Yes Its Scary But You Are Brave

When people point out that all of Shane’s fears come true in TLG, they don’t mention how his fear of losing Ilya also almost comes true. There is a reason why he doesn’t let Ilya drive his sports cars or let him smoke anymore in TLG. Literally one of Shane’s biggest fears is losing Ilya (be it Ilya breaking up with him or Ilya dying). The fact that Shane almost loses Ilya in a fucking plane crash is so important, because it changes Shane’s perspective on their plan entirely and he realises that staying in the closet isn’t sustainable anymore. This is why he immediately proposes to Ilya after.

i think shane does the absolute most romantic things ever but by complete accident because he just does them cause his little lovesick autistic brain is like yeah i love this person why would i not do this for them. like he always has a spare roll of hockey stick tape in the brand that ilya likes the most in his hockey bag even tho it’s not the same brand shane himself likes. and shane has ilya’s playlist downloaded on his own spotify so that when they’re in the car he can play ilya’s music for him specifically when they’re driving to the rink he knows to play ilya’s pump up songs which he puts on queue in the exact order ilya likes. when they’re on planes together he always makes sure to book the middle seat and make sure ilya has the window because he knows how much ilya loves looking at all the beautiful scenery and also on planes he has a spare set of airpods because he knows ilya forgets to charge his own half the time but he makes sure he bought the airpods with the rubber tips because ilya mentioned once that the other ones hurt his ears. shane tries to make ilya’s life just that little more comfortable and easy. shane loves ilya so fucking much.