I like talking about sex and drugs and stuff. Scram, it's not for your safety, it's for my comfort and I want nothing to do with children.
Hello! Hi! I'm fleshengine, you can call me Flen. I’m your famous mutual’s famous mutual. I won't bite, unless you ask for it.
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I'm a 21 year old writer/english major trans woman from Washington State. I'm also a spidergirl, idk if I'm a furry or therian with it, but it's pretty neat. I'm also a shambling pile of vat-cloned meat in the shape of a human. I'm also an ominous blue eye starin' at you on your dash, but don't worry it's cuz I love you. Idk, identities are hard when you're trans, and have a dissociative disorder, and have an illness that causes chronic pain. I could list all the labels that apply to me but I find microlabels exhausting, I'm a cool gay girl, I use she/it and you're welcome to figure the rest out yourself.
DMs are open (I think?), the ask box has anons on. You're welcome to talk to me, as that's what I'm here on tumblr for. Be careful tho, talking to randos on the internet is how I ended up in a throuple with two beautiful women, so watch out.
This is a personal blog, first and foremost. I'm going to be stupid and gay with my girlfriends, I am going to shitpost, and I'm going to occasionally make longer form posts about things I'm passionate about. Those things can be anything from MTG, to kink, to philosophy. If you follow me for one of these things, and don't want to see the other stuff, tough shit! My tagging system sucks ass and I don't even use it all the time.
If you follow this account, you will occasionally see untagged porn, kink, violence, gay sex, magic the gathering, and existentialism. If you want solid tagging go to my art blog @terriblearmoire or my gimmick blog, which no one knows the name of.
That said, here's my tags I use.
#smoochuals - something a mutual posted or added in a reblog
#posts that make me gurgle - I thought this post was hot and wanted to be able to find it later.
#wowzers - often coupled with the above tag, I arbitrarily use one or the both of them.
#revving the engine - thoughtpieces, anecdotes, rants. really any sort of long form text post.
#pilfering my old corpse - posts I've stolen from my old, dead, account.
#meatqueuedator - queue post tag. it's a really obscure reference.
#I have an art blog btw - something I'm reblogging from my art blog, self explanatory I guess.
#relic - an old post from pre-2018. I like the way tumblr recirculates old things, I want to be able to find them later.
#resourceposting - any kind of resource, something useful I want to come back to.
#boob update - talking about breast development from E and prog
#prog update - talking about physicaly developments from progesterone, often overlaps with boob updates.
#spider - There's an image of a realistic spider that may trigger arachnophobia
#spiderposting - I myself am a spider, and I'm talking about that.
#girls of interest - newest tag, to refer to my lovely girlbuddies turned girlfriends, @apfsds and @numbersareimaginary
#mtg - I'm actually consistent with this one for some reason. It's self explanatory
#losers - a tag I stole from Mordred, something I append to people who are being annoying
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My problem is that I need a haircut but there's so many things the affect the kind of haircut I want to get that I can't every find one that works for me.
Like I'd like to to be above my shoulders so that it doesn't catch on the gorgets we wear at swords. But I also need it to look definitely feminine because I need every scrap of femininity I can manage so I can pass consistently. But I also need it to look queer so that other queer people will know I'm one of them. It can't be too short, I kinda want bangs, my hair is only a tiny bit curly (like a very tiny bit you can only see when it's short and washed correctly) so it doesn't have a ton of volume, and also I'd like it to be low maintenance because I'm bad at keeping up with personal grooming and stuff because I'm depressed.
Do you understand why it's hard for me to get a haircut yet?
The thing about the "trans women are capable of harm" type posts and blogs like transmascvoicesproject is that on a daily basis trans women are told that we are predators, that we are violent, that we have the rape organ, that we solely exist for fetishistic reasons and that makes us dangerous to be around. Society never lets us forget this. Cinema never lets us forget this. Terfs never let us forget this. Political parties on either side of the spectrum never let us forget this. These people post like they live in a world where trans women/transfeminine people are shielded from the consequences of our actions by our identities, but that's a fantasy. We are not only held accountable for our actions, but responses to our mistakes and transgressions are often extremely worse than that of other people. Not to mention, a lot of trans women are lied about, marked rapist/pedophile/abusive by an abusive, transphobic ex, and then isolated and removed from friends groups for the crime of coming out as trans. This is so, so, so common.
We do not need you to remind us we are capable of harm, trust me when I say we fucking know.
Every trans girl I know is too afraid of being seen as a predator to allow herself to be intimate with someone else. It takes years of understanding ourselves as something outside of the common archetype for us to get over that.
But go ahead. Tell me again that I'm capable of harm.
I'm probably going to be single for the rest of my life, I could spend the rest of my life without having my fucking genitalia being called "The Rape Organ".
Is that enough penance for the crime of "having been born with a penis"? No?
As if AFAB people aren't capable of being rapists. As if they aren't capable of being abusers.
I tire of this bioessentialist rhetoric..
I assure you, some of the most abusive, misogynistic people I've ever had the displeasure of meeting have been trans men.
Its got nothing to do with a Rape Organ, and everything to do with toxic patriarchal conditioning and dog eat dog socioeconomics.
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