did i do something? is it my fault? can i fix it? please can you let me fix it?

when does it go away? when does it finally change? what can i do?

you ever get hit with this wave of sadness that doesn't seem to have a cause but you can't get rid of? yeah, me either.

i can't shake the feeling that i'm not supposed to be okay

i feel so stuck. everyone else is living their life and i'm frozen, watching it all happen.

feel like i need to radically change my life

i’m realized that i’m not living, i’m just surviving. 

why is it so hard to get out of bed?

i want to feel peaceful. i want to be calm and unburdened. why can’t i get rid of this weight on my chest?

i’m so discouraged. i thought things would have changed by now. but i’m stuck. and it feels like i’ll be stuck forever.

i thought i would be better by now.

I want a person to love and a place to call home with them but it seems as though im invisible and everyone walks through me. I yearn for my person to finally see me and hold out their hand to take me home but is it what i deserve?

I am only living for the convenience of others.

I always knew I never had a chance, but I'm still feeling the jealously.

If only I could be what you deserve.