autism incarnate

Because that makes sense. Anyway, this poison would submit me to its well-known and much-feared symptom: "17 Day Paralysis" in which you're paralyzed for exactly 17 days and you only chance of survival is to be on full machine support for 17 days.

Just before the medical team intubated me I remembered I have a Zoom meeting with my academic advisor today (I actually do in real life) and I needed to email him to let him know I was the victim of a mass-poisoning and would need to reschedule.

I kept trying to type the "□" symbol in my dream but could not figure out how and gave up.

Don’t ever hug a lobster when you see one on the street,

For decorum is essential when a lobster you must greet.

You may comment on the weather, compliment his choice of hat,

But crustaceans like their space if one should stop them for a chat.

Don’t ever hug a lobster when you’re strolling down the coast,

Simply nod and give a greeting, or a handshake at the most,

For a lobster’s first priority is formal social graces,

And one seemes over-familiar if a lobster one embraces.

Don’t ever hug a lobster when you meet one in the sea,

For a lobster’s spines and chitin make it difficult, you see,

And he might become self-conscious if you bring that fact to light,

1 note: a sip of water; repeatable (tuesdays are usually my pass-out day bc I haven’t drank water all week)

10 notes: Eat a lil bit more per meal

50 notes: finish one meal; repeatable (ED recovery program makes me eat at least a lil but I’m struggling)

100: I do a homework assignment; repeatable

150: train for lifeguard certification; repeatable (muscle atrophy has got me FUCKED)

300: I finish my NHS application

500: I finish art piece (I don’t usually let myself rest and have fun)

800: I eep for eight hours a night (I get 2-5 on average)

1000: I quit caffeine entirely (most likely have POTS so it gives me heart issues and dizzy)

1500: I eep for 9-10 hours a night + 24 ounces of water a day

2000: ask my mom for trauma therapy (all my therapists have quit bc i have too much trauma)

5000: GET MY RAPIST OUT OF MY LIFE