Magpie Love
โThe first rule of love,โ her mother says, voice crackling over the phone, โis to never take more than they can give.โ
Finolaโs eyes dart to the shoebox under her bed and then back out the dorm window. Her room is on the second floor this year and she can see more of the trees than she can see of the grassy space preceding the dining hall. โI know, Mom.โ
โRemember.โ Her motherโs voice is sharp and Finola can almost see her heavy, thick brows lowering until shadows cover her eyes. โNo clothing. No bags. Never any jewelry.โ
Finola wraps her free arm around her waist and closes her eyes. The light breeze rolling through the window smells like eucalyptus and mint. Her mouth waters. โI know, Mom.โ
โThose are the big things,โ her mother says, โbut remember that too many of the small things can amount to a big thing.โ
The shoebox under the bed gleams in a stray ray of light. Finola licks her lips. โI know, butโI need something. I have to. I feel like sheโll disappear if I donโt.โ The words are inadequate for the sick fear in her stomach each time she loses sight of her. The horrible certainty that something bad will happen if sheโs not by her side. She rubs a hand over her mouth.
Her motherโs tongue clicks. โThatโs old instincts, Finola. Fight it. You donโt want your father and I to pull you out of school, do you?โ
The memory of watching her high school fade out of sight surfaces and, in that moment, sheโs sixteen again. She can feel her heart beating too fast, the scream ripping out of her throat, the way the ropes chafed her wrists. She can smell her first loveโs perfume, cloying peach, in the air. She can feel their separation like a death in the pit of her stomach, radiating up into her chest, her throat, her head.
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