I like talking about sex and drugs and stuff. Scram, it's not for your safety, it's for my comfort and I want nothing to do with children.
Hello! Hi! I'm fleshengine, you can call me Flen. I’m your famous mutual’s famous mutual. I won't bite, unless you ask for it.
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I'm a 21 year old writer/english major trans woman from Washington State. I'm also a spidergirl, idk if I'm a furry or therian with it, but it's pretty neat. I'm also a shambling pile of vat-cloned meat in the shape of a human. I'm also an ominous blue eye starin' at you on your dash, but don't worry it's cuz I love you. Idk, identities are hard when you're trans, and have a dissociative disorder, and have an illness that causes chronic pain. I could list all the labels that apply to me but I find microlabels exhausting, I'm a cool gay girl, I use she/it and you're welcome to figure the rest out yourself.
DMs are open (I think?), the ask box has anons on. You're welcome to talk to me, as that's what I'm here on tumblr for. Be careful tho, talking to randos on the internet is how I ended up in a throuple with two beautiful women, so watch out.
This is a personal blog, first and foremost. I'm going to be stupid and gay with my girlfriends, I am going to shitpost, and I'm going to occasionally make longer form posts about things I'm passionate about. Those things can be anything from MTG, to kink, to philosophy. If you follow me for one of these things, and don't want to see the other stuff, tough shit! My tagging system sucks ass and I don't even use it all the time.
If you follow this account, you will occasionally see untagged porn, kink, violence, gay sex, magic the gathering, and existentialism. If you want solid tagging go to my art blog @terriblearmoire or my gimmick blog, which no one knows the name of.
That said, here's my tags I use.
#smoochuals - something a mutual posted or added in a reblog
#posts that make me gurgle - I thought this post was hot and wanted to be able to find it later.
#wowzers - often coupled with the above tag, I arbitrarily use one or the both of them.
#revving the engine - thoughtpieces, anecdotes, rants. really any sort of long form text post.
#pilfering my old corpse - posts I've stolen from my old, dead, account.
#meatqueuedator - queue post tag. it's a really obscure reference.
#I have an art blog btw - something I'm reblogging from my art blog, self explanatory I guess.
#relic - an old post from pre-2018. I like the way tumblr recirculates old things, I want to be able to find them later.
#resourceposting - any kind of resource, something useful I want to come back to.
#boob update - talking about breast development from E and prog
#prog update - talking about physicaly developments from progesterone, often overlaps with boob updates.
#spider - There's an image of a realistic spider that may trigger arachnophobia
#spiderposting - I myself am a spider, and I'm talking about that.
#girls of interest - newest tag, to refer to my lovely girlbuddies turned girlfriends, @apfsds and @numbersareimaginary
#mtg - I'm actually consistent with this one for some reason. It's self explanatory
#losers - a tag I stole from Mordred, something I append to people who are being annoying
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that this post has generated angry vitriol baffles me because it is just straightforwardly true?
This does not mean "trans men have it good"! Trans men are oft subject to "corrective rape" precisely because there is a desire to force them back into womanhood, for instance.
Nonetheless, it is demonstrably true that the discussion of trans men focuses on "misled women" while trans women are treated as an existential threat. Understanding this fact is crucial to building an accurate model of modern transphobia.
honestly, puppets just really scared... because of the people leaving and lonelinesss but.... its neverending. it doesnt know what to think about when it thinks of the future. or anything
it just wants to love... and be loved... but the fear it lives through is so overpowering......
I saw these things driving around LA and my first thought was some enterprising drug dealer could dress up a remote control ice chest up to look just like one of these things and deal drugs in broad daylight and no one would be the wiser
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You made a post gesturing toward transfeminists whose names start with Ta and try to use the term "Radfem" having thrown more marginalized transfems under the bus, and am I correct in thinking that one might be Talia? I'm fairly new getting into transfeminist theory and really liked her writing, did I miss something? (genuine question, I know who the other Ta is and if Talia is that bad then YIKES)
Re: Talia Bhatt
So to be upfront, I have VERY personal beef with Talia Bhatt as she helped spread my HAL to save her own skin, but that’s secondary here. I have an “impersonal” issue of her antiblackness, harassment of Black transfeminists, and attempt to officially revise her antiblackness into a “transmisogynist accusation” while hiding the actual details to highlight (I was not involved personally back then), as well as my personal experiences.
1. Antiblackness and transmisogynoir
Documentation and primary sourcing on this is minimal because most accounts discussing it across platforms have since gone private or deactivated, but I was able to acquire some to share including accounts from Black transfeminists active and involved at the time.
Circa 2024, Talia had a personal transfeminist discord that underwent a major split explicitly because of antiblackness within her server that she defended, instigated by a trans woman posting Nazi shit on Twitter. After this was addressed publicly by Keeks (absolvedhistory), a Black transfeminist, her and her faction proceeded to harass Keeks and other Black transfeminists, accusing the addressal of antiblackness to simply be transmisogyny.
Below posted with permission
On top of that, she later used an academic article to revise the history of her antiblackness and what occurred. I share the following screenshots rather than going and getting fresh ones mainly because this is what I already have in my phone and doing this shit is exhausting.
There’s also a public post from another transfeminist speaking on what was known of this incident in Transfeminist circles at the time.
So yeag I think, objectively, that she’s antiblack and transmisogynoiristic and her transfeminism is kinda worthless due to that outside of very specific and limited applications. It’s also wild to me how, because antiblackness is seen as not a serious issue beyond giving it empty acknowledgement within non-black anglophone transfeminism, she was able to not just be antiblack, but have it almost completely erased from the internet so she can be viewed solely as a “good” transfeminist theorist of color who’s books are in bookstores and is regularly talked about in the same sentences as Serano, etc.
My PERSONAL shit with Talia and additional reasons I think her transfeminism is worthless due to her being willing to throw it away on a whim will be in a reblog of this post, because tumblr mobile has a 10 image limit.
2. Perpetuating my HAL/throwing me under the bus to save her own skin despite knowing pieces of my HAL weren’t true.
Because she’s dating my ex Katrafiy and also nonwhite, over on Bluesky she got accused of being a racefaking account I was using to keep publishing theory after I got doxxed and put in a psych ward due to serial harassment and trying to kill myself. To rebut that, she threw me under the bus by repeating a bunch of shit from my HAL as if it was fact and proof why she wasn’t me. Same clique that helped her harass Keeks and other Black transfeminists backed it up and kept repeating it all.
Thing is, I hadn’t even wanted Talia involved in the first place. At the time, my ex Kat had previously been explicitly spreading my HAL and supporting the people who HAL’d me repeatedly, including giving them personal information on me despite knowing and having previously told me she knew it was all lies.
When I asked a mutual who was a brown transfeminist for input, I explicitly asked them not to tell her and it happened anyway.
A month after this is when I got doxxed on Bluesky and harassed into attempting suicide, and in the past year I learned my ex Kat provided some of the info used to doxx me to the person that instigated and coordinated it.
So overall, in summary, I personally think think Talia Bhatt’s transfeminism is completely worthless because she’s antiblack, transmisogynoiristic, and willing to sacrifice other transfeminists of color to save her own skin while perpetuating the attempted social murder/exile of them when she knows it isn’t true, so long as it benefits her.
Since her friends talking about it rn, has Talia done anything yet to address her antiblackness and act in a reparative fashion towards those she harmed or is she still pretending it was an attempt to HAL her and getting it laundered through academic articles?
Is the clique perhaps critiquing a style of justice primarily built from the work of Black activists and abolitionists who see a need for alternatives to Literal Slavery As Punishment or Mob Justice Lynchings because they never touch shit on the topic written by Black authors or taking a second to understand it beyond the white abstracted concept they are likely only familiar with?
Shit, do they even know who Mariame Kaba is?
Anyway, I include foundational works on restorative justice, transfeminism, womanism, abolition, and more for free in my Transfeminist Womanism drive, including a “foundational” folder that acts as a guide to basic concepts and writings in each of those, which they all could probably use.
Anyway, that’s all of my being petty for now. Remember non-Black folks, be glad Black folks want yall to be better than your antiblackness and don’t want you dead for it instead 💖
a ton of people have unexpectedly followed me over the last 2 days so here is my rent-lowering gunshot:
the american south is the most racially diverse and poorest region of the united states, and any political sentiment that treats the south is stupid or expendable is inherently racist and classist. a lot of y'all are racist and classist. the south is also the heart of american culture. argue with a wall. you cannot deny that everybody in the entire world does not emulate artists from atlanta. there is vested interest in keeping the south poor and uneducated BECAUSE this is the most racially diverse region in this country. if you actually give a fuck about progress, you would fight for the south, not mock us.
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Something I think about a lot is online far right chuds who get deep into the "return to tradition" "the world you were born in no longer exists" shit but hate actual churches bc "its just boring boomer shit" like fuck you asshole yeah you go to your local church, even your local conservative church, and its gonna be old people who want you to stick around after service for mid food and a preacher who will read a very old book to you. It will not be a 30 year old with a low taper fade telling you about IQ and the race war while he plays csgo. Maybe consider skydiving without a parachute instead.
it's always fascinating to find out what their mental conception of "the traditional world i was born in" was lol
they'll be like ohhhh man we all gotta retvrn to church and then get pissed that church is still the same stuff their parents dragged them to when they were kids, maybe with some slightly different hymn lyrics and bible translation if they're really daring. just straight up what were you expecting sir? you thought they were going to have crash bandicoot on ps1 in the pews? mt dew baja blast on tap?
RACE WAR STATISTICS. ALL THEY WANT IS A CHURCH SERVICE THAT IS WEIRD RACE WAR SHIT DONE CALL AND RESPONSE STYLE, THEN THEY WANNA PUT ON A SUIT OF WARHAMMER 40K POWER ARMOR AND SHOOT BROWN WOMEN. THATS THE WORLD THESE FREAKS ACTUALLY GET HORNY OVER AND ITS NUTS
npr ran a story this morning on air about the recent supreme court ruling in favor of trans youth sports bans, a ruling that specifies trans girls in particular and allows even public schools in red states to do whatever kind of exclusionary policy they want. and for this story they interviewed two people: a teenage trans boy in massachusetts who participates in tons of school sports, and an activist trans man in nyc who runs a nonprofit for trans youth. I'm not saying that either of these people have absolutely nothing pertinent to say about trans youth issues, but the teenager from MA mostly spoke about how lucky *he* is to participate in sports and the activist from NYC spent the entire interview plugging the book he wrote while barely answering a single question. The activist guy mentioned that he actually has spoken to the west virginian trans girl who was part of the case, but only to say how proud/sad he is to watch her become an activist "just like him".
not to be a critic, but its crazy to me that they could not speak either TO or ABOUT the people affected by this ruling (trans girls in conservative areas) at all. a combination of transmisogyny and shitty reporting means that the takeaway from that segment seemed to be "well, it sucks, but at least blue states are still allowed to be accepting of trans youth" rather than the very real attempts to eradicate trans people from public life or the very real possibility of violent retaliation against trans girls in these states.
during the activist's interview, the radio host asked him if he could quickly dispel some of the myths around trans youth in sports somehow being unfair to cis youth, and his response was to awkwardly shrug off the question and say that the answer is simply too "complicated and nuanced" to give a short soundbite on air about. are you fucking kidding me? live on WNYC with about 1 million weekly listeners, and you can't just say with your whole chest that trans girls belong in girls sports because they are girls too? come on
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