Lightly Seared on the Reality Grill

staying silly is all i got left like i got no money no prospects i’m a burden to my parents and i’m frightened

hey, tag this with a food people get really upset about you not liking

Free service with no ads: Okay so these guys are stealing my data

They're all stealing your data.

May all of you find jobs and careers to support yourselves, your families, your pets, and may you never spend a single night dreading going to work the next day. May your jobs be fulfilling, safe, rewarding, prosperous, and healthy for you and your goals.

sorry for the mixed signals I don’t know what I want or what I’m doing mostly

let’s talk about how they made it impossible to function without a phone and digitalised everything and then turned around and went “actually! these phone things aren’t safe for kids but it’s magically ok once you’re eighteen. guess you’ll have to have your life dictated by your parents now lol cause we’re gonna take the devices away from you. IT’S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD WHY ARE YOU COMPLAINING”

ok my apologies. take away my ability to buy anything too ig because these fuckass stores don’t accept cash anymore. take away my ability to communicate with people outside my house and school because I can’t text and I can’t email and I cant drive to them either and I can’t even fucking get public transport without a phone either. can’t order at a fucking restaurant without being asked to get a membership and install an app and also very sorry but you can only order through our online menu now! have you ever considered that it’s not just about instagram?

Like, the blunt fact of the matter is that even if the system is blatantly and transparently fucking evil, if I need to find a job and a LinkedIn account would help with that, I legitimately might just need to submit to it. The threat of unemployment might force me to have to relinquish what tiny slivers of privacy I still have left. I'm definitely not doing it yet, but at a certain point I may not have a choice. How fucked is it that they have the power to coerse you into compliance like that? And all for the sake of an evil corporation. Everything is just evil dogshit now, and the ineffectual protest of someone like me doesn't actually achieve anything. Nobody else seems to actually have the power to challange this at all, the vast majority of people seem to accept it and even support it, they don't care. We appear to be in the minority here...

@isuggestrevolution @isuggesteatingtherich

my suggestion could stop it

in the contemporary world, the most fundamental human right - and, it often seems, the least protected one - is "being both Allowed and Able to go Somewhere Else." the rest is commentary.

the torments of prison are predicated on Not Letting You Leave. the most terrifying and degrading aspects of childhood are predicated on Not Letting You Leave. misogynists wail and moan and fearmonger about divorce and equal opportunity employment because they Allow Wife To Leave. borders and immigration restrictions exist, in no small part, to Prevent People From Leaving countries where they will be exploited and/or oppressed. fuck you for trying to leave. fuck you for exerting any control over your life whatsoever. that makes you the one at fault, actually.

david graeber described three fundamental freedoms: freedom to move, freedom to disobey orders, and freedom to reorganize social relations

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.