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i remember you well in the chelsea hotel
you were talkin' so brave and so sweet
givin’ me head on the unmade bed
while the limousines wait in the street
those were the reason an' that was new york
we were runnin' for the money and the flesh
an' that was called love for the workers in song
probably still is for those of them left
ah, but you got away, didn’t you babe
you just turned your back on the crowd
you got away, i never once heard you say
i need you, i don’t need you
i need you, i don’t need you
and all of that jiving around
i remember you well in chelsea hotel
you were famous, your heart was a legend
you told me again you preferred handsome men
but for me you would make an exception
an' clenching your fist for the ones like us
who are oppressed by the figures of beauty
you fixed yourself, you said, "well, never mind
we are ugly but we have the music"
and then you got away, didn't you baby
you just turned your back on the crowd
you got away, i never once heard you say
i need you, i don't need you
i need you, i don't need you
and all of that jiving around
i don't mean to suggest that i loved you the best
i can't keep track of each fallen robin
i remember you well in chelsea hotel
that's all, I don't even think of you that often
i will make myself accept reality even if it feels heavy and painful.
i am not the problem, but the lesson lies front of me.
no matter how scary i fear the next page might be, or to realize everything up until this moment was a season.
i will be okay.
don’t illustrate your past as deceit,
or you’ll scribble your future.
remember the experience as what became of you.
life once heavy, became a feather.
i fear the futures weight knowing i must internalize this feeling.
standing alone where i once dreamt your presence alongside mine.
i will not paint you red when all i felt was blue.
i will not complicate my mind of what could have.
only the present exists.
the past is no more.
the future is not now.
and neither are we.
so i’ll leave my bags at the station.
and catch my ride home.
12/21/2025 6:40 PM
the teenage years i was promised…..
Love, love, love THIS!!
heal from you. 11/11/2025
let them go, she says. "allow people to move on from you, stop disrupting people's peace, happiness and healing, let them go. let it end, allow people to heal from YOU."
heal from you.
maybe they do need to. their names drift through conversations like smoke, lingering where they no longer belong. i condemn them in one breath, then praise the euphoria they gave me in the next. my private life becomes public theater—online, with friends, replayed endlessly. i torment myself over men i never truly loved, mistaking obsession for connection. my mind adores the role of the victim, blind to the truth that no one owes me anything.
i lose myself in ego. ego of how could i let you play me so ruthlessly. i thought we were building something sacred, not speeding toward an ending. i was your getaway car, reckless and temporary. did it thrill you, racing down the highway with me beside you, listening to her songs?
and here i go again. analyzing his mind, dissecting his games, trying to solve what was never mine to understand. that’s my poison—curiosity disguised as healing. the need to comprehend the plague that is the male psyche: lust bound to judgment, tenderness that always fades into avoidance. they get to know you, make love to you, laugh and play with your hair while your bodies chase warmth—and then comes clarity.
they avoid who i am as much as i avoid revealing it. an online spectacle: men pay to watch me undress; women watch to feel less alone in their chaos. even in describing myself, i reek of insecurity. you never said it was because of this, but i felt it. you never said you missed your ex, but i felt it. you never said you were comparing us, but i felt it. i drown in my feelings, projecting them onto you. even if i’m right—why does it matter?
but you need to girl, or you'll be hurt again. i always am. i was when i lost my virginity. i was when my father left. i was every time a man only wanted my body, even when i pretended that’s all i wanted too. why wasn't i enough? was i ugly? did you hate my nose the way the voices in my head do, the ones that whisper only when i feel imperfect?
i am weak-minded. any tremor and i collapse. my foundation, what i thought was healed, was only fragmented stone. so i confront my demons—sit beside them and listen to their mourning. i look into their faces and see the version of myself i despise: the one who mistakes chaos for love, pain for depth, confidence for armor.
i am mother nature addicted to hurricanes. i birth my own chaos just to feel alive within it.
see through the storm. when you feel yourself unraveling, return here. let this be the calm you built, the proof that you survived. breathe. steady the tide before it turns against you.
root yourself in what has ended and remember: the future is yours to define. do not overthink your worth, or how men measure it—it was never theirs to decide. hear the noise, face it, and laugh at its false importance—its hunger to consume you before you ever learn how to love yourself fully.
heal from you.

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affection is deflection
09/07/2025 2:20 P.M.
I've accepted I'm not made for love as the person I am, and If I were to ever be loved it would be solely for my genitalia. But doesn't that show how pathetic the concept of love is. Its existence requires you to be normal, not too much, not too little, and if you fit into those categories you probably have a fake and desire-less love. I need to shut up more, I need to not make money off being sexual as it's unfair to myself and my partner although I could shower us both in the luxury life. I'm a whore. A pornstar. A girl who projects her insecurities into hatred for the opposite sex, deceiving it as humor, only to be ridiculed. Im tired of thinking people add meaning to my life. Everybody leaves, even the person I am today writing this. Im not easy to love nor worthy. If you're reading this and thinking to yourself god this bitch is annoying and deserves to feel the hatred she has for herself, I agree. I've probably affected or insulted your existence with the childish things I say online or my own inability to be "optimistic" in a world that proves once again and AGAIN I have to change to "be loved". Maybe I overestimate the message in what it means to love, thinking I need to change my entire personality, rather than my lack of confidence. I decided Iast night I will no longer follow the persuasion of my mind in finding something to connect deeper with. It's either my work or suicide. Suicide in losing everything for the comfort of a man, or to realize all I will ever have in this life is me. Stina Foxx. Whorella. Hungdoll. The trans eslut who is every perverted mans fantasy. I go on tinder and i'm sexualized, unmatched or too bored and distrusting for the few men who try to manipulate me into wanting more. Nobody wants more with me. Im undeserving. Im a whore. Im a crash out. Im an opportunist at the expense of yours and I's privacy. Don't want me. I don't even want myself. Leave me alone. All I'm good as is alone. Please don't make me believe I'm worthy of more, I need to sell my soul to ever find peace within my presence and leave it behind floating through whatever my life leaves me after this chapter. LOVE ISNT REAL STOP LYING TO ME I DONT EVEN LOVE MYSELF FUCK U I HATE U LEAVE ME ALONE OR ILL MAKE U HATE ME. I block everyone eventually.
what i lost with K
the damage is done, and i’ve accepted defeat over whether or not it’s my fault we’re over. i revealed your past only to make myself vulnerable, still questioning if we were ever meant to be. i felt shame after posting that video — afraid you’d see it and think differently of me. but even without it, i still wouldn’t be “normal” enough.
we met on an app where all i’ve uncovered are my own insecurities. the final pillar, our fate, was just part of my endless search for comfort. maybe i should take this reaction, this feeling, this longing as a lesson to keep my dating life private. deep down, i always knew i should.
reminding myself of the ending of all modern tales, i tell myself i couldn’t care — knowing you’d hurt me eventually. is my honesty nothing more than a desire for us to burn already?
maybe we’re each other’s clarity. i can’t remember laughing with you. i only just learned your last name, trying to conceal my identity from judgment. am i sad over the fantasy ending rather than reality? every man approaching me, i pray that its different. my shadow looms tall above it all. i blame men for never wanting me longer than a fortnight, but if i were in their shoes, would i even want myself? i was about to sit here and pity the discomfort of being trans, an onlyfans creator, and the world’s worst secret keeper on social media. but maybe that’s where the problem stems.
we had talked about being serious two weeks in. i'd never told a man i had boundaries before. i can sense us both recognizing the foolishness to fall so carelessly at twenty. comforted by my kisses on your neck, your breathless face looking down at me in missionary. is that all i can reminisce? was our chemistry our sex? was i the other woman the entire time? its over now.
i can sense your fatigue. you asked me,
"whats wrong?"
to which i said,
"nothing".
i couldn't tell you my wishes to be exclusive. choked up at the idea of you rejecting me, or if what i felt was true. you said
"ill start"
as i packed the bowl, ablaze my thoughts of you into clouds of smoke, you murmured
"you left early in the morning without saying anything.. and even now i can't tell if you meant what you said about wanting something more".
i did. i couldn’t sleep that night, haunted by my existence both online and in front of you. but leaving that night was driven by my own pride. we had stayed up until four a.m., kissing, perched on your lap, staring down at you with molly shimmering in my dilated pupils. i'll miss the way we made love even if it was casual all along.
was i too sudden with my wishes. did i lead you to believe i was more than the mess i made of us. can i even receive love if i blame you in your silence. would i write this if i didn’t mean it? or am i just another sucker for love, with no sense of what it really means.
writing this i can't help but feel sorry — sorry for disregarding your feelings, for failing to voice my thoughts about us, and for not realizing sooner how deeply i hurt you. projecting the pain i've endured from men before, i lost what i so deeply prized.
maybe it was just another summer fling, maybe it never meant more than that.
BETTIE PAGE & TEMPEST STORM in TEASERAMA — 1955, dir. Irving Klaw

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filme vencido, setembro de 2024
Sharon Stone
Bettie Page
July 17th-20th, 2025
Breathing in a new era
I need to shut up more. "My egos larger than life" - a hate comment someone left in my wonderful messages. The sad part is I agree. Not that I view myself as narcissistic but rather I can see myself from the eyes of others. I've always been insecure and now growing my platform, I feel scrutinized heavily. I need to be the dream girl if I want to be successful. I can't say too much, I can't stay quiet, but I can't be myself any longer. I feel myself at a plateau allowing my snarky personality to shine, humorous to fellow dolls, women and gays alike but to my audience I guess I'm really only appealing to sissy's with a humiliation kink. I need to feel obtainable to people even if I hate it. I need a hiatus. To finally start that podcast I've spoke about, to create a media outside my vulgarity but rather creativity. I hate myself. But hating myself will only pivot my growth. I need to breathe. Breathe in the humility that only time will heal, and transform into the person that will take me further. A new era.

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i hate myself.