hana la rene

Early song drop for you & Bandcamp only(:

About "For Now"

In 2021 l was cancelled on TikTok for...being a woman in a skate park on roller skates. It was entirely stupid, but woke up to 8M people, with millions upset that l had spoken up about the sexism I was subjected to for just trying to enjoy a hobby in peace mid-pandemic. I was subjected to doxxing, harassment, and was physically assaulted by mobs of men and teenage boys.

It has been 5 years since then, and I still deal with stalkers, CPTSD, and more to this day.

That experience opened my eyes to aspects of social media I hadn't thought about previously. I watched the way social media's mob mentality could tear apart the average person, myself, as well as larger content creators, and started wondering...was there more to this? Bystander syndrome certainly runs rampant irl, but the online community seemed so ready and willing to pull out their torches and pitchforks to hold the moral high ground. People share every second of their lives without any thought to how one moment could flip everything against them. Hidden behind their phone screens one could say and do anything, seemingly with no consequence. Or was there?

Valid or not, we are pulled apart. Everyone is a performer now, whether they want to accept it or not. But who are we performing for? Why are we keeping each other in line by some societal construct of what is acceptable or not to post? Why are we surveilling each other? When did community turn into... whatever this is?

sorry I disappeared for a minute, I've been crashing out about a lot of different things but here's a song I wrote recently and I'm working on releasing.

I just really liked my fit today :')

styled by me!

trapped in time

even if you have risen

from ashes you'll decline

because most days if I'm being honest

it's the MET of places to forget

in my mind it's all fog that swirls

and a dream I can't awake from yet

but still

it's there

no matter

how I try

temporal

in essence

but dreary

so I cry

so I cry

oh I wish that I

could forget

all this is regret

for how I wish I handled this

better

but I can't

so I cry

and I cry

as I will

until the day I

While I think that we all have a choice in what we do with our lives, I also feel that life itself is a wheel and some of us are just hanging on for dear life!

pre-save link:

"Who Am I?" is out on all platforms on Nov 13th