The Jay

this is NOT JUST MAN BOOBS this is WOMAN BOOBS

we are achieving a bit more of a pronounced round shape and pushing out a bit further from my torso

they are still mostly man boob shaped but progress is progress

one of these days i am going to succeed at having a hands-free anal orgasm. it's been my white whale for years and i never had the energy to keep pushing for it, the cleanup and occasional grossness always put a damper on my motivation to keep going for it but since i transitioned and started hrt i've 1) been way more into my own body and 2) just ... idk my libido is weird. I've always been somebody who jorks it to pass the time but lately i've been more into really feeling the good vibrations and pushing for stuff that feels good not just gets me to nut and then move on i seem to have found a routine for keeping it pretty reliably clean so that helps the motivation and cleanup between sessions today i think i got closest. my favorite dildo (which i usually just use as a cock-shaped plug because of how soft it is) and me just really trying to focus on sensations and maximizing the feels in the moment. maximum relaxing and being present with what's going on. trying not to see it as a finish line i have to cross and more something i'm doing for its own sake i think it's working. i'm learning how i can move and flex kegels to change up the sensations - tensing myself makes the sensations sharp and intense, then relaxing is almost like releasing that intensity into my body to spread out and it feels awesome. it feels like the buildup to an orgasm. when i flex i go hard, pulling way off to the tip of the dildo and then slamming back as quick as i can. then when i relax i just sort of mellowly gyrate around and let it fill me up. why did i feel the need to say this to anybody? who knows. im lonely and dating is scary and i feel like i want more than just no-name hookups like the guy i have listed as Dick Destination in my phone.