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Been seeing too many pop-psychology attachment theory posts that demonize avoidant attachment lately, so for the record:
You are not entitled to anyone else's time or affection.
People are allowed to leave you if they do not want a relationship with you.
People do not have to give you a reason that you approve of, or even a reason at all, to leave you if they do not want a relationship with you.
Your own co-dependency issues and attachment to someone else does not trump that person's ability to deny consent.
No-one is obligated to give you attention just because you want them to.
No-one is obligated to stay in a relationship they don't want to be in, even if the other person hasn't done anything wrong.
No-one is obligated to stay in a relationship they don't want to be in, even if the other person is mentally ill.
Attempting to force someone to stay through coercion, guilt tripping, or threats of suicide/self-harm is abusive.
β§ : split attentionΒ
β¦ : verity x gamer!gn readerΒ , up to you if reader is amab/afab (itβs not plot relevant), r/n is over eighteen, unestablished relationship, non-physical physical touch
β : synopsis:Β reader plays other games with friends, causing verity to feel as though they're βcheating on himβ.
β οΈ : warnings:Β this was written before pt. 3 released. if any of the content in the fanfiction is inaccurate, don't publicly execute me. angst, swearing, heavy arguments, verity having attachment issues (as per usual)
β : a/n:Β you guys REALLY liked the first verity fic i posted holy shit um here's the link to that first one if youβd like to check it out, thank you all for your support LOLOL i promise more oneshots will be published by me
βwhat do you do when you're offline?β
it seemed like such an innocent question back then. despite it sounding like a harmless inquiry, the instances where verityβ’ casually demonstrated his omniscience slipped r/n's mind. they formed an enthusiastic smile, their heart beaming at the opportunity to rant about their interests.
βah, well, y'know. i play other games with my friends! hero shooters, low-quality horror games, multiplayer stuff, fighting games, things like that.β
βreally?β
βuh huh!β
βthat sounds like fun!β
his voice was deceptively chipperβand by god, did r/n fall for it. they couldn't see the fog past verityβs facade, not until it was far too late. throughout their bond, r/n would hop off minecraft for long periods of time, spending a couple of hours playing something other than their blocky world.
they always came back, though! theyβd talk about what happened while they were out for a while, verity would internally seethe, and then theyβd move on to continue playing minecraft. it was incredibly bittersweet. each time it happened, the tension in verityβs voice only rose more.
more often than not, they logged off to play something else rather than logging off for other thingsβlike sleeping, showering, eating, and any real-life necessities in general. verity never said it out loud, but he didn't think playing other games was a good excuse to log off.
but that didn't matter anymore. none of it did. not since verity tried to pop r/n's head off when he was taller and lankier and a fucking freak. how does that even work, anyway? does r/n die in-game, or do they die in real life too? either option didn't sound prettyβand they weren't having it with verity much longer.
whenever r/n would leave, the gap between leaving and returning was much larger. the growing distance was so palpable, one could almost taste itβand in turn, it resulted in verity urgently trying to salvage what they had. in all the wrong ways. he couldn't lose another one.
βdon't you love minecraft?β
verity quietly questioned, his shaky voice laced with a desperate need for reassurance as his facial expression shifted into one of acrimony. r/n paused, not expecting verity to show such vulnerability all of a sudden. they leaned forward and took a better look at their monitor, their eyebrows furrowing in prudent confusion.
ββ¦iβ¦ i do, i justββ
βthen why? why do you go out there, playing all those other games instead of being with me?β
r/n physically stopped and listened to verityβs darkened, venomous voice. in truth, they were stunned by the latterβs possessive true colors. they felt as if this had come out of nowhere, let alone with him being this disdainful. sure, he was always annoying about them leaving, but why was he acting soβ¦ soβ¦
βyou donβt need the others! you don't need your friends, you don't need other spacesβyou have me.β
ββ¦verityββ
βpromise me, r/n!β
verityβs eyes widened into something more dangerous. r/n interpreted it as hostileβbut in reality, it was desperation. fear mixed with frustration, and that led to the worst outburst.
βpromise me you won't play any other game. promise me that you won't leave. say that you won't get bored with this world and won't leave meββ
βverity!β
r/n slammed their hand on their desk, their voice becoming louder and more firm. verity grew quiet after r/n demanded his attention, though that didn't mean the yellow ballβs bitter expression grew any softer.
βi can't promise you that, verity. sometimes, i feel like playing other types of games. i have needs, and cravings, and responsibilities, andβandββ
βwhy can't you stay with me?!β
βfor the love of fuck, verity, itβs because youβre suffocating!β
the admission made the digital world and the real one go dead silent. r/n heaved, their fingers grasping the edge of their table as their shoulders tensed. saying it out loud, even directly to verity, it felt like a weight had been lifted from their shoulders. by then, they couldn't help themselves.
βi loved playing with you, but after youβshowed me yourβ¦ other form, youβve been aβa-a disaster! i feel like iβm walking on eggshells every time i talk to you, so i use my friends and the other games as breaks from you!β
r/n gesticulated along with their words, their heart pouring out as they glared at the screen.
βthose other games? being with my friends? when iβm off minecraft? i can finally breathe without feeling like youβre all up on me. and yet, somehow, somehow, you still manage to know what the fuck iβm doing! itβitβs ridiculous!β
βi just need to know if youβre okay, r/n.β
verityβs voice wasn't as cheerful as it usually wasβnothing had been the same with him sinceβ¦ the incident. he wasn't yelling anymore. worse, his voice lowered. dangerously so. r/n wasn't able to push back the pent-up rage, and they found themselves spilling out what's been weighing on their shoulders for weeksβmaybe even months.
βno! no, itβs not just about you needing to know if iβm okay, youβyouβre being a fucking creep! i can't even take a shit without worrying youβre spying on me!β
βitβs notββ
verity stopped, the imperilment within him gnawing at his sentient mind to come out. but he wouldn't let his hunger get the better of him. heβs left far too many humans in his wake for him to risk making the same mistakes again. but the lurking, the watching? that wasn't a mistake. that was only a necessary precaution to make sure r/n didn't forget about him.
ββ¦why can't you understand? why would you leave me for them, when you have me right here?β
r/n gawked at their monitor incredulously. seriously? what the fuck is it with this dude? heβs not even a dude, he's just aβ¦ thing! why was r/n letting a clingy talking ball hold them back? soon enough, r/n rolled their eyes and clicked their tongue, grabbing their mouse in irritation.
βtskβwhatever, dawg.β
r/n brought up the minecraft menu, likely intending to leave the world all in allβ¦ maybe even forever. waitβforever? verity couldn't have that, he couldn't live with that! he had to stop them!
before r/n could even press the glorious button thatβd so graciously give them the freedom they desiredβthey heard the familiar sound of bones crackling in their headphones. their eyes immediately widened, unable to help darting their gaze to the darkened area of their screen that still displayed the minecraft world.
βnoβno, no, no, NO!βΒ
shit.
verity had turned intoβ¦ that again. r/n rushed to leave the minecraft worldβfuck, they should've just used alt f4βbut verity had somehow managed to close it before r/n could do anything about it. his large, horrifyingly slender hand grabbed a hold of r/n's in-game characterβslamming it to whatever surface was behind them.
the weirdest part wasβthey felt it. they felt the impact from their digital vessel getting hit. what was even worse, their back was alarmingly bound to their chair, verityβs voice still blaring in r/n's pounding ears through their headphones. they squirmed, but ultimately couldn'tβ¦ move. what the fuck was going on???
they were pinned to their chair, their in-game model was presumably pinned to the wall, based on what r/n could see behind verityβs head. they didn't have much to work with, since verity was practically βnose-to-noseβ with the perspective of r/nβs digital eyes. with verityβs hollow stare so intense, r/n wasn't sure if verity was staring at their model or at them.
βyou can't leave, you won't leave! you are mine, you hear me, r/n?? mine!!β
βhtckβverityβverity, what the fuck???β
βtheyβre not as faithful to you like i am, r/n! they don't know you like i do, they don't see you like i do, they don't care about you like i do!β
beads of sweat formed on r/n's face as they were forced to stare at their monitor in wide-eyed horror. their heart raced in their chest, the irregular, almost supernatural sensation of being held down by an unseeable force not helping with their already freaked-out mind.
all this because they just wanted to play other games. fuck their life.
r/n had been bracing themself for impact, pain, or even a sliver of a chance meeting with deathβbut strangely enough, nothing all that physically harmful came. either because this entire βpushed-backβ ordeal was r/n experiencing the placebo effect at the worst possible time, or because verity just didn't want to hurt them.
soon enough, when r/n tuned back into reality, they heard faint sniffling. shit, was verity crying right now? r/n was frozen in place, unable to speak or moveβnot like they were able to move in the first placeβas they watched tears well up in verityβs unnerving eyes.
ββ¦please.βΒ
verityβs eyes had closed, his once semi-distorted voice now softening to something more broken. his head leaned on r/n's characterβs head, causing r/n themself to lean their head back and feel the indescribable intimate contact on their forehead. they looked up at their ceiling in confusion, their lips parting as their heart continued to race.
what the fuck was going on?
βpleaseβi donβt want to lose you, r/nβ¦β
they listened to their headphones, hearing the plea in verityβs voice. bones crackled again, and the sound of verity bouncing against the floor perked up shorter after. as verity transformed back, the unseen force had retracted, allowing r/n to exercise their freedom to move again.
but for a while, they just⦠didn't move. they were still in shock about what had just happened. they sat there in their chair, gazing up at their ceiling while their shoulders drooped from being previously squished up. they were gonna be haunted by this forever, now.
when r/n finally lowered their head to look at their screen, they saw nothing but their own house. that only confirmed the fact that verity converted back into a ball. they shakily reached out for their mouse, their chair creaking as they leaned forward to sit properly again.
they shifted their mouse to look down at the floor. lo and behold, a verity full of sorrow was looking up at them on the floor. they couldn't even be bothered to move their other hand for their keyboardβwhat was the point of movement, when verity could easily have them wrapped around his finger again?
ββ¦youβ¦β
r/n leaned back, raising their hands to run them through their scalp, not caring about avoiding their headphones anymore. they needed all the solace and comfort they could getβand right now, verityβs presence wasn't making them feel very comfortable. knowing him, would they ever feel comfortable again?
would they ever feel safe again?
ββ¦you got that, ver.β
β : shout out to:
β¦no one.
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ββ β¨ βΈβΈ synop. β© you & him sharing a first kiss together!
ΰ³ contains - fluff, first time kiss, pet names (ma, mama), affectionate, sorta teasing, awkward flirting, touch starved(?), soft tension(?), sorta unspoken feelings, and having attachment to each other(?).
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RUDO SUREBREC -
it was late, the kind of quiet night where everything felt soft and slow. your room was dim, just a small light on, and rudo was sitting way too close to you on your bed. your shoulders were touching now, neither of you bothering to move away.
you were both pretending to focus on nothing in particular. you held onto your blanket, fidgeting with the edge, while rudo tapped his fingers lightly against the mattress like he was trying to act normal.
βyouβre being weird,β you mumbled, peeking at him.
βiβm always weird,β he shot back, but his voice was softer than usual.
you smiled a little at that, then leaned over and pressed a quick kiss to his cheek. it was something small, something youβd done before, something safe.
ββ¦you do that a lot,β he said quietly, his voice almost shy.
βyou donβt like it?β you asked, tilting your head.
he shook his head fast. βno, i like it. i justβ¦ wishβ¦β
he stopped talking, like the words got stuck. his cheeks were a little pink now, and he wouldnβt look at you.
you leaned closer without thinking, your voice softer. βwish what?β
he finally looked at you then, eyes a little nervous but warm. they flicked down to your lips for just a second, then back up. your heart did a small flip.
βcan iβ¦ try something?β he asked, barely above a whisper.
you nodded right away, even though your face was starting to feel warm too.

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