved me and I should never forget that. Of course I never will, she is the love that runs through my veins. She was passionate about all humans rights. A disability activist, cat lover, funny as hell, a backstreet boy lover like me. She made me a better person and helped shape the lenses I saw the world in. We grew up together, states away, but that never changed anything. AIM was where it was at, MySpace, msn messenger, to phone calls, to Facebook. We could have 3 different conversations going on. Our type of humor was tailored just for us. She understood me like no one else did. I’m going to be so lost without her, who will I tell my secrets to, who will enable my stupidly. As it goes “just two delusional besties saying exactly.” I love you, Kelly. I would have joined you in death, but I don’t think you would have wanted that. If only I could message you about you dying, and ask how do I navigate this. It’s silly, honestly, but you were the only one I wanted to go to for everything.
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