☆Vaporeia Swim☆

A few weeks ago, I mentioned that I left the Dandy's World fandom because of the Qwel controversy. I REFUSE to support that person by playing, creating fanart, aus or making content about her game and the characters she created.

For those who don't know, that was my other main fandom along with Deltarune (and Pokémon).

Even though I wasn't creating content about it, I had planned to (I have unfinished drawings and ideas I never got around to that I'll NEVER upload).

I had spent many hours playing, getting everything, and even though I had some good moments, I made the decision to leave the fandom.

Knowing this, I regret to say that I'm leaving the TADC fandom. I've been there since the pilot, waiting for every episode, which I watched completely and enjoyed immensely for my own.

I had a part of this animation that I showed two months ago... but I left it unfinished because of all the mood swings I had.

I was stuck, unable to make any progress, and I didn't touch it again until yesterday. And now, I've finally been able to finish this part scene.

That gif isn't this whole part animation, it's just a "silly thing" that I done:

Regarding the situation, I'm still feeling a bit down and tired... but at least I've gotten back to drawing after the low mood of the other day.

I'm really depressed, with no energy for anything, and I don't see myself doing anything, much less commissions.

So, instead of doing something out of obligation and not being able to give it my best to produce a decent drawing... I'm going to close them.

I'm so sorry for the inconvenience: I wasn't going to be back here so soon until this situation arose.

So, I'll continue to be on an indefinite break until I'm feeling better.

Don't worry about me: although my commission plan didn't work out, my family is doing things to try and fix the money issue.

Thank you so much to all my mutuals and everyone who reblogged it and offered to support me in that way. I truly appreciate all the help. 💙

But in the end, the only person who contacted me was one of those Tumblr bots trying to scam people (it didn't even ask for a drawing).

I know it has to do with the fact that I'm a small artist; I'd never done commissions before, this happened to me suddenly, and many people can't afford to...

So, if I don't get any messages (the bot doesn't count), I'll be closing commissions again until further notice.

I hope this can be resolved, even though I can't offer any help to my family...

To sum it up the context: Some businessmen took advantage of my family because they refused to sell something for a much lower price.

Those guys tricked and scammed my family, demanding a large sum of money if they refused and my family denied to sign with that price.

After six years, they finally went to court, and... the businessmen won.

Now, as punishment, without a warning, the bank has taken ALMOST all my family money, and soon, I could end up on the street with my dad... *because my family doesn't get along AT ALL; LONG story.

I really want to help them recover everything they lost (which is A LOT of money), but I'm an artist with fewer than 70 followers...

I never really thought about doing commissions, much less emergency ones... So, I don't know how these things work.

I'm sorry to bother everyone, but when I said "things could only get worse", I DIDN'T mean it for nothing... First of all, if anyone knows how these emergency commissions work, it would be really helpful.

The end of May was awful, but this June has been like last year... worse. *I still think the depressive episode is "milder" than the first time, although I feel pretty bad.

I didn't have enough strength to replay Deltarune Chapter 3+4 (after replaying Chapters 1 and 2) before the Chapter 5 release... And I played this chapter, directly.

Also, the secret boss in this chapter... I didn't have enough strength to beat it; I was able to finish the chapter *(I found it on my own and only got to the final attack on my third try).

I've tried drawing or making animations, but in the end, I left everything (except, the videos and videogames), unfinished... even though I tried my hardest. *I even left my profile "half-finished" because, mentally, I didn't have the strength to stay drawing.

It's not just to "avoid Deltarune spoilers until I play it," but because I'm completely exhausted from EVERYTHING in general.

For some reason, whenever I go to see something on the site, it loads a really old version first.

First, I always have to refresh, and by the time I realized the mistake... Tumblr had already AUTOMATICALLY saved the post. 💀

Everything I did these past 3 days was for NOTHING... I have to do it ALL AGAIN. 🫩

I've never found the 9/11 joke funny, or have I found it funny to laugh at any terrorist attack, historic event or accident *(even though 25 years have passed, it's still a terrorist act, and whenever I see anything related to it, it disgusts me so much).

I don't like dark humor jokes *(In the past, I was very edgy and "liked" them, but there are a few of people who use them as an excuse to make laugh about of others...)

I've never found the joke 67 funny, but I accept it more than the one about the Twin Towers *(although both are very overused and that influence so much).

And finally, the one you'll probably agree with me on: I don't like brainrots or AI-generated thumbnails/art/videos.

Let's see how long it takes the people to burn me alive, unfollow me or block me... (on Twitter it takes me seconds 🥹)

Small explanation below: