Supernatural Journey
Without spoilers: y’all I just started watching Supernatural (S2 Ep 5). I’m an older sibling but why do I resonate more with Sam than Dean but then occasionally Dean’s protectiveness over Sam? Yeah, then I’m like yes, I like Dean more than Sam but I also still like Sam over Dean? Is it bc I have a twin 4min older and a younger sibling thus making me an older yet younger sibling?
Crisis. Somebody in the Supernatural community help?
Edit: abt to start s3 now, yeah I would have done what dean did
Edit 3/2/25: I just decided to turn this into a post abt my hyperfixation on the show.
Currently on S3 Ep 5. Sammy why? Sammy, u went to Stanny, learn from past errors.
3/11/25: Just finished S3 ep 12. Y’all I suck at communication too, but what the hell was that as in hell literally.
Rewatch update: 9/19/25: S4 x 5 I'm sick as a dog but I'm finding my comments absolutely hilarious why did I insult my pookiebear castiel like that right at the beginning of S4? He's just a baby!
3/15/25: I started S4 a two days ago and now I’m on S4 Ep 7,. Conclusion: castiel needs two things: chapstick and a hairbrush and sam needs to fuck off.
3/23/25: met Mark Sheppard and Jared Padalecki. Just read the post my dudes.
3/24/25: started S5 and now im somehow down a Good Omens/Spn armageddon fanfic rabbithole and this is before ive met other Crowley (yes I know other Crowley exists).
3/26/25: y’all just can’t let Sam get sober huh? And also Cas’s lack of personal space awareness is so funny to me bc Aziraphale is like polar opposite.
4/1/25: after a long day of lab work I binged 4 episodes of spn ended on 5:18 and I think I’m hopping on the destiel train and I don’t know whether or not I should be scared. Also dean is a mood and I almost cried bc I would actually do the same thing for my sis. (Also I’ve had like 5 min of air time of spn crowley and he would SO get along with GO crowley imo)
Edit 12/7/25: Finished Swan Song and now I’m on the dean apple pie life with lisa hate train probably bc Ive finish the show and am rewatching. Currently debating on continuing into season 6 bc soulless sam was funny as fuck but still?
4/13/25
How the fuck am I almost done with S7? Seriously this is mildly concerning. I also have a Dean item and I love it. Okay breakdown:
Sam: Okay, you've redeemed yourself for the time-being, use your words
Dean: Use your words and you are way past binge-drinking, do you need an intervention?
Sam&Dean: USE YOUR FUCKING WORDS
Cas: NO.
Meg: Gurrrllllll
Garth: mood.
Crowley: tbh, mood, very forward thinking, but also... dude?
Bobby: BOBBY FUCKING SINGER YA IDJIT I LOVE YOU
Also 6x15 HAD ME CRYING BC I'M WATCHING THIS LESS THAN A MONTH AFTER MEETING JARED PADALECKI BRO IT WAS SO BAD
Edit 12/7/25: love how I never talked abt the season 10 finale. Dean destroying his hotel room was…interesting and haunts me
5/21/25
On S12x5 bc I definitely didn’t binge a little to take the edge off of finals week.
100% sure Mary clocked Destiel as gay the moment she saw them.
Crowley and Rowena are certified Girlbosses 🙌 (idk hate ‘em love ‘em idc, theyre both efficient at what they do).
Sam’s character arc is. Dying? Idk how to say it, it just feels so heavily dependent on Dean which is heavily dependent on Mary atm.
Man, I love Cas. He’s just so fr.
OH CONTROVERSIAL TAKE: DEAN AND THE DARKNESS WAS SOOOO UNECESSARY. LIKE NAH DUDE NAH.
What the fuck is up with the British Men of Letters. OFC UR GONNA BE MORE EFFICIENT UR TINY ASF.
AMERICA IS FUCKING MASSIVE.
They also did charlie so fucking dirty. Aw hell nah.
(Btw my tiktok feed is spn edits and idk how the fuck it got there bc it used to be cat videos? I recently learned Jensen Ackles can sing just like Tom Ellis and now I’m like please put those two in a room together and have them sing a duet I think I’d melt.)
5/28/25
Binging and crocheting, currently on 12x14, holy shit, I've been reading Dean whump, but watching Jensen act as Dean? Dean who needs his mother? Dean who's spent his whole fucking life taking care of Sammy as his number one priority only to just be betrayed by his mom by the BMOL who NEARLY KILLED SAM BY THE WAY?
Dean takes the cake when it comes to "eldest daughter syndrome". He wins. God he may be in his 30s in this season (idk how old they are, I think 37? Bc he was 25 in S1, so you add 12, and get 37 idk) but holy moly, he needs someone to take care of him.
AND OH MY GOD AM I MOVED BY THE ACTING.
One more thing 12x13 was unfair. The WInchesters are allowed to have family but Crowley and Rowena can't keep Gavin? Like ik they're all fucked up in their own way but I still think it isn't fair.
6/13/25
13x16: I MADE IT TO THE SCOOBYNATURAL EPISODE!! IT TOOK SOOO MUCH HARD WORK BC I'M IN SUMMER CLASSES RN AS WELL AS DOING AN EXEC TAKEOVER AS WELL AS STARTING AN EDIT ACCT AND ALSO FIGHTING TO WATCH SPN ATM BUT I DID IT. I LOVED IT IT WAS AMAZING. DEAN CUSSING? CAS BEING PAIRED WITH SHAGGY AND SCOOBY? VELMA KISSING SAM? PEAK! I LOVE IT!!
6/17/25
14x1:
OKAY LIVE UPDATE BC I'M CACKLING TF OUTTTT (AND YES I KNOW I REALLY SHOULDN'T BE BUT I CAN'T STOP REWATCHING THIS SCENE FOR ITS SUPREME INACCURACIES)
I just got to 14x1 and OMG FIRST MUSLIM SIDE CHARACTER SLAY? AND THE NETFLIX SUBTITLES CALLED OUR ATHAN (call to prayer) MUSIC. SO I'M ALREADY DYING BC WHOEVER THOUGHT THAT WAS MUSIC 😭
AND THEN! My guy starts praying. Alr good he starts properly and I'm like great #representation! AND THEN!
BRO JUST COMPLETELY MESSED IT UP! LIKE DUDE? WE GET ONE TIME REP AND?? BUT THAT'S NOT WHAT MADE ME LAUGH OKAY?
ITS BC DEAN JUST SHOWED UP OUT OF NOWHERE WHILE THE DUDE (CONVENIENTLY NAMED JAMIL) WAS IN SUJOOD SPEAKING IN AN OVERLY ARAB ACCENT.
AND THEN JENSEN IS TRYNA SPEAK IN ARABIC/ QUOTE THE QURAN IN A PEAKY BLINDERS SUIT AND I CAN'T ITS KILLING ME.
LIKE WHAT. IK I SHOULD NOT BE LAUGHING BC IT'S MY OWN RELIGION BUT SRSLY SOMEONE SEND HELP.
(I think it's the spontaneous deanification of the whole thing. Like why?? WHO DECIDED THIS WAS OKAY??)
Edit 12/7/25: holy shit i didnt know j.ackles tried to learn arabic for this role and chose is fit and now i feel awful but like i was so far removed from the fandom atm particularly for s14 😭
7/3/23
14x18
I can’t believe that I’m almost done. I know I’m in for a world of hurt for s15, however, one thing:
I am glad Mary Winchester is dead. Like fuck her tbh. Lowkey useless to the plot besides starting the show…
Uhh, and I accidentally found out two VERY relevant things about Destiels deaths (bc ik they’re gonna happen just not how) THAT ARE REALLY REALLY RELEVANT TO MY FUCKING LIFE AND ITS PISSING ME OFF ATM.
So fuck me for accidentally reading a fanfic without checking that it was a fix-it fic 😭
Also… there’s something wrong about Jack…
7/17/25
5x3 I think I finally hit the divorce arc that everyone talks about? Also Rest In Power Rowena, you will be missed.
5x4 OMG THEY PLAYED SOUNDS OF SOMEDAY??
Edit 12/7/25: my bitchass landed in Radio Company’s Top 500 listeners on apple music tf
7/20/25
I watched The Confession today and cried and my friggin' Urban Decay Ultra Matte Setting Spray still preserved my makeup through my tears. Like what the hell was that. Somebody please help, like please, like seriously I'm crying thinking about this but my dang setting spray is making me look glam.
fix-it fic recs please. please. i need to heal. my heart hurts.
(it also mildly feels like i got my spn virginity taken from me)
Edit 12/7/25: i found out this ep was released on my cats bday tf
7/21/25
I finished supernatural. the ending kinda hurt my soul. like a lot. i don't really know what to do with my life now. like what do i watch? (lowkey wanna watch s1-s5 again but idk)
but yeah, i can finally log this as complete. almost six months to finish these seasons. thats criminally insane. i kinda js hope jensen or misha drops by our local fanexpo for The Boys.
(lowkey tho, give me ruth o'connell)



















