physician heal thy self

what if u lived in a small town and u were GAY and MISERABLE and u KILLED URSELF and then u WOKE UP in ur COFFIN even tho u asked to be CREMATED and u dug urself out and u had to look ur parents in the EYE and they still LOVED U and u meet another dead man who thinks ur the MESSIAH and runs a CULT about ur EXISTENCE but he FALLS IN LOVE WITH U AS A SINGULAR PERSON and then the SHOW ENDS AND IS NEVER RENEWED.

That gap in my resume is from when I was on a doomed Arctic expedition… no I don’t wanna talk about it

One of the weirdest things that rewired my brain as a teenager is an episode of red dwarf where everyone gets judged by themselves for their worthiness to exist. And Lister rags on himself so hard he gets written out of existence, meanwhile the other characters are judged worthy of existing, just by giving themselves some grace about their failings. And while the whole scenario is played for laughs it really changed the game on how I judged what I have or have not accomplished in my life. Something about how if you don't appreciate how far you've come you'll write yourself out of existence really clicked in there.

“come, let us march against the powers of heaven, and set black streamers in the firmament to signify the slaughter of the gods” is such a raw line you’d think it’s from Shakespeare, but it’s actually from the slightly earlier Elizabethan dramatist Christopher Marlowe

but ykw at least i'm not on mount everest. at least i'm not paying tens of thousands of dollars to slowly suffocate in a 300-person line at the gates of hell. never in my life will i have to be steered in a hypoxic stupor through the maze of poop and corpses atop mount everest. on this earth a lot of horrible things can happen to you without your permission but there are a few that you have to opt into. you can just say no thanks! and be guaranteed never to have to be on mount everest. much to be grateful for actually